The Perpetual Healing Garden - SweetSue's Joyful Return

[millertm]

I think to much of a good thing is bad. I'm a recreational user but now that I have more then I'll ever need I'm losing interest and will take a break too. My tolerance has never been this high. It's sick what I'll load in one session. Looks like I fell down the rabbit hole and got lost. Growing has changed my life and now I need to change it back. It's hard not lose sight of what's important to me and my family.

Cheers

Sent from my SPH-L720T using 420

 

[Canyon]

Sue,
Occasionally I will go out of town overnight without smoke and can handle it with mild grumpiness. I also put myself in situations like your vacation, where circumstances are not going to let you medicate for days on end. They are also tolerable, especially after day three. Where I fail is trying to cut back when I am just doing day to day things. Some of it is just habit I suppose.

I do think that it is a good idea to do some kind of routine to reset tolerance levels. Sometimes less is more.

Spacing out single hits, I don't think I could do it unless I was close to out of stash.

I wish you had some CBD chocolate to try while on the THC restricted routine.

I never know
canyon

 

[Radogast]

LOL, the short hair thing ...

I'm a Northerner with Southern roots, so I often see the world from two discordant viewpoints. In the South, you don't see much short hair on women. In the North it's considered chic and confidant, but Southerners don't like it. In the North, my wife's signature short cut gets constant referrals to her stylist, and then we'd take one of our regular trips to the South and all the women would have longer shoulder-length dos. Same thing with pants. If you see a woman there with short hair wearing pants, you can be pretty sure she is/was a yankee.

When I hit my 50s and my hair started to fall out unlike my father's - big surprise (curse you maternal hair genes!) - I realized that there's just the one way for old balding men to wear their hair. Look around. It's all one inch long all over. Like a baby's cap, only bald on top. You ask for advice from the professionals and it's always the same. "Yeah, uh huh, let's just cut it short." So, being me, I decided to see what would happen if I didn't, cause "normal" from me seems to confuse people. It's been five years since I cut it. But get this! - it breaks off just past shoulder length! I don' even hafta cut it anymore! Old gray hair is so dry it crumbles after a couple years, heheh. So at home I pad around with a wild mane of crazy gray hair, and I just tie it back when I leave the house. After a couple years I took to wearing hats, too - better than the bald pate. The youngsters think I'm cool and the old ones tolerate me as much as they ever did I guess. (Maybe they're just jealous - yeah, that's probably it.)

There is ALWAY a limit to how long hair grows. I had my last haircut in the 90s and my hair never went below the small of my back. When my hair went to gray and wiry it shortened to biceps length. After shedding the ex-wife some of the color came back, but it only got about an inch longer. North or South they all seem to think I belong somewhere else


To answer Sue's question:

I sometimes braid my beard to look fierce and Viking - 3 times or less per year.

I only wear a ponytail when my hair is embarassingly limp/dirty or I need to do work under a car.

My hats are fashion accessories, not baldness covering neccessities - somewhat surprisingly since the maternal grandfather was balding in his forties and my dad about the same.

I feel my aging more in the lask of stamina/resilience than in my hair. 3 hours weed whacking yesterday left my arms tingling for another hour. 2 or 3 hours is about my limit for diggingand shoveling these days. I may end up renting a bobcat or roto-tiller to dig and reslope the back yard on the new house this summer. I'm still thankful that I can chop wood and carry water as needed. Spiritual enlightenment will have to come if it comes.


And how about that CBD Critical Cure! She is stealing the show from Dark Devil Auto so far

 

[RheinRover]

Good Morning Sue! By the time you see this you'll be in the 50's the home stretch is close!
Things are quiet around here today. Spent the morning messing around and cleaning the reclaim from my dab rig.

geezz I'm boring today! I hope you have great weekend.

 

[SweetSue]

I think to much of a good thing is bad. I'm a recreational user but now that I have more then I'll ever need I'm losing interest and will take a break too. My tolerance has never been this high. It's sick what I'll load in one session. Looks like I fell down the rabbit hole and got lost. Growing has changed my life and now I need to change it back. It's hard not lose sight of what's important to me and my family.

Cheers

Sent from my SPH-L720T using 420

I hear ya millertm. It's an overindulgent celebration once you reach the "jars of it! stage. How long has your's been going on? Mine started with my first harvest and hasn't really stopped since. I took a voluntary vacation without for 7 weeks over the holidays and swore then I'd never go without again. Never say never. I don't have family to worry about, but I understand your concern. I went from sharing an eighth with my husband over two days to almost 3 grams a day on my own. Doubled my own consumption.

Reading that right now made me pause and consider that this little experiment is actually a very good idea for me, isn't it? If I can consume that much and still not be in perfect health...... You know, thinking about it though, I'm slowly but surely growing healthier, so maybe that's a good level for me. Ah well, it's all in the name of science.

Sue,
Occasionally I will go out of town overnight without smoke and can handle it with mild grumpiness. I also put myself in situations like your vacation, where circumstances are not going to let you medicate for days on end. They are also tolerable, especially after day three. Where I fail is trying to cut back when I am just doing day to day things. Some of it is just habit I suppose.

I do think that it is a good idea to do some kind of routine to reset tolerance levels. Sometimes less is more.

Spacing out single hits, I don't think I could do it unless I was close to out of stash.

I wish you had some CBD chocolate to try while on the THC restricted routine.

I never know
canyon

The spacing out of the single hits is only for these early days. On Sunday I'll discover where the optimal dose is and try it out for another day or so to see if it's a good fit. What I've noticed is that single hit has caused mild euphoria that's lasted almost an hour before I notice it's passed. That was damned impressive.

It's not just a vacation from THC Canyon. It's a vacation from cannabis. You can overload the CB2 receptors too.

There is ALWAY a limit to how long hair grows. I had my last haircut in the 90s and my hair never went below the small of my back. When my hair went to gray and wiry it shortened to biceps length. After shedding the ex-wife some of the color came back, but it only got about an inch longer. North or South they all seem to think I belong somewhere else


To answer Sue's question:

I sometimes braid my beard to look fierce and Viking - 3 times or less per year.

I only wear a ponytail when my hair is embarassingly limp/dirty or I need to do work under a car.

My hats are fashion accessories, not baldness covering neccessities - somewhat surprisingly since the maternal grandfather was balding in his forties and my dad about the same.

I feel my aging more in the lask of stamina/resilience than in my hair. 3 hours weed whacking yesterday left my arms tingling for another hour. 2 or 3 hours is about my limit for diggingand shoveling these days. I may end up renting a bobcat or roto-tiller to dig and reslope the back yard on the new house this summer. I'm still thankful that I can chop wood and carry water as needed. Spiritual enlightenment will have to come if it comes.


And how about that CBD Critical Cure! She is stealing the show from Dark Devil Auto so far

This was a sweet read. I imagine they're going to miss your presence when you move.

Yes indeed, I'm mighty impressed with her. I was researching CBD strains until 3:30 AM, trying to find an appropriate one for the 13-yr old (I need one with a ratio of 1:4 CBD:THC) and remembered that the breeder warned that she'd need staking to keep from snapping her branches in late bloom. This one can potentially come in around 2:1, similar to the Med GOM 1.0. She's really starting to swell now. CBD Critical Mass isn't going to be as tall, but I suspect she's going to be just as heavy, judging by the amount of trichome production I'm seeing now.

Good Morning Sue! By the time you see this you'll be in the 50's the home stretch is close!
Things are quiet around here today. Spent the morning messing around and cleaning the reclaim from my dab rig.

geezz I'm boring today! I hope you have great weekend.

Boring? Nah. Good morning RheinRover. Down to 52 hours now.

Oh guys......a celebration is called for. Stepped on the scales this morning........ 172.7 lbs. I have FINALLY broken the 175 lb barrier.



I know I'd lose weight faster if I watched my diet, but there's no real fun in that and I don't want all that sagging skin. Yuk! This way it's slow and steady and the Callanetics sessions smooth the skin out as I go. I've been hoping to break this barrier since November. The holidays set me back 15 lbs, but that's ancient history now. Back on my way to svelte.

 

[millertm]

If I was a medical user it would be different. I've seen and heard it's benefits from you and this forum and it's great that it works well. I'm just new to growing and could never afford to have this much on hand. Xmas was 1st harvest and I've been lit since. It's hard to stay competitive at work with my mind so relaxed. But I'll adjust and overcome and be a better person on the other side.

Cheers

Sent from my SPH-L720T using 420

 

[SweetSue]

If I was a medical user it would be different. I've seen and heard it's benefits from you and this forum and it's great that it works well. I'm just new to growing and could never afford to have this much on hand. Xmas was 1st harvest and I've been lit since. It's hard to stay competitive at work with my mind so relaxed. But I'll adjust and overcome and be a better person on the other side.

Cheers

Sent from my SPH-L720T using 420

I have every confidence in you. You can figure out how to keep a competitive edge at work and still be relaxed. Isn't it a sweet taste of freedom though, to be free from your "regular guy"?

 

[kelticBlue]

To answer Sue's question: I sometimes braid my beard to look fierce and Viking - 3 times or less per year. I only wear a ponytail when my hair is embarassingly limp/dirty or I need to do work under a car. My hats are fashion accessories, not baldness covering neccessities - somewhat surprisingly since the maternal grandfather was balding in his forties and my dad about the same.

Sounds like me when my hair was long, I only wore a ponytail for the same reasons like working in the shop around power tools. It will grow in all uncontrollable and wild so it has got to be all or nothing with me, right now super short it is. It takes work for me to grow it. So i is lazy bones. My maternal G-daddy had tons of hair just like me but he was also about 6 inches taller than me. I got the hair but not the height. I got my short height from the son of a leprechaun that was me dad. I like to grow a red-grey beard like a pirate! Arrrrr. you guys Rock!

 

[mouser]

46, and my hair has been in a pony tail for at least the last 30 years. Not really a fasion statement per se, but more of a 'too much damn work to keep it short and neat' As it gets thinner, vanity may change my mind for me

Congrats on the weight loss mile stone, and good luck with your fact finding mission on tolerance. I reguarly cut out anything I consume a lot of just to keep things in the realm of family acceptance. They have an irritating habit of staging interventions

 

[SweetSue]

46, and my hair has been in a pony tail for at least the last 30 years. Not really a fasion statement per se, but more of a 'too much damn work to keep it short and neat' As it gets thinner, vanity may change my mind for me

Congrats on the weight loss mile stone, and good luck with your fact finding mission on tolerance. I reguarly cut out anything I consume a lot of just to keep things in the realm of family acceptance. They have an irritating habit of staging interventions

My daughter's fond of looking at me with a smile and sweetly pointing out that I'm high all the time now, to which I always respond with "Of course." Lol!

 

[Nismo12]

Thanks for the encouragement nismo. At this point I really want to see if a recreational consumer can reset the system the same way a patient might need to. Let's be realistic though, as soon as I've answered that question I'm going to go right back to mega doses. But I'll know, should I ever need to, how to do it right.

I get a little irritated at how everybody's ready to legalize medical cannabis, but the attitude about recreational is still that there's something wrong with you if you indulge. What cannabis does for my creative expression and social interaction is just as important, IMHO. I'm missing that sense of cosmic connection that I get about three hits in.

I'm glad you get to indulge tomorrow. Sunday at noon, I'm all in.

nismo, do you smoke high CBD? My daughter tells me the CBD-dominant plant she's vaping is almost miraculous in how effectively it modulates pain perception. It keeps her migraines at bay too.

I've looked into some high cbd strains, but I also enjoy the high lol. We did pick up some CBD in a glass dropper and put a couple drops of it under the tongue a couple times a day. It works wonders to be honest. Canna uses it a ton more than I do so she would be the one to ask about how strong it is. I think it is 50 mg doses.

 

[SweetSue]

I think the daughter and her partner have found the apartment they were looking for. This means they'll be moving sometime in the next month or so. They're thinking about an old restored Victorian that has three apartments, one per floor. The town they're moving to looks pretty inviting. I bet I could find a nice place there too. She'd like it if I stayed close. You never know.

In the meantime, I'm still flirting with the idea of putting up a larger tent after they move. I don't have enough space. look at this jungle!

I understand it'll thin out as soon as the Criticals finish, which will be by the end of the month. It's going to be a trick to keep them far enough from the light.

 

[Canna Montana]

Hey there Sue! Nis texted me to tell me you are researching cbd. I take it daily. 3 drops under. The tongue for as long as I can keep it there before the mouth starts salivating. Usually try for longer than 15 seconds, but the bottle says 1-3 drops for 10 sec before swallowing.

The store we purchased the code from sells 2 strengths. 50mg and 350mg. I opted for the 350mg as I use cannabis daily and didn't think I would notice the 50mg.

Part of the reason I take it is to even out my mood. I can let a lot of things roll off my back, so to say, but other things, simple things can infuriate me. I've seen red once and never want to act like that again. I don't even remember the situation as I was so mad. I feel alright talking about my feelings in here as we are all trying to better ourselves in one way or another.

Back to the cbd. I leave it on my night stand so I take it when I get up, and when I go to bed. That way it's there constantly.

You can also vape the liquid we bought. It says you can mix it with e juice, but we tried it by itself. 3-8 drops in the vape machine is the suggested vape serving.

It tastes sweet, but not pleasnt. I think that's why it's sweet. It's not a terrible flavor by any means, just something you don't taste on a normal day without the drops.

I hope this sheds some light for you, if you have any more questions I'd be happy to help.

I don't envy your current sober situation, at all. Good for you for doing it. Maybe you can use the cbd oil while on your detox to help take the edge off. I'm not really sure if that's allowed in your plan.

I'll attach a pic of my cbd bottle for you to see. It is a 1.5ml bottle with a dropper on it. Cost around $50 in our area.

I was holding my phone right, hoping the pics are all facing the right way, but I fear they dont. Either way, I hope this info helps you and your daughter. Have a great day Sue, and try not to think about Mj too much... yeah right. Lol

 

[SweetSue]

Canna, you're so sweet to think of me. I just had my second dose today, my one hit of Dark Devil Auto (thank goodness we grow such potent plants) and it improved my mood somewhat. I can't take anything cannabis except my regular dose while I go through this. Taking additional CBD would pollute what I've already achieved. I also don't have access to any oil in Pennsylvania. They just legalized, and they're telling us we can expect two years before oil is available in the state. Politicians.

Thank you for that share though. I'm fascinated by the products available. They give you no indication of the strain used? I'd want to know that.

We're cultivator's. I grow some of the best CBD strains available in some of the best soil you can build. I have over a half ounce of Med GOM 1.0 jarred and curing and two monster CBD beauties in my tent flowering away. We don't buy oil, we make it individually matched to each reciepient. Ouch! That sounded rediculously elitist, didn't it? It wasn't intended to be, but it's reality for this community

Honestly, I would make my own oil because I would be certain of its contents and CBD works best in synergy with THC. I'd rather vape though. I don't like stuff under my tongue. If it goes in my mouth I'm going to swallow it. I know me. Have you considered a vaporizer next to the bed with a CBD-dominant strain? This would be my choice. A nice CBD concentrate in the vape pen would be faster still. All things someone as talented as you are capable of growing and making on your own. Maybe a CBD lozenge, or, even better, a CBD laced brownie bite just before bed, which would carry you right through the night.

Ahhh.... I reread, and you dose morning and night. Apparently it's working well for you. It is working well for you? Does it work consistently? That had to be a relief to find. All without nasty side effects. You gotta love this plant.

I think all the CBD strains may start out tasting nasty. I know this Med GOM 1.0 is odd.

Doing the protocol I've become aware that without cannabis my mental state suffers dramatically. Medicated, all the stresses roll right off me. Without, I must be on constant alert for depression, something I don't do well at all. I was making my notations on my inner inventory and suddenly noticed the way I'm writing. One of the ways I can be alerted to depression is how my writing flows on a page. Normal state of mind, my script runs smoothly side to side in alignment with the top of the paper. Depression brings with it a certain level of pessimism, and a pessimistic mind will cause script to fall down the page. Kinda like this:

I'm watching myself carefully. My daughter's been spending time with me. She's just asked me if I've been aware I've been depressed for the past two years. Honestly, I wasn't aware it was that bad. She tells me she doesn't worry because I have pot. If I didn't have cannabis she'd worry, so she's sticking close through the protocol. I'm not worried about me either. I've had three occasions today where I stopped what I was doing and curled up on my bed in fetal position, but it passed each time.

This is not normal behavior for me. Not that I've never been here before, just that it's been quite a while. So I'm drinking lots of water, listening to pleasant music with the birdsong outside my apartment accompanying, doing my best to keep a positive state of mind. Only 41 hours to go, and at least 8 of them I'll be asleep. I've only been sleeping four hours a night since yesterday. Getting tired.

On the plus side, the singular hits are great! Just not enough of them. I have one more dose tonight at 10, after which I may go to bed. I should sleep well tonight.

Let me get these pictures loaded in and get the update done. I'll watch some Facts Irish People YouTube videos and laugh uproariously while I do the uploads. There you go, a workable plan.

 

[SweetSue]

Wow! Both my iPad and my iPhone are at 34%. Weird.

 

[kelticBlue]

I'll watch some Facts Irish People YouTube videos and laugh uproariously while I do the uploads. There you go, a workable plan.

Lovely funny stuff

I have not watched them in quite some time, .
Hi Sue

 

[ShiggityFlip]

Much love your way Sue. It's amazing how we can experience all the symptoms of depression and stil not realize we are depressed. It's like a child who is abused. They never realize they are abused till they get to their teens (ask me how I know lol).

Know this.

In this universe you are resting on the cosmic fabric that binds us all.
When you breathe in you are pulling in energy from the universe through the top of your head and down through your spine and out the base of your pelvis all the way to the earths core. When you exhale the power of the deep earth comes up through you and blows any negative energy out the top of your head. Give it up to the universe. None of us is strong enough to carry it more than a few moments. Give it away to the stars and sky.
When you are having trouble falling asleep try 4-7-8 breathing. Breathe in to a count of 4. Hold for 7. Exhale for 8. Repeat. If you can't hold it the whole time just shorten it rather than having discomfort. Consciously think of your breathing and how it is counted. Think only of the counting and the breath. Then at some point you will let go. Meditation is what happens at that point. Between the one thought and the next. At night it is enough to make you sleep.

 

[kelticBlue]

try 4-7-8 breathing.

Excellent Shiggs, Gonna give that a go. I got work this weekend and sometime need a bit (lot) of help on work nights.


G-Nite

 

[SweetSue]

Thank you Shiggity. The breathing meditation was one I'd never encountered before, so what a delight! Right up my spiritual alley.

I try to practice 4-7-8 breathing at least twice a day, although I've never attempted to use it as a sleep aid. I usually simply stay up until I start falling asleep and then I pass right out as the head hits the pillow.

Oh! I just realized it's after ten and I can take my last dose. I've been typing for hours, trying to get this dosing course formatted and posted. It should be up by Sunday at the latest.

Gosh, it's hot and sweaty here.

Forgot I had an update. Let me do that before I take my singular hit.

 

[SweetSue]

Daily Update: Friday, June 3, 2016


Let's do a quick run through. Starting with the veg tent.

If you look carefully you can see signs of bending and tucking of branches to work on the canopies. It's all progressing beautifully. No complaints from the gardener. I don't see any unhappy plants down in there, do you?

A quick peek into the flowering tent.

These snowy caps on Critical Cure are unbelievable. (day 114, flip + 49, CATs + 17) You can see her sugar leaves are finally building trichomes. She's got a couple weeks to go yet. Plenty of time.

By way of contrast, CBD Critical Mass is already covered all over with developing trichomes. (Day 114, flip + 31, CATs + 2) It occurs to me I may have mentioned somewhere earlier that the last drench was her first CAT, when in fact it was her second.

Pone of the things I'm waiting for with CBD Critical Cure is for all of the colas to sprout those snowy peaks. This one's just getting started.

She's growing monster colas. Look at them beefing up!

Zamaldelica (Day 18) She got a spinosad spray today. I see no further signs of the thrips. I also see no signs of them on the Critical cousins.

I dropped a small rock on the surface to keep her from rising any further off.

The clone attempts. This one is Carnival.

Shiva Shanti ll

Last, but not at all least, we have the DDA2.

That's my girls today. Everyone's happy.

Time me for my final dose of the day. I'm probably going to turn in now. My eyes are really tired now, after all that typing. Thanks for stopping and keep spreading that joy around, ok? OK then.