The Perpetual Healing Garden - SweetSue's Joyful Return

[Mars Hydro]

look good

 

[SweetSue]

Sue, make time for your exercise program. After your workout, take a shower and go for a walk, or pick some flowers, or dig in some dirt, or cook and enjoy a great meal.

Occasionally I take a few nights off smoking (never mornings) to not have a reliance on cannabis for sleep. For me, physical activity until exhaustion isn't enough, I need something after to help me sleep. Some teas have helped as well.

Get outside and find something to enjoy. Read in sunlight if you can, or keep the lights on for a few days.

Excellent advice 36, and I'm so touched that you cared enough to offer those thoughts. It's a bit late to start the exercise tonight, but it's first thing in my agenda for morning. I did, however, walk to the labyrinth this morning, a two mile walk plus the labyrinth path, and then did that same walk this evening with my walking club, so I got plenty of outdoor time with a good four plus miles in. I did take that nice shower afterwards too. At 12:30 AM, I'm beginning to feel tired. It was a long day. After I post the update I'm going to bed.

look good

Thank you Sara. It's always good to see you stopping in.

 

[SweetSue]

Daily Update: Wednesday, June 1, 2016

It was busier than I anticipated today.

Maintenance notes:
- CBD Critical Cure got a TransWater drench.
- CBD Critical Mass got her second CAT drench.
- Carnival and Bubba Kush each got a TransWater drench.
- I did a couple toppings (see below)

Let's stroll.

The toppings the were of Crossroads (Day 36)

and Super Cheese (Day 36).

The tent as it stands right now. I'm too tired to do the labeling.

I thought I had a picture of the flowering tent, but alas, nope

I do do have these pictures of the frostiness on the CBD Critical Mass (Day 112) to make you smile. It makes me smile real big.

The clones are holding their own.

DDA2 (Day 50)

I'm sitting cross-legged on the mat in front of the mirrors admiring how damned sexy I look in really short hair. It was a good day guys. I went to breakfast, walked the labyrinth, got my hair cut, bought shirts that have a color other than gray and made some new friends. Now I'm beat and tired of resisting the urge to raid my own stash. Lol. I'm going to bed.

Good night all. I'm assuming you spread lots of joy? Good. See you tomorrow and we'll do it all again.

 

[RheinRover]

Good Morning! I am so happy to read about your new adventures. The walking club sounds great and you make such a good point you've been in that apartment long enough! Spread your wings, much too many people need your love and light for it to only be shared with us

Was interested to see you notice yourself being a little more emotional while not using cannabis. I find the complete opposite for me, if I'm really baked sometimes just the littlest things can bring a tear to my eye. I watched a quick little documentary on a Merchant Marine during Vietnam who made a promise to his friends he would share a beer with them. So he hopped boats for a few weeks until he made it to Vietnam where he then spent the next week traveling around to all the guys he promised and shared a cold one with them. Being ex-mil myself this really had me choked up seeing the strength of friendship and doing this all while they were at war. What I'm getting at is normally something like that wouldn't do much but while using cannabis I feel so much more connected, in tune with myself. I've always been a sensitive person which being a guy who is 6'2 250# wasn't always the easiest because people always expect me to be the big strong enforcer when I am anything but.
Enjoy your Thursday Sue! Put on one of those new colored shirts and rock that new hair!

 

[Amadeus Forzin]

justgonna leave these here for when you get up. Il leave this here too

 

[SweetSue]

How crazy is it that I tend to the plants before I feed myself?

Brixed

 

[SweetSue]

Good Morning! I am so happy to read about your new adventures. The walking club sounds great and you make such a good point you've been in that apartment long enough! Spread your wings, much too many people need your love and light for it to only be shared with us

Was interested to see you notice yourself being a little more emotional while not using cannabis. I find the complete opposite for me, if I'm really baked sometimes just the littlest things can bring a tear to my eye. I watched a quick little documentary on a Merchant Marine during Vietnam who made a promise to his friends he would share a beer with them. So he hopped boats for a few weeks until he made it to Vietnam where he then spent the next week traveling around to all the guys he promised and shared a cold one with them. Being ex-mil myself this really had me choked up seeing the strength of friendship and doing this all while they were at war. What I'm getting at is normally something like that wouldn't do much but while using cannabis I feel so much more connected, in tune with myself. I've always been a sensitive person which being a guy who is 6'2 250# wasn't always the easiest because people always expect me to be the big strong enforcer when I am anything but.
Enjoy your Thursday Sue! Put on one of those new colored shirts and rock that new hair!

I so look forward to your posts in the morning RheinRover. Please keep doing that.

The sativa's ability to make me emotionally unpredictable initially caught me by surprise and was a bit dicey to deal with, being as empathetic as I am. Somewhere around six months ago that changed in my system. Not really sure why, but as I used sativa dominant strains more and more it began to help me corral the intense emotional responses into something more easily focused and controlled. When I go without it's as though a couple strings snapped. It's getting easier to deal with.

Today I get to rock those colors and this sexy new cut out to lunch with a dear friend.

justgonna leave these here for when you get up. Il leave this here too

Thanks, don't mind if I do. .

My phone alarm is set for noon and all preparations to break the fast are in place. A small piece of Dark Devil Auto sits in waiting. I'll only be able to take one or two hits, at the most, but that's for up to three doses today. You can bet your life I'll take every dose I can get.

 

[kelticBlue]

Tell me I can do this.

I am a sober person. I gave up the drink cause I have some allergic reaction. Drinking is the one thing I can do and do well. But It doesn't agree with me.
The smoke has not been my friend in over 2 decades. It doesn't like me either. Just my body and head cannot tolerate it, probably why I drank so much. Do i miss it yes and no. No regret at this time in my life.

I, for one, think you can do this if not this month then next or next October, whenever, I forget 30 days is it? No worries Kiddo.

I love GT's idea of reading or anything. You need an avenue for you time and energy while you reset.

Okay here ya go,
You have a long list of things you couldn't do but did behind you.
One thing my wise old brother told me when I was young and trying to make a difficult job decision.
"if it was easy everybody would do it"
i dont like to post stuff about me-self, OK? Er, one day I should grab the missus and we will come visit where ever you might be.
I am having a smile today, all day, you in?


EDIT: I see 48 hrs then six day process. I am tickled you did this for better understanding

 

[SweetSue]

I am a sober person. I gave up the drink cause I have some allergic reaction. Drinking is the one thing I can do and do well. But It doesn't agree with me.
The smoke has not been my friend in over 2 decades. It doesn't like me either. Just my body and head cannot tolerate it, probably why I drank so much. Do i miss it yes and no. No regret at this time in my life.

I, for one, think you can do this if not this month then next or next October, whenever, I forget 30 days is it? No worries Kiddo.

I love GT's idea of reading or anything. You need an avenue for you time and energy while you reset.

Okay here ya go,
You have a long list of things you couldn't do but did behind you.
One thing my wise old brother told me when I was young and trying to make a difficult job decision.
"if it was easy everybody would do it"
i dont like to post stuff about me-self, OK? Er, one day I should grab the missus and we will come visit where ever you might be.
I am having a smile today, all day, you in?


EDIT: I see 48 hrs then six day process. I am tickled you did this for better understanding

I'm learning a lot during this process, studying as I go, and it pleases me that in the end, despite where I might settle my personal consumption levels, that I'll be able to tell others with some authority what they can expect to go through and what the end result might be. I'll be so much happier with that idea than to have to say that I simply read about it and it sounded like a good idea.

Talk to me after I try suppositories for the experiential insight.

You and the wife life close enough to me that I could come visit you keltic. You're just a short train adventure away (my preferred mode of transportation). I'd been working in the shadows on a possible relocation that was looking promising, but that fell through in a most complete way just this morning, so I've decided to stop this insane desire to cut and run and settle into my perpetual long-term. My friends here will welcome that news. I've already rechanneled the energy of all that hope and expectation into other projects. When the daughter and her partner relocate themselves I'll be putting up bigger tents. Either that or we'll all move together and get a house with a basement.

Not a bad idea, that.

Have you explored CBD-dominant strains for yourself? It could be your system requires a different ratio of CBD:THC.


Thirty minutes left until I can finally break the fast. This is soooo crazy. Lol!

 

[SweetSue]

Dang! This cut looks good on me!!! I have to laugh, this is my third cut since April and each one got shorter. I'd bet my hair's shorter now than many of the men here. Lol! I sometimes wonder how many of you sport pony tails or braids. I'm pretty sure Graytail does, or used to.

 

[SweetSue]

The protocol states to take one administration and wait five minutes. If you feel anything, stop and go about your day. I knew from the get-go that was going to limit me to one hit of DDA, and yes indeed, I do feel something.

Sadly, that means I'll be waiting six hours before the next one. Happily, it suggests my ECS is doing better than I thought. It made me smile to do the inner inventory though. I scored 10 out of 10 on all three questions, both before and following the dose. Yes, I'm as healthy as I am happy. I've been consistent in getting at least ten minutes a day of absolute quiet meditation (or as close as my mind will get to it some days) for over two weeks now, and that's making a tremendous difference in every aspect of my life. It's amazing the difference a 10 minute reboot of the nervous systems will accomplish. We're such fascinating electrochemical biological entities.

My favorite description of the species was one from an old episode of Star Trek, The Next Generation, when another life form described humans as "ugly bags of mostly water." Makes me giggle every time I recall it.

On to drenches for the LOS girls. Lunch got called off so she can stay home and rest. Maybe I'll take her dinner instead.

Later guys.

 

[kelticBlue]

so I've decided to stop this insane desire to cut and run and settle into my perpetual long-term. My friends here will welcome that news. I've already rechanneled the energy of all that hope and expectation into other projects. When the daughter and her partner relocate themselves I'll be putting up bigger tents. Either that or we'll all move together and get a house with a basement.

Not a bad idea, that.

Have you explored CBD-dominant strains for yourself? It could be your system requires a different ratio of CBD:THC.


Thirty minutes left until I can finally break the fast. This is soooo crazy. Lol!

. . . Since I am looking for a new job, pre-employment/random screens leave me out of the picture.
And my temperament, I am kind O' stoned when sober, then when under the influence I am not there at all. Does that make sense?
Explains why i do not remember most of the 80's'
But None-the-less I do Have retirement ideas. I think High CBD or not will be on the menu. Until then I work and Mrs smokes. She is really happiest with combustion. I like the vapor tech, my plans aside. ; - )
To be clear, I will drink the entire bottle of red wine now and then, but not often anymore, it is not like a 'sober program'. I just stopped my Guinness addiction. tehehehe.
I would seriously drink a 12 plus a night on the weekends. So i am more sober most all of the time.

Dang! This cut looks good on me!!! I have to laugh, this is my third cut since April and each one got shorter. I'd bet my hair's shorter now than many of the men here. Lol! I sometimes wonder how many of you sport pony tails or braids. I'm pretty sure Graytail does, or used to.

I like new haircut day. I remember when I went from all down me back and sun bleached surfer style hair to almost close cropped. People were shocked, That was 1992, but It grew back, just not as sun bleached, I got to work on That.


The state of CO is on our list since our son lives there. We love it there but alas we love being in our city and walking to everything.
Sorry Im a little emotional today, dont know what gets into me.


Cheers on your experiment, I don't think I could get my Mrs to try it. I will mention it tho.



Edit: now my hair just stays short cause I am boring, boring, boring,

 

[Graytail]

Dang! This cut looks good on me!!! I have to laugh, this is my third cut since April and each one got shorter. I'd bet my hair's shorter now than many of the men here. Lol! I sometimes wonder how many of you sport pony tails or braids. I'm pretty sure Graytail does, or used to.

Edit: now my hair just stays short cause I am boring, boring, boring,

LOL, the short hair thing ...

I'm a Northerner with Southern roots, so I often see the world from two discordant viewpoints. In the South, you don't see much short hair on women. In the North it's considered chic and confidant, but Southerners don't like it. In the North, my wife's signature short cut gets constant referrals to her stylist, and then we'd take one of our regular trips to the South and all the women would have longer shoulder-length dos. Same thing with pants. If you see a woman there with short hair wearing pants, you can be pretty sure she is/was a yankee.

When I hit my 50s and my hair started to fall out unlike my father's - big surprise (curse you maternal hair genes!) - I realized that there's just the one way for old balding men to wear their hair. Look around. It's all one inch long all over. Like a baby's cap, only bald on top. You ask for advice from the professionals and it's always the same. "Yeah, uh huh, let's just cut it short." So, being me, I decided to see what would happen if I didn't, cause "normal" from me seems to confuse people. It's been five years since I cut it. But get this! - it breaks off just past shoulder length! I don' even hafta cut it anymore! Old gray hair is so dry it crumbles after a couple years, heheh. So at home I pad around with a wild mane of crazy gray hair, and I just tie it back when I leave the house. After a couple years I took to wearing hats, too - better than the bald pate. The youngsters think I'm cool and the old ones tolerate me as much as they ever did I guess. (Maybe they're just jealous - yeah, that's probably it.)

 

[BrixNewb]

Hey Sue! Glad to see that everything is looking green. I didn't realize that you had so much Critical going on in there. I had Critical x AK47 in my first harvest and it was quite the hit.

 

[SweetSue]

Hey Sue! Glad to see that everything is looking green. I didn't realize that you had so much Critical going on in there. I had Critical x AK47 in my first harvest and it was quite the hit.

I chose these in particular for the low THC. My daughter has difficulty with THC levels. I'd bet that's a nice mix. This Critical Mass is an incredibly prolific trichome producer. I swear, the entire plant's going to be encrusted by harvest.

 

[SweetSue]

LOL, the short hair thing ...

I'm a Northerner with Southern roots, so I often see the world from two discordant viewpoints. In the South, you don't see much short hair on women. In the North it's considered chic and confidant, but Southerners don't like it. In the North, my wife's signature short cut gets constant referrals to her stylist, and then we'd take one of our regular trips to the South and all the women would have longer shoulder-length dos. Same thing with pants. If you see a woman there with short hair wearing pants, you can be pretty sure she is/was a yankee.

When I hit my 50s and my hair started to fall out unlike my father's - big surprise (curse you maternal hair genes!) - I realized that there's just the one way for old balding men to wear their hair. Look around. It's all one inch long all over. Like a baby's cap, only bald on top. You ask for advice from the professionals and it's always the same. "Yeah, uh huh, let's just cut it short." So, being me, I decided to see what would happen if I didn't, cause "normal" from me seems to confuse people. It's been five years since I cut it. But get this! - it breaks off just past shoulder length! I don' even hafta cut it anymore! Old gray hair is so dry it crumbles after a couple years, heheh. So at home I pad around with a wild mane of crazy gray hair, and I just tie it back when I leave the house. After a couple years I took to wearing hats, too - better than the bald pate. The youngsters think I'm cool and the old ones tolerate me as much as they ever did I guess. (Maybe they're just jealous - yeah, that's probably it.)

Dale was the same way. You've seen pictures, but you didn't see the genetically-fueled bald spot that was the top of his head. Lol! The long hair covered it over beautifully. He didn't get his cut until I refused to braid it anymore. (Yeah.... wish I hadn't done that) The last two years he grew it back, which pleased me. He just always looked more natural to me that way - long hair and wild beard, tattooed arms and cool cap.

I spent the last five years of my college adventure in Texas, West Texas at that. Even in a college town like Abeline, I was a standout as "different".

 

[SweetSue]

Daily Update: Thursday, June 2, 2016

At last, I got the pictures loaded. That took much more time than I'd anticipated. I'm losing focus. Just over 63 hours to go. I'll be honest here guys, I'm so close to pulling the plug on the Sensitization Protocol you wouldn't believe it. I sat here this afternoon for a good hour or so contemplating going off line until Sunday. Kinda shakes me to discover how out-of-sorts I feel today. I don't even have music on right now, which is so wrong I need to correct that immediately. Hmmmm...... The Allman Brothers Legendary Hits. That'll do. Starts out with "Hoochie Coochie Man." Sweet. That's better.

On to the grow. Starting out in the veg tent.

All of the LOS pots got their coconut water/aloe juice drench. When I put them back in the tent I turned the pot with Crossroads, so Shiva Shanti ll is now in the center of the tent. Carnival and Bubba Kush both got Brixed.

Strawberry Blue (Day 51), Shiva Shanti ll (Day 30), Crossroads (Day 37), Bubba Kush (Day 50), Carnival (Day 46), Super Cheese (Day 37)

Let's check out the Critical cousins. They got Brixed today.

CBD Critical Cure (Day 113, flip + 48, CATs + 16)

CBD Critical Mass (Day 113, flip + 30, 1st CAT + 7)

Zamaldelica (Day 17) She's finally beginning to actually get on with growing. It didn't help her that I missed the thrips. Tomorrow she gets the next spray with spinosad.

A parting shot from Critical Mass.

The clones. Not sure how I feel about them today. They appear to be holding their own, but I'm not holding my breath. This was just for play. I'll be taking cuttings later, at least from Carnival.

DDA2 (Day 51) These little Velcro tiedowns I worked up with the soft twist ties work wonders for keeping the canopy relatively level. I realized today that the inspiration for them probably came from arteekay. They look different, but this is what he does on his fabric pots. Can't believe I didn't notice that until today. Great minds think alike.

In conclusion today, a couple shots at how level the canopies are becoming. This one's Crossroads.

Strawberry Blue.

Yeah, I'm a bit stoked by that.

Well guys, that's my lineup tonight. Thanks for stopping. I can take another hit now. One more. Just. One.

I think I'll do that and slip into a session of late night Callanetics to get my body and spirit back into sync. It's for science. It's for science. Gosh, I just wanna go to bed. I remember feeling like this early on during the holidays too. It was easier when there wasn't anything available.

I'm gonna let Callanetics win out tonight. It offers much more to benefit me than slipping into bed this early. I'll be in and out over the hours, so I'll be checking in on some grows when I take breaks. I'll be seeing you around the yards.

Dont forget, spread that joy. It's comical how difficult it is for me to stay depressed. The internal dialogue would have you rolling on the floor. Lol!

Come on girl, to the mat!

 

[Nismo12]

Daily Update: Thursday, June 2, 2016

At last, I got the pictures loaded. That took much more time than I'd anticipated. I'm losing focus. Just over 63 hours to go. I'll be honest here guys, I'm so close to pulling the plug on the Sensitization Protocol you wouldn't believe it. I sat here this afternoon for a good hour or so contemplating going off line until Sunday. Kinda shakes me to discover how out-of-sorts I feel today. I don't even have music on right now, which is so wrong I need to correct that immediately. Hmmmm...... The Allman Brothers Legendary Hits. That'll do. Starts out with "Hoochie Coochie Man." Sweet. That's better.

On to the grow. Starting out in the veg tent.

All of the LOS pots got their coconut water/aloe juice drench. When I put them back in the tent I turned the pot with Crossroads, so Shiva Shanti ll is now in the center of the tent. Carnival and Bubba Kush both got Brixed.

Strawberry Blue (Day 51), Shiva Shanti ll (Day 30), Crossroads (Day 37), Bubba Kush (Day 50), Carnival (Day 46), Super Cheese (Day 37)

Let's check out the Critical cousins. They got Brixed today.

CBD Critical Cure (Day 113, flip + 48, CATs + 16)

CBD Critical Mass (Day 113, flip + 30, 1st CAT + 7)

Zamaldelica (Day 17) She's finally beginning to actually get on with growing. It didn't help her that I missed the thrips. Tomorrow she gets the next spray with spinosad.

A parting shot from Critical Mass.

The clones. Not sure how I feel about them today. They appear to be holding their own, but I'm not holding my breath. This was just for play. I'll be taking cuttings later, at least from Carnival.

DDA2 (Day 51) These little Velcro tiedowns I worked up with the soft twist ties work wonders for keeping the canopy relatively level. I realized today that the inspiration for them probably came from arteekay. They look different, but this is what he does on his fabric pots. Can't believe I didn't notice that until today. Great minds think alike.

In conclusion today, a couple shots at how level the canopies are becoming. This one's Crossroads.

Strawberry Blue.

Yeah, I'm a bit stoked by that.

Well guys, that's my lineup tonight. Thanks for stopping. I can take another hit now. One more. Just. One.

I think I'll do that and slip into a session of late night Callanetics to get my body and spirit back into sync. It's for science. It's for science. Gosh, I just wanna go to bed. I remember feeling like this early on during the holidays too. It was easier when there wasn't anything available.

I'm gonna let Callanetics win out tonight. It offers much more to benefit me than slipping into bed this early. I'll be in and out over the hours, so I'll be checking in on some grows when I take breaks. I'll be seeing you around the yards.

Dont forget, spread that joy. It's comical how difficult it is for me to stay depressed. The internal dialogue would have you rolling on the floor. Lol!

Come on girl, to the mat!

Good evening sue

Your girls are looking great! Going to get on the high brix stuff here soon. Going to doing a ton of reading on it this weekend.

I can relate to with the fasting to a point. The last couple of days I haven't smoked much being super busy and today my body pains are severe and headaches. I only had one hit today and I almost didn't seem interested. Tomorrow is Friday so it's the end of the work week, so I'll have a bong loaded and waiting for when I get home kinda like you had your DDA earlier. Until then, hang in there. It'll be worth it.

 

[SweetSue]

Thanks for the encouragement nismo. At this point I really want to see if a recreational consumer can reset the system the same way a patient might need to. Let's be realistic though, as soon as I've answered that question I'm going to go right back to mega doses. But I'll know, should I ever need to, how to do it right.

I get a little irritated at how everybody's ready to legalize medical cannabis, but the attitude about recreational is still that there's something wrong with you if you indulge. What cannabis does for my creative expression and social interaction is just as important, IMHO. I'm missing that sense of cosmic connection that I get about three hits in.

I'm glad you get to indulge tomorrow. Sunday at noon, I'm all in.

nismo, do you smoke high CBD? My daughter tells me the CBD-dominant plant she's vaping is almost miraculous in how effectively it modulates pain perception. It keeps her migraines at bay too.

 

[SweetSue]

Lest we come to believe I'm absolutely desperate, it took me until 11:20 to pull myself away from the iPad and take that one hit. Insight into what this is like for me at this moment:

I've been steadily overcoming the voice that reminds me that this is all digital and hidden, so how easy would it be to cheat, get loaded and not tell anyone?

Yeah, like I could do that. That's almost as rediculous as the thought that I could go off line for two days. My mother raised us so honest it reeks. Haha! So I'm not gonna cheat. I'm gonna do some body sculpting and keep the momentum going. I've almost lost the jowls and I'd like to see my jawline beautifully defined again. Just over 60 hours and damn straight I'm counting it down!