Noob4x4grow
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Hey Sue. I see you have some gnats as well. Are you using the dunks? I sprinkled them on top of my plants hoping that when I water, it will go into the soil and kill. Die gnats die
The Perpetual Healing Garden - SweetSue's Joyful Return
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Hey Sue. I see you have some gnats as well. Are you using the dunks? I sprinkled them on top of my plants hoping that when I water, it will go into the soil and kill. Die gnats die
I have minimal gnats. They're kind of a staple with LOS. They don't bother me that much. Most of the flyers get caught on the yellow trap. When gnats do get out of hand mosquito dunks are my go-to as well Noob. I'm pretty tolerant of most tiny earthlings.
Sue Sue SWEET Sue why it may appear that you are alone, you just need to remember that you are not alone. I know there is a special place in my heart just for you and I am sure many others feel the same way. But if it is someone telling you that you can do it and to egg you on.. Sweet Sue you are in luck, I have 11 chickens and get 6 to 8 eggs every day so I can egg the heck out of you every day and still have enough for an omelet.Aaaand that's all she wrote today.I'm having a rough time guys, I'll admit. Can't focus and I'm feeling lost. Tell me I can do this. I have no one here to egg me on. I may have to pull back for a couple days and go spiritually deep to get through. It's a bit humbling to discover, once again, how much the plant does to level out my personality and keep my brain working at such a top speed. Without, I'm putting all my energy into not coming undone. I think if I can get through the evening I'll be ok. Problem is, without, it's all to obvious how alone I am here.
What feels wrong? Callanetics or wandering through the threads? Might I suggest an alternative suggestion, wander through the threads while doing Callanetics.
OMG an old joke I heard in high school popped into my head when I just read this part.. it went like this.......:See? I almost forgot to remind you all to spread the joy. Can't have that.
You. Joy. Spread it around.
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The word for today is thighs, so help spread the word. Sorry did I ever mention as a kid my mind was in the gutter most of the time?
Though on a more serious note, your just feeling down and alone. It happens to everyone. I wish I could just tell you take 2 of these and call me in the morning and everything would be all peachy but unfortunately I do not have a simple answer like that I can give you. But I will say you are dear to the hearts of many on this site myself included. If you start to feel down, close your eyes and picture yourself with me and the rest of the others who love you and want only the best for you. Heck if it helps you can even envision me in that slutty low cut evening gown I wore back in December for the evening gown competition. I know it bring back fond memories for me quiet often.
Hope you are feeling better about the world Sue soon but remember, you are never alone so long as someone love you
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you cut that branch off? but it looks pretty
I've been looking at the overcrowded community pot and thinking about it for a couple days now. This evening I went with my instincts and eliminated the Crossroads 2. The Shiva Shanti is my hope for a small quantity of indica meds and that first crossroads obviously owns this pot.
One less plant to nurture.
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haha,your garden is awesome,later you can make salad
nice buds
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haha,your garden is awesome,later you can make salad
Thank you Sara. I need to plant more scallions.
As you can see, I'm not using my Mars-Hydro panels. I won these three gorgeous lights in the MOTY contest, so my Mars-Hydro panels are in storage until needed. It gives me great peace of mind knowing I have those dependable little panels in reserve.
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That was an entire plant Sara, and it wasn't going to amount to anything significant, but was crowding my Bubba Kush and Carnival. Priorities. I have another of this strain growing in that pot - it's the big plant.
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OG...... I love you.
I love you. 
KodiakKid
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SS, I got into adulting a little too much. Back now. Season two for me Outdoors. Love it if you would follow again, pretty please? Here's what I'm starting.
SweetSue, twice in my life I quit quickly and completely, and I found that reading helped tremendously - it helped me produce a similar state of mind. I raided the used book store and stocked up on favorite authors, and just kicked back and read when I would have been smoking. 
We are, after all, from an era when reading a whole bunch of words was normal, and a fun thing.
We are, after all, from an era when reading a whole bunch of words was normal, and a fun thing.
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Good to have you back. Of course I'll sub in. I'll swing through before bed.
SweetSue, twice in my life I quit quickly and completely, and I found that reading helped tremendously - it helped me produce a similar state of mind. I raided the used book store and stocked up on favorite authors, and just kicked back and read when I would have been smoking.
We are, after all, from an era when reading a whole bunch of words was normal, and a fun thing.
Thank you Graytail. I finally found a writing groove that kept me completely engaged and distracted from the deprivation until I can't see clearly, so I'm off to bed now. Let's see how sleep goes.
I made it through the day Graytail.
One more full day to make it through. This is madness. Its so habitual to reach over and pick up the water pipe, and I get this mental/emotional shock everytime I realize it's off limits. I did take this opportunity to clean the water pipe, so I'm getting a bit of domestic work done too. Yeah, quitting completely and quickly is something I've done twice in my life too. It sucked both times. I'm doing this for science and in hopes of finding I can reduce my consumption. Don't think I'll ever try this again. My plan was to stay high for the rest of my life, and I was doing a damn good job of it. If I didn't have this mad compulsion to actually experience it so I could do more than say "this might work"......
There's not been a minute so far that I haven't questioned my sanity.
Rastas
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We're all here, SweetSue. In fact, this one's for you 
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We're all here, SweetSue. In fact, this one's for you
Thank you so much Rastas. That's very thoughtful.
Don't mind if I do. 
RheinRover
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Best of luck on day 2, We all know you can do it! It's never fun quitting but lets think on the plus side, like you said above it's all for science and not just because you ran out and don't know when more will come.
And through all of this I get a little giggle thinking about you loading up the vape, the bong and everything else you have plus a bag of brownies just waiting for the 48 hours to expire. It's going to be like New Years just much better!
And through all of this I get a little giggle thinking about you loading up the vape, the bong and everything else you have plus a bag of brownies just waiting for the 48 hours to expire. It's going to be like New Years just much better!
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That's a wonderful vision RheinRover, but the whole point is to establish a lower consumption level. Lol! This is what I did after my holiday vacation. I ate through a pan of brownies in less than two days instead of the four I typically took. I slept well, woke up after three hours and then fell back under for another hour, so I go four hours in the end, my absolute bottom line for functionality today. I decided to embrace the experience and listen closely to what my body does during this time. I have to tell you, one of the first things I noticed is my empathetic nature ramps up to a higher level than I can easily handle without meds. I found myself hit by a wave of grief this morning, I believe from James The Green, probably missing his beloved Yarrow, who's surely passed by now. Sobbing in the shower wasn't my plan for the morning, but the ability to feel someone else's pain like that and return a peacefulness to help him cope is a blessing. I'll survive it. I cry easily.
I'm gonna try to stay real busy today. I just finished breakfast along the river and now I'll stroll out to the labyrinth and express a bit of gratitude to the universe as I center myself for the rest of the day. Tonight starts the local summer session walking club. I joined this year. Time for SweetSue to rejoin the community. We're coming up on a year since Dale's passing and I've been closed up in that apartment much too long.
Here Here!!! I'd second that idea. We'll see how it plays out in the long run.
How are your dreams?
Noob4x4grow
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I slept well, woke up after three hours and then fell back under for another hour, so I go four hours in the end, my absolute bottom line for functionality today. I decided to embrace the experience and listen closely to what my body does during this time. I have to tell you, one of the first things I noticed is my empathetic nature ramps up to a higher level than I can easily handle without meds. I found myself hit by a wave of grief this morning, I believe from James The Green, probably missing his beloved Yarrow, who's surely passed by now. Sobbing in the shower wasn't my plan for the morning, but the ability to feel someone else's pain like that and return a peacefulness to help him cope is a blessing. I'll survive it. I cry easily.
I'm gonna try to stay real busy today. I just finished breakfast along the river and now I'll stroll out to the labyrinth and express a bit of gratitude to the universe as I center myself for the rest of the day. Tonight starts the local summer session walking club. I joined this year. Time for SweetSue to rejoin the community. We're coming up on a year since Dale's passing and I've been closed up in that apartment much too long.
I'm very excited about you getting involved in your community. They will love you like we love you here. I think the 48 hour thing would be a LOT easier if you didn't have all that bud to smoke and eat at your house. When I run out and I don't have the time to see my guy, It's not as hard to cope. But, if it's right there staring at you, I could imagine the willpower needed to withstand the calling from this mystical plant. It calls to me in the night like crack to a crackhead.
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It's an admirable goal, no? Lol! I haven't started dreaming yet. That might not happen in such a short span of time. I recall I didn't start to dream over the holidays for about a month after I quit. I'm working on a way to convince my brain to dream despite the presence of cannabis in my system. Part of that pesky feature of my personality where I want it all.
I'm very excited about you getting involved in your community. They will love you like we love you here. I think the 48 hour thing would be a LOT easier if you didn't have all that bud to smoke and eat at your house. When I run out and I don't have the time to see my guy, It's not as hard to cope. But, if it's right there staring at you, I could imagine the willpower needed to withstand the calling from this mystical plant. It calls to me in the night like crack to a crackhead.
Thank you for that sentiment Noob.
Yes indeed, knowing I have all these delivery systems available and over three ounces stored is driving me a little nuts.
I'll make it. I'm far enough in now that it'd be ludicrous to back out at this point. Just four more days to go and I can get ripped again, hopefully on a lower dose of buds. I've been out most of the day, finishing off the evening with the walking club. Oh, what a marvelous time! I made three new friends on that two mile walk and spent time afterward over coffee, just getting to know each other. New friends..... what a wonderful thing. You were right Noob, they did take to me fairly quickly. I dropped back to keep the slowest of us company and we had an extensive chat about the Endocannabinoid system.
We also talked of life, love, loss and the exasperating things children try to hold their mothers responsible for. All in all, just exactly what I'd hoped would happen if I joined the club. We all look forward to a repeat performance next Wednesday.
Life is very sweet.
Oh yes, I got my summer hair cut today, the shortest I ever wear it. This beautician cut it a little shorter than I figured, so I'll have to change my profile picture again.
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Bud + solvent + freezer = potential relief from seizures.
Quick Winterized Tincture
2 grams of Med GOM 1.0 , decarbed at 225 degrees F for an hour
4 ounces of 95% ethanol culinary solvent
Crumble bud without making it powder. Add solvent and bud together and seal. Shake vigorously and place in the freezer for five days, shaking every now and then every day. Strain until you're satisfied with the purity (usually 2-3 times) and bottle.
Hopefully, the 13-yr old boy who's entire life has been defined by seizures that are beginning to ramp up at a frightening speed will respond on some level to this tincture. I'm almost certain that for a case as severe as his it'll require a strain with a ratio of at least 4:1 CBD:THC. His mother and I are hoping he responds favorably, at which point we can search for and purchase seeds for a more appropriate strain.
The tragedy is that the medications that he's been on his entire life promote aggressive behavior. He's at the point now, at 13, that his parents are going to have to have him institutionalized, because his behavior is tearing the rest of the family apart. This is so frustrating, knowing that this child could have been spared this entire situation, but for the insanity of cannabis prohibition.
I'm trying hard not to have high expectations for this child, but my heart hopes for some relief. It's painful watching my friend confronted with the reality of having to send one of her children away. As a parent myself I know how difficult this is for her. She's decided that, come what may, we're going to pursue this course of treatment and see if we can find the boy under all that pain.
Prohibition is a rediculous construct, causing so much undue pain it makes a peaceful woman want to scream.
Sue, make time for your exercise program. After your workout, take a shower and go for a walk, or pick some flowers, or dig in some dirt, or cook and enjoy a great meal.
Occasionally I take a few nights off smoking (never mornings) to not have a reliance on cannabis for sleep. For me, physical activity until exhaustion isn't enough, I need something after to help me sleep. Some teas have helped as well.
Get outside and find something to enjoy. Read in sunlight if you can, or keep the lights on for a few days.