SweetSue's Cannabis Oil Study Hall

[Tennessee Tim]

I had a crisis arise this past June that had been months or years in the making! I was forced to resign my work and felt like the multitude of symptoms I was suffering from were due to drug interactions or bad reactions to some element or combination there of! Well, I quit taking most of my RX'S partly because of my suspicions and partly due to not affording all the meds now! In three weeks I dramatically improved. However some of the anxiety had risen to even more panic attacks. I quit using, for a few weeks, all cannabis as well, at that point. I then have cautiously been using cannabis again trying to be very stingy with the Sativa heavy THC stuff (or avoiding it) and using Indica dominant a bit more. I have been doing pretty well overall! The Indica dominant stuff is effective in helping some of my pain issues and lowering tension with less tendency towards anxiety. My oil and butter is made from my grows and currently oil is from Northern Lights auto and butter from Early Miss auto (crop king). If I could go to a local dispensary or had easy , quick access to MMJ strains and products, I would be using a more balanced Indica with high CBD and low to medium THC. I think I would try CBD oil and smoke my THC in the 8-10 % range with CBD levels to nearly match. Actually Crop king has a new medical strain that is 8%/8% that I plan on an early -mid January grow ! I am somewhat limited in crop size so it may be a while before I have oil made with it. (maybe the next grow or 50/50?) Anyway, The walks when I can't rest, or when the borderline panic thing is coming on , have seemed to diffuse the attacks and are at least a step toward sleep and relief. No one thing works for me! I use the walks, prayer/meditation, healthy hydration and relaxing herbal teas. Careful with the teas, some have stimulants. I am coping much better and have had no anger/ rage feelings as well, that sometimes had been popping up with all the meds- worse than anxiety! I do not know what drugs/meds were the culprits feeding my myriad of symptoms . I only know I am feeling better even while now under more financial distress! I still have some bad days with aches and pains or even feeling anxious , but I am better! The listless lack of energy, constant tiredness, and depression have eased considerably! Success has been increasing, and problems decreasing, Hope is what I have and I have a hope for you to find your method to help you to feel better and control your issues! I have been using much less processed foods, almost no sodas, less sweets, no alcohol (except a couple half beers in the past several months-remember moderation not forbidden, forbidding often leads to failure to achieve permanently), more fruit and juices and have taken a strenuous part time job (at least for me) to boost my Social Security Income. All of these things together seem to help along with self medicating with Cannabis of the right strains and doses. Moderation seems to be the key for me ! I don't use anything as heavy as I did! Sweet Sue has been a generous host to all of us airing our trials with medicating using cannabis oils and other methods! Without her involvement in research and communicating with the community, we would all have an empty spot where something good is right now! Being involved in a community discussion that is positive and helping to others, is by itself immensely valuable to us all, I believe! And I no longer have the patience to do all that research she does for us! I am not as trained or as knowledgeable as many others about MMJ but from what Sweet Sue has confirmed for us in her observations, is higher CBD and Lower THC seems indicated for people who are sensitive to THC especially from Sativas. Evidently one can grow or change to a "sensitive" at any time in life, as per my experience! Good Luck and God bless you!

Thank you so much. I'm happy to see that you're not dependent on so many medications now! Is it because of the pot? Or just feeling like it was too much?

You and Sue are making me feel more and more confident about what I need to find every day. It seems that Sativa and/or high THC (or THCa in my case) is just too much for some of us. My practitioner said that this specific formulation (whatever the heck it is) works for almost all of his anxiety patients. Apparently, I'm not in the "almost all" category, but, then again, my family and I joke all of the time that every single practitioner's favorite line to say to me is "I've never seen this happen before." . Nothing about me is normal and never has been. Eventually, that's going to turn out to be a benefit, right? RIGHT?

I'm going to write him an email now to detail how I've felt and what I think i want.

Would it be right of me to simply ask to start off with the highest CBD/lowest THCa he has and work from there? Or should I ALSO specific indica-dominant and high CBD? I'm assuming he won't do an exchange, so I'll have to decide if I want to continue with this one or wait.

I haven't taken a dose since midday yesterday. And I feel better and lighter. And since I'm taking the cannabis to feel better, well.... there ya go. Except, I will admit, I feel less giggly now, and that is something I was liking. So I was giggling my way through feelings of anxiety and marveling that it never turned into panic attacks while sitting in one place without the desire to get up and move while not being able to sleep or rest. So I had mixture of feeling better and feeling worse going on at the same time. Can I get any more contradictory? No wonder I can't make up my mind about it. At least my head is clearer right now to analyze it. And to analyze how difficult I am to please.

 

[Tennessee Tim]

Sorry, I posted the same thing twice!

 

[SweetSue]

Tim.... Thank you , and thank all of you for being so open in this discussion. I'm so pleased that we've created a gathering place to air these stories and work through these issues. This room has become so much more than I dreamed possible when I opened the doors and invited you all to join me on this journey of discovery.

I'm overwhelmed by the depth and caring of the discussion we've been having here over this week. Every time I think I can't love you all any more you prove me wrong.

 

[Tennessee Tim]

BTW, I also have lost weight, I did not need (about 15 pounds so far in about 6 months), as a by product of my push to moderation in diet, habit and the right cannabis! A little bit of everything is better than binging on anything! No formal plan or diet for me, just doing what feels good and seems sensible! I often take a small dose of oil or butter in the morning and smoke a bit later in the day and before bedtime. I may take another small dose of oil at bedtime, usually not. Walk out and look at the stars or talk to the deer in the pasture, walk the dogs in the dark cold autumn air, down the road past the pond covered with geese that know us and peacefully swim shimmering patterns onto the moonlit water. Tomorrow I can worry about tomorrow, tonight is for me and my animal friends enjoying peace together.

 

[SweetSue]

BTW, I also have lost weight, I did not need (about 15 pounds so far in about 6 months), as a by product of my push to moderation in diet, habit and the right cannabis! A little bit of everything is better than binging on anything! No formal plan or diet for me, just doing what feels good and seems sensible! I often take a small dose of oil or butter in the morning and smoke a bit later in the day and before bedtime. I may take another small dose of oil at bedtime, usually not. Walk out and look at the stars or talk to the deer in the pasture, walk the dogs in the dark cold autumn air, down the road past the pond covered with geese that know us and peacefully swim shimmering patterns onto the moonlit water. Tomorrow I can worry about tomorrow, tonight is for me and my animal friends enjoying peace together.

Spoken like a man at peace with himself.

 

[SweetSue]

I missed these yesterday. Sometimes I'm moving too fast for my own good.

im studying in here and then i come across this post , im medicated so yeah but it reminded me of something that would be on seinfeld , the haircut that screams susan part.

great info in here thanks sweetsue

I got a good chuckle out of that. Lol!

Thank you so much. I'm happy to see that you're not dependent on so many medications now! Is it because of the pot? Or just feeling like it was too much?

You and Sue are making me feel more and more confident about what I need to find every day. It seems that Sativa and/or high THC (or THCa in my case) is just too much for some of us. My practitioner said that this specific formulation (whatever the heck it is) works for almost all of his anxiety patients. Apparently, I'm not in the "almost all" category, but, then again, my family and I joke all of the time that every single practitioner's favorite line to say to me is "I've never seen this happen before." . Nothing about me is normal and never has been. Eventually, that's going to turn out to be a benefit, right? RIGHT?

I'm going to write him an email now to detail how I've felt and what I think i want.

Would it be right of me to simply ask to start off with the highest CBD/lowest THCa he has and work from there? Or should I ALSO specific indica-dominant and high CBD? I'm assuming he won't do an exchange, so I'll have to decide if I want to continue with this one or wait.

I haven't taken a dose since midday yesterday. And I feel better and lighter. And since I'm taking the cannabis to feel better, well.... there ya go. Except, I will admit, I feel less giggly now, and that is something I was liking. So I was giggling my way through feelings of anxiety and marveling that it never turned into panic attacks while sitting in one place without the desire to get up and move while not being able to sleep or rest. So I had mixture of feeling better and feeling worse going on at the same time. Can I get any more contradictory? No wonder I can't make up my mind about it. At least my head is clearer right now to analyze it. And to analyze how difficult I am to please.

Eventually you and your caregiver will get it right. That's what he does. Had to laugh at your comments about being unique. It's already paying off Sara.

My daughter never got on any heavy-duty psyche meds because of the extreme sensitivity she demonstrates with all medications, including cannabis. Her father had that same penchant for coming up with the reaction no one anticipated. Haha! I've heard that medical professional "Huh?" most of my adult life.

When you get formulation right your mind falls into a sense of well-being. That's how you'll know you have it right, so keep after him. You're not looking for small-time relief, you're looking for calm, peaceful, giggly, so glad to wake up in the morning feeling warm and cozy. You're doing a great job of exploring your body's response. That'll serve you well as you fine tune.

I'm so excited for you. I can see the day you're going to realize that you haven't had an inkling of a panic attack in weeks. It's there Sara. That has to be a good feeling to acknowledge.

 

[SL2222]

Sara, I'm sorry you're having such difficulty finding the best balance of meds for your pain and anxiety. I'm still relatively new at this, too and I, too, wish I lived next door to Sue. She really is a truly remarkable and caring woman and I'm grateful for her friendship and teaching on here.

I also have anxiety but mine is more recent. I was off work last year for 3 months due to anxiety but it was only this year that I was prescribed MMJ for the anxiety and for pain relief as like Danolo's wife and Tim, I also have RA.

My husband grew Hash Plant Hash Plant Strain Information - Leafly to help me with pain and anxiety and I also had a bit of an overdose of it a couple of weekends ago when I ingested too much of the oil I made but Sue and the other people on this thread helped me through it.

I decided to get an MMJ licence when the Lorazepam that my primary physician prescribed to me didn't even touch my anxiety. Additionally, I've had a chronic cough for 20 months and the only thing that works for it is Tylenol with codeine so I didn't want to take ibuprofen for my pain. I've had a pre-ulcer before and it's not pleasant.

I asked my primary physician to prescribe MMJ for my anxiety and pain relief and he said he wasn't comfortable prescribing something he knew nothing about and that it hadn't been researched enough for him.

So, I found a doctor who would prescribe it. The strains that I've found the most helpful are CBD Medi-Haze MediHaze Strain Information - Leafly, which works great on pain. I vape a couple of hits and in less than a minute, I have no more pain. It's pretty cool that something I used to smoke to get high can be used as medicine now, IMO.

For the anxiety, I've found that Nordle Nordle Strain Information - Leafly helps the best. Additionally, it helps me sleep, which is great since I suffer from insomnia, too.

I vape the Nordle before situations that will cause me anxiety and it works very well.

But everyone is different and what works for me might not work for you. You just need to try. Don't give up. I'm sure there's a solution out there for you.

We're all rooting for you and for a solution. Keep us posted.

Thank you so much!! It's amazing what happens when the anxiety takes hold. It ended my academic career, that's for sure. And well, everything Lorazepam stopped working for me, as well, when I took it daily for several months. That was when I started weaning off. It only works as something to take occasionally. I can see how easily people get addicted to it! You constantly need more and more to help, and then, after 24 hours, you get a withdrawal that is eerily close to the anxiety that required the pill to begin with.

I'll look up those strains and see if I can start to build a knowledge base (that I'll probably forget because I forget everything now. haha!) But I'd like to learn. I'm so glad you found what you were looking for - as well as a doctor who would prescribe!

 

[SL2222]

I had a crisis arise this past June that had been months or years in the making! I was forced to resign my work and felt like the multitude of symptoms I was suffering from were due to drug interactions or bad reactions to some element or combination there of! Well, I quit taking most of my RX'S partly because of my suspicions and partly due to not affording all the meds now! In three weeks I dramatically improved. However some of the anxiety had risen to even more panic attacks. I quit using, for a few weeks, all cannabis as well, at that point. I then have cautiously been using cannabis again trying to be very stingy with the Sativa heavy THC stuff (or avoiding it) and using Indica dominant a bit more. I have been doing pretty well overall! The Indica dominant stuff is effective in helping some of my pain issues and lowering tension with less tendency towards anxiety. My oil and butter is made from my grows and currently oil is from Northern Lights auto and butter from Early Miss auto (crop king). If I could go to a local dispensary or had easy , quick access to MMJ strains and products, I would be using a more balanced Indica with high CBD and low to medium THC. I think I would try CBD oil and smoke my THC in the 8-10 % range with CBD levels to nearly match. Actually Crop king has a new medical strain that is 8%/8% that I plan on an early -mid January grow ! I am somewhat limited in crop size so it may be a while before I have oil made with it. (maybe the next grow or 50/50?) Anyway, The walks when I can't rest, or when the borderline panic thing is coming on , have seemed to diffuse the attacks and are at least a step toward sleep and relief. No one thing works for me! I use the walks, prayer/meditation, healthy hydration and relaxing herbal teas. Careful with the teas, some have stimulants. I am coping much better and have had no anger/ rage feelings as well, that sometimes had been popping up with all the meds- worse than anxiety! I do not know what drugs/meds were the culprits feeding my myriad of symptoms . I only know I am feeling better even while now under more financial distress! I still have some bad days with aches and pains or even feeling anxious , but I am better! The listless lack of energy, constant tiredness, and depression have eased considerably! Success has been increasing, and problems decreasing, Hope is what I have and I have a hope for you to find your method to help you to feel better and control your issues! I have been using much less processed foods, almost no sodas, less sweets, no alcohol (except a couple half beers in the past several months-remember moderation not forbidden, forbidding often leads to failure to achieve permanently), more fruit and juices and have taken a strenuous part time job (at least for me) to boost my Social Security Income. All of these things together seem to help along with self medicating with Cannabis of the right strains and doses. Moderation seems to be the key for me ! I don't use anything as heavy as I did! Sweet Sue has been a generous host to all of us airing our trials with medicating using cannabis oils and other methods! Without her involvement in research and communicating with the community, we would all have an empty spot where something good is right now! Being involved in a community discussion that is positive and helping to others, is by itself immensely valuable to us all, I believe! And I no longer have the patience to do all that research she does for us! I am not as trained or as knowledgeable as many others about MMJ but from what Sweet Sue has confirmed for us in her observations, is higher CBD and Lower THC seems indicated for people who are sensitive to THC especially from Sativas. Evidently one can grow or change to a "sensitive" at any time in life, as per my experience! Good Luck and God bless you!

Yikes, I'm sorry you went through such a hard time. But if you improved your life because of it, I'm so glad!

It sounds like you and I have similar philosophies on living a good life. Getting out into nature more is definitely something I'm craving but haven't been doing enough. I know it would help. My problem is this area kind of scares me - and nobody else wants to go out and play like I do. I used to be a runner, and I honestly think that is what kept me balanced hormonally and mentally for many, many years. The hours outside, the meditation, the exercise itself. It works wonders. Walking simply doesn't compare for me, so healing the pain that keeps me from running would be a huge benefit, too My anxiety started almost 1 year after I couldn't run anymore. I know it isn't the only thing that contributed, but as soon as I stopped running, I noticed my hormones went all haywire - before the anxiety started.

It seems like most people chiming in here are agreeing that a very low THC is the way to go - Sue called it for me from the beginning. I need to insist on that, raw and non-psychotropic or not.

And try not to be afraid of trying more

 

[SL2222]

I missed these yesterday. Sometimes I'm moving too fast for my own good.



I got a good chuckle out of that. Lol!



Eventually you and your caregiver will get it right. That's what he does. Had to laugh at your comments about being unique. It's already paying off Sara.

My daughter never got on any heavy-duty psyche meds because of the extreme sensitivity she demonstrates with all medications, including cannabis. Her father had that same penchant for coming up with the reaction no one anticipated. Haha! I've heard that medical professional "Huh?" most of my adult life.

When you get formulation right your mind falls into a sense of well-being. That's how you'll know you have it right, so keep after him. You're not looking for small-time relief, you're looking for calm, peaceful, giggly, so glad to wake up in the morning feeling warm and cozy. You're doing a great job of exploring your body's response. That'll serve you well as you fine tune.

I'm so excited for you. I can see the day you're going to realize that you haven't had an inkling of a panic attack in weeks. It's there Sara. That has to be a good feeling to acknowledge.

No wonder you know how to handle me! It seems like you've had a lot of practice with us over-sensitive, in our own league types. Over-sensitive in the physical sense, I mean. Was she put on the anti-depressants and anti-anxieties that she had bad reactions to?

Yeah, my partner, my family - none of them know how to handle me. They aren't used to doctors being utterly confused. Incompetent, maybe, but not so confused I think they used to think I was making it up. Some things simply don't bother me, and other things make me feel like the world is ending.

I'm putting my trust into you, for sure I'm going to keep looking.

 

[Tennessee Tim]

I use to be a runner as well! It's been quite a few years now since I quit! I ran 4-5 miles, 4-5 times per week until I was about 45. Then the foot problems, knees, shins, ankles, back pain all took it's toll. I had smoked cigarettes also and by that time they had cut my wind! (I quit cigarettes completely at 56 years age) I don't doubt that quitting to run aggravated hormonal changes for you! Anyway, you find an activity (activities)you can do and do try to connect with nature when you can! RA loves it when we sit in pain instead of moving through it! Anxiety loves kicking us when our emotions are running high and stress /worry is the trigger for my panic attacks! I had to face up to my fear of dying before I am ready and my fear of dying way after I am ready! Breathing impairment, senior citizen age, AR, prostate disease, heart disease, and the like makes one realize sharply that your old, and can't escape death! I think that all this worry about tomorrow, helped bring on my crisis with anxiety and panic attacks! I feel like I am suffocating and can not get enough air, very claustrophobic, and my heart races and my blood pressure goes way up, suicidal thoughts even! Now that I am trying to work through this without medical professionals prescribing more drugs for everything else, plus panic attacks and have become aware of the triggers and ways to back down from attacks, I am doing better. I could not afford to go to doctors, so I have been trying to control this myself and lo and behold doing pretty well at it! Finding the right things to do at the right time and doing it has been trial and error for me, but staying analytical about what worked and when, is important! I am not getting as much pain relief right now as I would like and had before the panic attacks became a big problem. But I have eased my anxiety and am controlling my panic attacks! I am engaged in slowly increasing my cannabis dosing when it feels right for me to try and dialing in more pain relief without the anxiety is my goal. If I had access to an infirmary in a free state, this would be faster and easier most likely, as I could just go and get recommended varieties as I wished! You are engaged with your issues and I feel good about your probable outcome! Along with exercise, engagement with nature/children/life, do try the balanced low THC high CBD strains. I will be doing so in the next year, as soon as I can start a new grow with new seeds. If you are consuming a lot of processed foods, soft drinks, including sports drinks!, sweets, salt, and not enough whole grains, fruits and vegetables, do something about it! Love somebody, love animals, love art, love music, love children! Just stay focused on being positive as much as you can! I can't always do that but the more I do the better things are! I wish everybody was as blessed as I am now to live in a pretty safe place, surrounded by nature! Meditate in a darkened room, with low relaxing music (Grand Canyon Suite for me is nice sometimes) , if it suits you or nature sound tracks work for me (The beach/ocean front is a favorite)! start by taking a deep breath pausing a moment then slowly exhaling, repeat this three times. then trying to connect your awareness of your toes, when you feel the blood pumping into your toes extend that up your feet, ankles, then legs ,etc. Don't try and rush this, take as long as it takes to really feel the blood flowing through these areas. Be aware of how your skin feels in those places as you move up your calves to your knees and thighs. Feel the blood pumping through the arteries/veins, pumping/pulsing. Feel the hairs on your legs standing up and down the shafts to the roots. Feel the skin of your buttocks, then the blood flowing to and nurishing the skin. Take a deep breath pause a second and slowly exhale. Repeat this. Remind yourself about a place you love, you want to see that place, and feel the warmth of being there or maybe with somebody you love sharing that place. Or do like I also alternatively do, throw on my coat, grab the dog leash and take out walking and praying. HAHA! Maybe, you could go to the mall and walk fast if its not safe where you live to run. Be thankful, Be flexible , be tough, be loving and remember you are not alone in this! I am still fighting this off along with you!

Yikes, I'm sorry you went through such a hard time. But if you improved your life because of it, I'm so glad!

It sounds like you and I have similar philosophies on living a good life. Getting out into nature mor e is definitely something I'm craving but haven't been doing enough. I know it would help. My problem is this area kind of scares me - and nobody else wants to go out and play like I do. I used to be a runner, and I honestly think that is what kept me balanced hormonally and mentally for many, many years. The hours outside, the meditation, the exercise itself. It works wonders. Walking simply doesn't compare for me, so healing the pain that keeps me from running would be a huge benefit, too My anxiety started almost 1 year after I couldn't run anymore. I know it isn't the only thing that contributed, but as soon as I stopped running, I noticed my hormones went all haywire - before the anxiety started.

It seems like most people chiming in here are agreeing that a very low THC is the way to go - Sue called it for me from the beginning. I need to insist on that, raw and non-psychotropic or not.

And try not to be afraid of trying more

 

[Tennessee Tim]

Sue, please excuse me for being so long winded and posting so much, recently! It's just you and especially some of your other followers have such similar problems to some of my own! Thanks for your love and allowing us to share our experiences here! Sara has been lucky ,as I was, to find your thread! I think with your threads advice on cannabis treatments and the sharing of caring , we all are being more successful in dealing with our problems! I will try to be more brief in the future with my questions and comments

 

[Danolo]

Sue, please excuse me for being so long winded and posting so much, recently! It's just you and especially some of your other followers have such similar problems to some of my own! Thanks for your love and allowing us to share our experiences here! Sara has been lucky ,as I was, to find your thread! I think with your threads advice on cannabis treatments and the sharing of caring , we all are being more successful in dealing with our problems! I will try to be more brief in the future with my questions and comments

Hey Tim.. thanks so much for sharing your life with us. And I don't think anyone here is going to complain about you being too wordy. The more experience you share, the better.

I do have one gentle suggestion, however... please break up your loooong paragraphs into shorter ones, It makes what you have to say much easier to read. A language and composition guru told me once :three sentences to a paragraph.

That seemed a bit weird at first until I tried it.

Anyhow, I will continue to read what you write with interest.

 

[SweetSue]

Sue, please excuse me for being so long winded and posting so much, recently! It's just you and especially some of your other followers have such similar problems to some of my own! Thanks for your love and allowing us to share our experiences here! Sara has been lucky ,as I was, to find your thread! I think with your threads advice on cannabis treatments and the sharing of caring , we all are being more successful in dealing with our problems! I will try to be more brief in the future with my questions and comments

Don't you dare do that. I want you to feel free to leave as much in a post as you feel inclined to do. This is a room for brainstorming. The first rule of brainstorming is stop restricting your thought.

All this sharing will help someone, somewhere along the way. It's helping Sara now. Listen to the many times she's already said "Wow! You too?" When you're caught in anxiety you feel like you're an isolated case, so you keep it to yourself. We don't do that here. We share.

No one should ever apologize to SweetSue for being long-winded. Have you seen my post count? Lol!

Sara, they taught us that runners high was an endorphin dump. It's not. It's an anandamide dump, your body's version of metabolized THC. When you run you actually get high, just naturally. It's no wonder that your loss of the cannabinoid that was keeping your hormone system in check sent you for a tailspin.

Now, consider the fact that you're actively adding this component back into the equation that is your life. Feeling more hopeful now?

Also, you do Callanetics, which is a superior way to strengthen your ECS. It's why you feel so much more "normal" after a session. You're riding the crest of a natural high.

 

[Tennessee Tim]

Thanks Danolo! I just roll it out, without a care, don't I! I'll try to remember/implement your suggestion! It's been too long since I had English composition/writing in school! I also do not have any computer or keyboarding skills/knowledge! Your tolerance and patience is appreciated!

 

[SweetSue]

Thanks Danolo! I just roll it out, without a care, don't I! I'll try to remember/implement your suggestion! It's been too long since I had English composition/writing in school! I also do not have any computer or keyboarding skills/knowledge! Your tolerance and patience is appreciated!

I've been known to ask to reformat posts that I thought were so valuable I was compelled to make sure it was easier to read. I almost did that with yours. Lol!

 

[Tennessee Tim]

A wise man never looks a gift horse in the mouth! I would be grateful for help reformatting if someone was so inclined. Not that my post are that valuable, but because someone just couldn't stand to look at them without correcting the mess! Remember, that people my age not involved in office type work, technology or the like, may never of had a need to learn keyboarding until recently! When I went to school there were no computers beyond an abacus! Even our typewriters were manual in my school and few males took typing, because one could probably expect a secretary to do that for you in those days, if you were a supervisor or manager! Indeed, I once had a secretary to do my typing when I was a landscape supervisor in the mid 1980's. Well , me being a jack of all trades, horticulturalist, carpenter, organic gardener, market farmer, billiard pro and general roust a bout, starting before the advent of cell phones, the internet and etc., I didn't take up computers much except as a search tool! Almost all of my communicating has been face to face until recently! I still use a flip phone! With difficulty and never use all it's capacity! I am not opposed to being classified as a Hillbilly and rather proud of it! I can grow my own food , build a house, fix the plumbing, build a boat, raise livestock, repair a tractor(maybe), brew a good beer, make whiskey, find my way home from about anywhere, shoot pretty straight and lie better than a politician, if the need for it demands a tale to be told! But I ain't much with the computer keyboard or English composition!

 

[Oldbear]

A wise man never looks a gift horse in the mouth! I would be grateful for help reformatting if someone was so inclined. Not that my post are that valuable, but because someone just couldn't stand to look at them without correcting the mess! Remember, that people my age not involved in office type work, technology or the like, may never of had a need to learn keyboarding until recently!

When I went to school there were no computers beyond an abacus! Even our typewriters were manual in my school and few males took typing, because one could probably expect a secretary to do that for you in those days, if you were a supervisor or manager! Indeed, I once had a secretary to do my typing when I was a landscape supervisor in the mid 1980's.

Well , me being a jack of all trades, horticulturalist, carpenter, organic gardener, market farmer, billiard pro and general roust a bout, starting before the advent of cell phones, the internet and etc., I didn't take up computers much except as a search tool!
Almost all of my communicating has been face to face until recently! I still use a flip phone! With difficulty and never use all it's capacity! I am not opposed to being classified as a Hillbilly and rather proud .

I can grow my own food , build a house, fix the plumbing, build a boat, raise livestock, repair a tractor(maybe), brew a good beer, make whiskey, find my way home from about anywhere, shoot pretty straight and lie better than a politician, if the need for it demands a tale to be told! But I ain't much with the computer keyboard or English composition!

So I changed it to start a paragraph where you had an image . tTim you keyboard skills seem excellent to me we just need a little space is all.

I sort of remember being coached to write like a conversation. A new paragraph is like when you pause for another thought, to take a breath or someone else to speak. The visual spacing in written text helps to keep track of where you are in a paragraph.

There is lots of value in your posts. Don't you dare stop or sweetsue will get you.

 

[SweetSue]

I'll reformat this Tim. You say it's not important, but this was one of the most inclusive discriptions of the many ways beyond cannabis one can strengthen the ECS that I've come across here. I'm getting ready to format the information on a class I took last week on just this subject. Reading this made me so proud of you Tim.

I envy you. I've spent my entire adult life longing to be in a forest, and instead raising my family on busy corners in urban areas. I'm 63 now, with, I'm figuring another thirty years of good living ahead to get me to that goal. I find great joy in hearing how others have already found ways to get themselvesj into forest homes. I'd be proud to be called a hillbilly too.

One last question Tim, save me the trouble of going back and looking, explain to me your personal protocol and what strains you're using.

Sara, in the Beginners videos on the Callanetics site there's a guided meditation for healing done by Callan herself that mirrors pretty closely what Tim describes below. I did this one yesterday. It automatically follows the Daily Stretch and periodically, I let it run through before I slip into the Callanetics routine of my choice. If you haven't tried it already, I suggest you give it a go a few times.

I use to be a runner as well! It's been quite a few years now since I quit! I ran 4-5 miles, 4-5 times per week until I was about 45. Then the foot problems, knees, shins, ankles, back pain all took it's toll. I had smoked cigarettes also and by that time they had cut my wind! (I quit cigarettes completely at 56 years age)

I don't doubt that quitting to run aggravated hormonal changes for you! Anyway, you find an activity (activities)you can do and do try to connect with nature when you can! RA loves it when we sit in pain instead of moving through it! Anxiety loves kicking us when our emotions are running high and stress /worry is the trigger for my panic attacks! I had to face up to my fear of dying before I am ready and my fear of dying way after I am ready! Breathing impairment, senior citizen age, AR, prostate disease, heart disease, and the like makes one realize sharply that your old, and can't escape death!

I think that all this worry about tomorrow, helped bring on my crisis with anxiety and panic attacks! I feel like I am suffocating and can not get enough air, very claustrophobic, and my heart races and my blood pressure goes way up, suicidal thoughts even! Now that I am trying to work through this without medical professionals prescribing more drugs for everything else, plus panic attacks and have become aware of the triggers and ways to back down from attacks, I am doing better.

I could not afford to go to doctors, so I have been trying to control this myself and lo and behold doing pretty well at it! Finding the right things to do at the right time and doing it has been trial and error for me, but staying analytical about what worked and when, is important! I am not getting as much pain relief right now as I would like and had before the panic attacks became a big problem. But I have eased my anxiety and am controlling my panic attacks!

I am engaged in slowly increasing my cannabis dosing when it feels right for me to try and dialing in more pain relief without the anxiety is my goal. If I had access to an infirmary in a free state, this would be faster and easier most likely, as I could just go and get recommended varieties as I wished! You are engaged with your issues and I feel good about your probable outcome! Along with exercise, engagement with nature/children/life, do try the balanced low THC high CBD strains. I will be doing so in the next year, as soon as I can start a new grow with new seeds.

If you are consuming a lot of processed foods, soft drinks, including sports drinks!, sweets, salt, and not enough whole grains, fruits and vegetables, do something about it! Love somebody, love animals, love art, love music, love children! Just stay focused on being positive as much as you can! I can't always do that but the more I do the better things are! I wish everybody was as blessed as I am now to live in a pretty safe place, surrounded by nature!

Meditate in a darkened room, with low relaxing music (Grand Canyon Suite for me is nice sometimes), if it suits you or nature sound tracks work for me (The beach/ocean front is a favorite)! start by taking a deep breath pausing a moment then slowly exhaling, repeat this three times. then trying to connect your awareness of your toes, when you feel the blood pumping into your toes extend that up your feet, ankles, then legs ,etc. Don't try and rush this, take as long as it takes to really feel the blood flowing through these areas.

Be aware of how your skin feels in those places as you move up your calves to your knees and thighs. Feel the blood pumping through the arteries/veins, pumping/pulsing. Feel the hairs on your legs standing up and down the shafts to the roots. Feel the skin of your buttocks, then the blood flowing to and nurishing the skin. Take a deep breath pause a second and slowly exhale. Repeat this. Remind yourself about a place you love, you want to see that place, and feel the warmth of being there or maybe with somebody you love sharing that place.

Or do like I also alternatively do, throw on my coat, grab the dog leash and take out walking and praying. HAHA! Maybe, you could go to the mall and walk fast if its not safe where you live to run. Be thankful, Be flexible , be tough, be loving and remember you are not alone in this! I am still fighting this off along with you!

 

[SweetSue]

So I changed it to start a paragraph where you had an image . tTim you keyboard skills seem excellent to me we just need a little space is all.

I sort of remember being coached to write like a conversation. A new paragraph is like when you pause for another thought, to take a breath or someone else to speak. The visual spacing in written text helps to keep track of where you are in a paragraph.

There is lots of value in your posts. Don't you dare stop or sweetsue will get you.

This is exactly how I try to approach each and every post. I stop, read it out loud, and feel for the conversational flow. After you do that for a few thousand posts it becomes second nature. I left a couple thousand posts behind a loooog time ago. Lol!

 

[Dhlx]

When you run you actually get high, just naturally.

When I run I only get out of breath.