I know how ya feel, I have soil sorta cooking, I just did my best to mix it as I purchased the incorrect pro mix sized bags to start with, then my plan was to have the grow room prepped within a week or so, well its been probably three months now.. I have my lights, 2 tents, fans, all sitting on the floor!! Disabilities can really kick your ass, but I wont let it beat me down.. Room is almost done, I just need to install an 8" Intake I got from FAMCO, that wont be fun, but I need to get it installed and hooked up to an intake fan/filter.. Then by the grace of God a friend came over for the past three weekends in a row and help to build an awning and patio cover!!!! I was completely blown away, as after my disability I don't have many friends left.. I don't blame them, I just thank God for the ones I do have, they are like Angels who help me accomplish things I would have no other way of doing.. I cant feel my feet from neck trauma but can still walk, and have sever epilepsy from massive brain trauma and a list of other crap all related to those 2 like CFS among other things and the side effects of the meds... But im shooting to catch up and get running soon! You ARE an INSPIRATION!! Keep kicking ass!!