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The Perpetual Healing Garden - SweetSue's Joyful Return
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You get a special response all your own 36.
Happy New Year. I've missed your stabilizing presence my friend. We've gone round and round with that question, and I'm not certain we have all the answers. This is in Doc's soil, but I was drenching too closely for a year and I also complicated it by tearing down twice in the middle of grows.
So many variables that went haywire last year it's hard to say. What we do know, and I accept, is that I didn't use the system as instructed.
We've been speculating that using BSM to neutralize the water might have contributed, but that seems so far-fetched. This soil is done. A new batch is cooking. I'm shifting the entire grow to Doc's system this year. It gives me the most consistent quality with the least effort.
I have other threads calling for attention that are hoping I find balance with the garden so I have more time to devote to study and exploration of cannabis oils and the healing potential of cannabis.
What are you up to these days? Starting another journal? How'd it go with that expansion you were planning?
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Let me try this. I'm floating around emotionally, moving ever closer to the stability of joyfulness again. It'll take a couple more minutes. Maybe if I share it'll help.
I attend a coffee and conversation group at the local library. This morning's discussion was on New Years resolutions. I laughed right out loud. My resolution was born out of my discovery that there's a connection between the endocannabinoid system that allows you to fire up the system with feelings of joy and gratitude. I can't prove this, but the evidence is, in my mind, indisputable.
My resolution is to deliberately begin each day by allowing the cells of my body to feel appreciation and gratitude before I open the baby blues. What I discovered was a fast-track method to gain emotional control. I play a game with myself. I grab that feeling with my eyes closed. It shouldn't surprise you to know I grab for a feeling that makes me giggle.
Then I open my eyes and begin the game of seeing how long into my day I can hold onto that delicious feeling.
No pressure. Doesn't matter how long. It's only a game. Because it's only a game it lacks performance pressure and you begin to gain emotional control. This small, deliberate choice has great potential to slow the inner storms without trying.
I've been practicing it for about a week now, and it's helped me find a clarity that still surprises me. This morning at the coffee group it got a wallop of a test. I almost fell off the edge with this one. Laughing about resolutions, the talk suddenly turned to the release of Haldeman's memoirs, finally bringing to light that Nixon had a hand in stalling peace talks that could have ended Vietman, so he could win the election.
The audacity of that thought, not a new one to me at all, and a practice as old as time itself, *sigh* what hit me was the needless pain of men and women I work and play with here, seeking relief from damages no one sees on the surface.
So they could win elections.
Sometimes it's even too much for someone as joyful as me to handle. I had to leave the room. I know too many veterans. I love you all so deeply that this monumental betrayal was too much to take and I found myself pacing the halls, holding myself as tightly as I could, just quietly screaming in defiance.
I slid down a wall and pretended I was in my safest virtual space to catch my breath. I knew I wasn't getting anywhere with this response. I had to get control. Almost instantly, that thought triggered a release of the tension I was holding. The uncontrollable shaking stopped. I took a couple breaths and stopped the momentum.
Surprised the hell out of me. Just then the lifeguard came by and rescued me. We went off and had an animated discussion about the ECS and emotions and I went back to the group. I don't believe I've ever exerted that level of emotional control in my life. The entire experience left me deeply moved.
The emotional pain I'm feeling is somewhat self-indulgent, and I'll get past that soon. We're such an odd species. This knowledge, and the awareness it forced me to confront will lead me to a point of greater clarity and I'll be able to deal with it more creatively. I'll probably learn something unexpected about the ECS.
I've been flipping between letting it hit me without resistance and laughing about the futility of it and how little that really means to who I am and what I do, with who you all are and what you do. In the end I care more about being happy and loving than I care to be frustrated or in pain. Can't think straight when I'm conflicted.
I feel better now. Thanks for letting me ramble through that.
I attend a coffee and conversation group at the local library. This morning's discussion was on New Years resolutions. I laughed right out loud. My resolution was born out of my discovery that there's a connection between the endocannabinoid system that allows you to fire up the system with feelings of joy and gratitude. I can't prove this, but the evidence is, in my mind, indisputable.
My resolution is to deliberately begin each day by allowing the cells of my body to feel appreciation and gratitude before I open the baby blues. What I discovered was a fast-track method to gain emotional control. I play a game with myself. I grab that feeling with my eyes closed. It shouldn't surprise you to know I grab for a feeling that makes me giggle.
Then I open my eyes and begin the game of seeing how long into my day I can hold onto that delicious feeling. No pressure. Doesn't matter how long. It's only a game. Because it's only a game it lacks performance pressure and you begin to gain emotional control. This small, deliberate choice has great potential to slow the inner storms without trying.
I've been practicing it for about a week now, and it's helped me find a clarity that still surprises me. This morning at the coffee group it got a wallop of a test. I almost fell off the edge with this one. Laughing about resolutions, the talk suddenly turned to the release of Haldeman's memoirs, finally bringing to light that Nixon had a hand in stalling peace talks that could have ended Vietman, so he could win the election.
The audacity of that thought, not a new one to me at all, and a practice as old as time itself, *sigh* what hit me was the needless pain of men and women I work and play with here, seeking relief from damages no one sees on the surface.
So they could win elections.
Sometimes it's even too much for someone as joyful as me to handle. I had to leave the room. I know too many veterans. I love you all so deeply that this monumental betrayal was too much to take and I found myself pacing the halls, holding myself as tightly as I could, just quietly screaming in defiance.
I slid down a wall and pretended I was in my safest virtual space to catch my breath. I knew I wasn't getting anywhere with this response. I had to get control. Almost instantly, that thought triggered a release of the tension I was holding. The uncontrollable shaking stopped. I took a couple breaths and stopped the momentum.
Surprised the hell out of me. Just then the lifeguard came by and rescued me. We went off and had an animated discussion about the ECS and emotions and I went back to the group. I don't believe I've ever exerted that level of emotional control in my life. The entire experience left me deeply moved.
The emotional pain I'm feeling is somewhat self-indulgent, and I'll get past that soon. We're such an odd species. This knowledge, and the awareness it forced me to confront will lead me to a point of greater clarity and I'll be able to deal with it more creatively. I'll probably learn something unexpected about the ECS.
I've been flipping between letting it hit me without resistance and laughing about the futility of it and how little that really means to who I am and what I do, with who you all are and what you do. In the end I care more about being happy and loving than I care to be frustrated or in pain. Can't think straight when I'm conflicted.
I feel better now. Thanks for letting me ramble through that.
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I curled up in fetal position under my most comforting blanket and fell asleep after that post. The sleep helped. Now I'm hungry and I have some brownies to bake. 
Still hurts emotionally, but much less now. That was a powerful momentum. Even understanding it was self-indulgent wasn't enough to stop it completely without the nap. Feeling much better now.
Anyone else hear "Bring out your dead!" when you say that? Happens every time with me. Lol!
Still hurts emotionally, but much less now. That was a powerful momentum. Even understanding it was self-indulgent wasn't enough to stop it completely without the nap. Feeling much better now.
Anyone else hear "Bring out your dead!" when you say that? Happens every time with me. Lol!
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Thank you Morglie.
I sometimes feel like that muppet on crack Llama described me as. 
Ahhhh...... That was a good laugh. Gardening chores are out of the way, I've had some food, a cup of coffee, and half a Carnival brownie that just sent chills down my arms and made the hairs on the back of my neck stand up.
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I forgot I have a drench scheduled for Emerald. The water gets ph'd to 5.5. I may have this part under control. 
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This post is meant to make lexort smile. He's been sick lately, and in that sickened state he still reached out to help my dear Emerald. Well lex, I think we might be on to something.
She's at Day 69, and I'm figuring a few more weeks and she'll be ready to flip. She has some serious growth exploding on those branches.
Color is starting to return.
Yep, she's gonna teach me a thing or two. Most importantly, she's starting to feel like a happy plant.
She's at Day 69, and I'm figuring a few more weeks and she'll be ready to flip. She has some serious growth exploding on those branches.
Color is starting to return.
Yep, she's gonna teach me a thing or two. Most importantly, she's starting to feel like a happy plant.
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Lining the brownie pan with parchment paper allows me to leave no cannabinoid behind.
Just enough chocolate and caramel to soothe the late-night craving.
*contented sigh*
Just enough chocolate and caramel to soothe the late-night craving.
*contented sigh*
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The dear friend that I gifted some decarbed Carnival to let me know it hits hard and fast and is super smooth going in. She also gave me my yearly calendar, which I put to immediate use.
Alright, I can't see straight anymore.
Goodnight moon.
Alright, I can't see straight anymore.
Goodnight moon.
You get a special response all your own 36.
We've gone round and round with that question, and I'm not certain we have all the answers. This is in Doc's soil, but I was drenching too closely for a year and I also complicated it by tearing down twice in the middle of grows.
So many variables that went haywire last year it's hard to say. What we do know, and I accept, is that I didn't use the system as instructed.
We've been speculating that using BSM to neutralize the water might have contributed, but that seems so far-fetched. This soil is done. A new batch is cooking. I'm shifting the entire grow to Doc's system this year. It gives me the most consistent quality with the least effort.
I have other threads calling for attention that are hoping I find balance with the garden so I have more time to devote to study and exploration of cannabis oils and the healing potential of cannabis.
What are you up to these days? Starting another journal? How'd it go with that expansion you were planning?
I've missed being around Sue, this time of year everything seems to take extra effort.
I'm glad you have found a system and technique that provides both results and stimulation for you. I asked about the leaves being curious about a pest issue, have you eliminated mites (broad, russet, or spider) as a possibility? Do you have a scope powerful enough to check?
If these bad guys are still around you will continuously fight an uphill battle. I know I'm a nag, but I want you to succeed. What lead to the thought that molasses caused the issue? Wouldn't Calcium from kit feedings prevent issues with BSM, or are you thinking a ph issue? Check any other houseplants and make sure it isn't a pest issue please.
Thank you for asking about my gardens. My indoor room is about to be flipped to 12/12. This run is Strawberry Tangie, GG4, Pineapple, Cookie Killer, Grouch x Pineapple, and maybe a Cookie Killer x Blue Dream or two. No journal is planned until I can stay around a while. My veggie garden is expanding again, this Spring I'm going to be selling at two farmers markets as well as a few local chefs. I have a meeting soon about teaching gardening and cooking classes through a local non profit to children and single parent families, so I am optimistic about that.
Love ya Sue
That is so sad but so true. It's also why I've said for many years now that the worst people to give power to are those that seek it out.
Glad you were able to get past that but not surprised at your reaction one bit!
Heya sue,, cheers to ya,,
Funny that the first time I wrote '2017' this time was on the label on one of my plants,, guess we be cronic maybe, tho I should only speak for myself of course, ha
My brand new calendar is in full use as well, every day so far has writing, my daughter was visiting last summer, she is a photog, and she took a messa pics of our flowers,, then she snuck home and made me a beautiful calendar for this year, hanging fine in me labooratoory
What would I do without a calendar in there,, oh ya,, i know,, i would forget, haha
Hey sue, please, you mentioned a bit ago, re the volcano voporizer, about bag number six, or something similar,, reason I ask is all of the literature I have read so far talks about four bags being maxed out perty much,, but that is not true, as you mentioned, depending on many circumstances of course, but six or seven bags seems standard more or less, but no less, or more, I guess, ha
Just curious about what you know teach, is all, research past four bags seems lacking
Lovin it tho sue, indeed,, dutty too, and dutty too too
Funny that the first time I wrote '2017' this time was on the label on one of my plants,, guess we be cronic maybe, tho I should only speak for myself of course, ha
My brand new calendar is in full use as well, every day so far has writing, my daughter was visiting last summer, she is a photog, and she took a messa pics of our flowers,, then she snuck home and made me a beautiful calendar for this year, hanging fine in me labooratoory
What would I do without a calendar in there,, oh ya,, i know,, i would forget, haha
Hey sue, please, you mentioned a bit ago, re the volcano voporizer, about bag number six, or something similar,, reason I ask is all of the literature I have read so far talks about four bags being maxed out perty much,, but that is not true, as you mentioned, depending on many circumstances of course, but six or seven bags seems standard more or less, but no less, or more, I guess, ha
Just curious about what you know teach, is all, research past four bags seems lacking
Lovin it tho sue, indeed,, dutty too, and dutty too too
This post is meant to make lexort smile. He's been sick lately, and in that sickened state he still reached out to help my dear Emerald. Well lex, I think we might be on to something.
She's at Day 69, and I'm figuring a few more weeks and she'll be ready to flip. She has some serious growth exploding on those branches.
Yep, she's gonna teach me a thing or two. Most importantly, she's starting to feel like a happy plant.
Emerald is recovering nicely.
Well done.
I really find that one of the bits of magic that makes hempy work best is a familiarity with the plant and it's exact needs.
I get the best grows from plants that I've grown before and have an understanding of the feeding cues that the plants themselves give us. Of course, if you don't already have that experience under your belt with that strain, you're really coming to the fight unarmed.
The indicas seem to be much more tolerant of the journey, but the sativas seem to be giving me fits. I have one that I kinda got lucky with and has turned out huge, but it took me a long time before she picked up.
Of course, some folks choose a more formal method and stay with a schedule. I'm more touchy-feely-lookie sort.
I get the best grows from plants that I've grown before and have an understanding of the feeding cues that the plants themselves give us. Of course, if you don't already have that experience under your belt with that strain, you're really coming to the fight unarmed.
The indicas seem to be much more tolerant of the journey, but the sativas seem to be giving me fits. I have one that I kinda got lucky with and has turned out huge, but it took me a long time before she picked up.
Of course, some folks choose a more formal method and stay with a schedule. I'm more touchy-feely-lookie sort.
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I think if I had to commit I'd have to say I'm more touchy-feeley-lookey as well, Tead. She and I have been spending a little more time together, as I watch her develop. I put her through a lot. She's looking like she'll amount to something surprising. I'm in no rush with her. I head off to paradise in a bit here. I'll need to time her just right so the daughter doesn't have to do more than one, possibly two waterings while I'm gone.
She looks happier every day.
She is looking a lot happier. Great job Sue!
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Shes looking good Sue 