witchyhour
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That's right! I have learned that I'm number one in my life! And that I deserve it!Oh, you touched my heart girl. My mother's greatest gift to us was the art of unconditional loving. My father abandoned the family for a "better one", and that screwed me up for most of my life, but those lessons were planted deep and took root tenaciously. I was the last person I learned to love unconditionally, and it was with the help of my soulmate, a man who loved me with unconditional passion for 35 years. I tried to pass that gift on to my own children, and I believe Dale and I were successful in doing that, although being tossed aside by my own son shook me a bit.
I've been getting better at loving myself since Dale died, initially out of a survival instinct but now because I know without a doubt that I'm completely lovable and I like my own company. I deserve the best, including unconditional love and acceptance by myself of who I am. I work in front of a bank of mirrors. I have lots of opportunity to look myself in the eye and tell myself how wonderful I am.
I tell everyone that I never felt as pretty as I feel now. Mom says I'm crazy because I was a very good looking woman when I was younger, to what I tell her "I probably looked better, but I didn't feel as beautiful as I feel now." . . . .
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