The Joy Of Growing - SweetSue Goes Perpetual

What is yall's deal with coffee tonight? Lol.
Cafe du Monde? Tsk, tsk. Yankee tourist trap.

Your plants are looking sexy over there mon amie. Very nice job. They love ya!

Oh, indica tinctured decaf for me. Gotta get up at 5am, blah.
 
Whew! Just finished a marathon, three-hour session of Callanetics,morning super slow and exploring deeper in trickiest of the movements. Good God, I feel like superwoman!!!!


glimmergrass said:
Do you have more seeds for her strain? Is she a one-off? Or a clone? My apologies for not remembering :)
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Yes, I do have more seeds, but it's an auto cross of in determinant lineage, so maybe by the time I get around to growing the next one someone like B A R can figure out how to help me clone her and keep one going. If not, it'll be great fun, won't it? This is the first seed I got to germinate from that batch, which suggests a challenge ahead. I'll choose to make it an adventure instead. :battingeyelashes: So much depends on perspective, eh?

oldergrower said:
You may have to change her name to "SKITTLES" :rofl: taste the rainbow
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oldergrower said:
Sorry for thread jumping Sue, that was to easy :Love::hugs:
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Anytime, my friend. My thread is your thread. :laughtwo: SKITTLES might be a good call, at that. I'll have to consider that and ask the accidental breeder his thoughts on the matter.

Mr Am4zin said:
Finally caught up again. All your girls are delightful but I do have a soft spot for carnival. :circle-of-love:
I don't drink coffee, I drink tea with milk and no sugar. :Love:
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Sounds delicious Mr Am4zin. I'm most partial to Mint Medley herb tea, plain. My favorite breakfast beverage. The mint helps digestion too, so it appeals to that overactive multi-tasker part of my personality. LOL!

cajuncelt said:
What is yall's deal with coffee tonight? Lol.
Cafe du Monde? Tsk, tsk. Yankee tourist trap.

Your plants are looking sexy over there mon amie. Very nice job. They love ya!

Oh, indica tinctured decaf for me. Gotta get up at 5am, blah.
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I'll keep that in mind mon ami, and thank you for noticing the sex appeal. I was beginning to wonder what I was doing wrong. :battingeyelashes:

Of course they love me. Haven't you noticed how lovable I am? That tent flap drops open and the love fest begins. :laughtwo:
 
Before I turn in for the night I had some pictures that never got up, so here they be. :battingeyelashes:

Enjoy. :Love:

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I left this one in because it gives you a sense of how dense these colas are.

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A good illustration of her interior development.

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The Afghani is going to end up impressing the hell out of us.

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Let me close out with Carnival, of course. :battingeyelashes: :Love:

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I'm off to bed now. The marathon three-hour session of Callanetics has me turning in an hour earlier than normal. :woohoo:

Good night everyone :Love:
 
Morning Sue! I know I come here to look at the lovely pot plants that you have, but I have to say that the desert rose you have in your tent is also strikingly beautiful. Is this specimen also in a LOS?
 
CyTheElectric said:
Morning Sue! I know I come here to look at the lovely pot plants that you have, but I have to say that the desert rose you have in your tent is also strikingly beautiful. Is this specimen also in a LOS?
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Thank you Cy, it has given me the most beautiful backdrop, hasn't it? That specimen is planted in rediculously depleted soil, a situation it tolerates. Next spring I'm researching the proper soil mix and transplanting it. Actually, it just occured to me that I'll need to find a new home for it when I finally relocate West.

It's been so badly neglected, and still it blooms like this. A plant to sooth the soul.
 
Anybody out there with any insight into getting through the first Thanksgiving without...... I'm all ears. Trying unsuccessfully to keep quiet,......still moving ahead, a good sign. But the pain..... I don't know how to stop missing him so desperately as the time gets closer. It's like being stabbed.

I hesitated to post that, because I'm more stable than that reads. Honestly, I am. Just dealing with so much pain at the same time and I want the day to be a celebration. There has to be a way to focus myself instead if getting this scattershot grief that's everywhere. This grieving thing fascinates me. Can you tell? :laughtwo:

So, any ideas?
 
A very good morning to you Susan. Yes, very difficult for you at these times. Try and spend as much of your spare time as possible with other family....they have a way of healing these emotions during times like these. My thoughts will be with you during TG and Christmas. Try and have a good day Sue , and keep that sweet chin of your s up OK! Later ....Duggs.:green_heart::hugs:
 
Just a thought Sue, but consider spending the day with friends and family. Share stories of the good times you had and celebrate the time you shared together, rather than be alone and focus on your loss.

Remembering the good times, and sharing those stories with others, tends to make you smile and lessen the grief :)
 
oldergrower said:
Good morning Sue, hope your day is starting out well :hugs:
I always enjoy seeing pictures of your garden. It is very diversified.
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"Diversified ". LOL! An excellent description, I suppose. Nothing boring about it, I'll tell you that! I've made myself do breakfast and coffee before I pop the tent open, and that's behind me now. The brownie just started to wake the senses up to the higher realm, so let's get that love-fest going, shall we?

And this is just the kind of thing I was hoping to find. A nice wave of pistils beginning on Carnival, now 2 days past her first CAT. :yahoo:

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More pictures later. I need to make a coffee run into town. Maybe I'll walk down to the confluence of the rivers and pull on some natural earth energy. That actually sounds like a good idea. Let me get some pictures taken and get going so I can get back here and return to the sorting game. My best friend has resolved to quizz me daily on my progress of divestiture. Our hope is that it'll keep me working at it. All the talk in the world won't get it packed up, will it?

Let's start our day with the admission that the only purpose for walking among the other earthlings is to be a beacon of loving expression. Any other idea concerning this is erroneous. There's no need to even debate the point, is there? You know I'm right. Having acknowledged this basic construct it becomes your joy to find ways to drop little acts of loving expression into the flavor of your day and watch it transform the lives of those around you.

We are the light of the world. As I grow older I realize more fully the truth in that childlike statement. Let yours shine. Try to outshine mine. I dare you. :laughtwo: Ready? Game on!!! :battingeyelashes: :green_heart:
 
Tead said:
When I've missed loved ones hard in the past, I've found that focusing on the joy in children helps me... or perhaps just distracts me. Perhaps the upcoming holiday will also give you a chance to experience that with family gatherings and children running about.
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Part of the pain Tead, is wrapped up around a daughter-in-law who hates me and has taken her part of my family, the part that includes my beloved son and three granddaughters, out of my reach. It adds a deeper flavor to the pain, yet another forgiveness challenge. Dale's family has been silent since his death. I didn't even get an invite to Thanksgiving. To be honest, I didn't call to ask about it either. We're not that close. I wasn't aware of his nature as a hermit when I fell so madly in love with him that living without him became impossible. Thirty-five years of neglect does little to strengthen family ties.

My dear friend, who's stealing me away for the major holidays, has a large, loud, loving family circle filled with laughing and crying children. They're my second family. Getting through those holidays will be much easier. Lots of hugs and physical contact. My skin can't get there fast enough. This isolation has been the most difficult for someone as geared to physical contact as I am. I was surprised at how I'd missed preparing for that. It just never crossed my mind how much we touched in the course of a day. It was just like breathing, and my skin feels like it might be suffocating.

Hmmm, interesting, how close that came to how it feels. I was crying before it was typed in. You guys are, uh, very indulgent of my penchant for working this out right there on the floor in front of us all. Not everyone would be as accepting of my in-your-face living, and it still surprises me to have found an entire community of accepting souls willing to listen to me tear my guts out and reassemble them into something with better flow.

Thank you guys. I can't get Phoenix fast enough. Thanksgiving is going to be rough, no matter what. It's going to be rough on my daughter too, so I'm thankful that I'll be here this year. Next year she's on her own, or she visits me, wherever that may be.

Back on topic, here's a treat before I go.

Having fun with the camera. There's no maintenance neended, so brace yourselves guys. LOL!

Auto Jock Horror x Auto Amnesia was out to play. She's all of 49 Days old today. :battingeyelashes:

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I really must get out the door soon. Let me grab just a few more shots. Everyone's so enticing. There definately will be more pictures. It'll keep me busy. :laughtwo:
 
A virtual hug to you Sue! Warm and loving energy your way. I know this holiday you will dwell some in your sadness. It will be bittersweet. But as you already know that is okay. We must dwell some in our grief and try to do so with a joyful spirit. That won't make sense to everyone here but I am sure it makes sense to you. You are a bright light, a candle in the darkness. Soon you will bring that light to Phoenix and I can imagine it will ignite a desert fire. I can see you out there, spinning into an inferno, dancing in the desert sun, beaming with joy. I think we will see you set up your grow there, put your roots in that sandy soil and thrive. Many blessings to you SweetSue.
 
Question:. Is this the "taco effect" I read of?

It's a hard call on this plant, I know, as odd as it is. She's so close to the end, but still actively blooming, so we'll ride it out a bit longer, and I'm not concerned about her. I was just curious.

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She was looking a bit stressed, so I gave everyone a DeStress foliar. It gave me a reason to hold each plant and shower them individually with love. The Afghani and I cried together. Life's been rough this year, but we still move on. She and I share a special bond.

I love gardening. :battingeyelashes: :Love:

We could try to blame it on the brownie. :battingeyelashes:
 
Yes that looks to be what you are seeing Sue, I also see some leaves starting to lighten/discolor as well as some starting to "twist" or turn edge ways. Those are signs of magnesium deficiency, which is quite common during flowering under LEDs but can also be caused by too much potassium.

Remember the conversation on your Soil thread concerning Ca/Mg/K levels and the chess board "winks"

BTW, I have had some thoughts concerning deficiencies and that discussion. Once I organized my thoughts, I will them post there :)
 
SweetSue said:
Anybody out there with any insight into getting through the first Thanksgiving without...... I'm all ears. Trying unsuccessfully to keep quiet,......still moving ahead, a good sign. But the pain..... I don't know how to stop missing him so desperately as the time gets closer. It's like being stabbed.

I hesitated to post that, because I'm more stable than that reads. Honestly, I am. Just dealing with so much pain at the same time and I want the day to be a celebration. There has to be a way to focus myself instead if getting this scattershot grief that's everywhere. This grieving thing fascinates me. Can you tell? :laughtwo:

So, any ideas?
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Ah, Sue. My heart aches for you. Be gentle with yourself, make sure you take care of yourself -- physically, emotionally. I'm glad you'll be with your friend's boisterous family, but pay really close attention to what you need at any moment. Do you need quiet? That can be hard to get in a busy time, but you need it. If you like having people with you, I second the advice to have some time sharing memories with people who love you -- did your friend know your husband? Was he a hermit with her, too? Shared grief doesn't necessarily make your own, particular aching grief easier, but it opens you and helps both you and the other people who loved your husband (and who love you). Keep communicating, with yourself, with others.

Of course you miss him. Of course it feels like an assault, that pain. And every bit of that loss will come in chunks -- we lose the people who have died in bits and pieces, over a long time. But what you shared was real, and you have been left with more than just pain. He's still there, everything that he loved and was important to him -- the world he moved through and the way he affected it. It makes it more intense because he was hermit-like -- it sounds as if your lives were very much focused on each other. A HUGE loss.

And all of this is harder because of the estrangements -- between your husband and his family and between you and your daughter in law which has led to your being cut off from your son and grandchildren. Fuck.

Fuck, I'm so sorry.
 
I decided to spend the day making art.

Jamaican Dream: Backlit, with filter (Day 76)

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