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Blast off, sister!
Oh BigBear, I wanted the hit to be soooo much bigger. Lol! It feels good though. I won't complain more than that.
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Oh BigBear, I wanted the hit to be soooo much bigger. Lol! It feels good though. I won't complain more than that.
MaddHacker
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Damn now that is a first, As I was getting ready to respond, you flipped Yet Another Page.... Damn girl.... Anyway glad all is well in Sweet Land.... First day I have ever been sent home early due to an over abundance of Black Flies.... They are thick, but not as thick as they gonna get.... Anyway gonna take a nap before my night job whooop... Green Day all..
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I had some interest in this abstinence business and was lost in a multi branched rabbit hole this morning. I saw this and thought of you.
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I had some interest in this abstinence business and was lost in a multi branched rabbit hole this morning. I saw this and thought of you.
Yes - that’s it exactly ...
The weight was a complete bonus for me. I did it for the purpose of metabolic shift, which it did. But in the months prior to starting the fasting I’d stacked on 20kg thanks to a particular medication that i was on. I lost a kilo per week for awhile- that was doing 3 x 36hr fasts per week. Ive pulled it back slowly to a combination of 18 & 24hr fasts - kept losing weight so added in another breakfast! I’m a bit under my ideal weight now so looking to keep the eating pattern and halt the weight loss. I’m off all sugar and most carbs (there’s these corn crackers things I just cant let go of - they’re yummy and a great substitute for toast with boiled eggs!
I’m so glad you’re there Sue - and great that you’re not craving carbs or sugar
Blue Dream, here I come.
You know, at some point you should probably start considering happiness(?) vs. health. I mean, well... what good is it to live forever (or even a day) if it's just another form of torture, lol?
"...a great substitute for toast with boiled eggs." - ????? That's like saying that something is a great substitute for gonnerhea, isn't it? Toast with boiled eggs is POW food. If the person feeding you happens to be the type that wakes you up each morning by smashing your ribs with the stock of his rifle, sure, okay, I get it, you eat whatever the screws drop into the mud in front of you and hope that it gives you (somehow?) enough life-energy to survive until tomorrow because, hey, any day now them yankees might prevail against Hitler and come rolling into das kamp in their main battle tanks and liberate you and all the rest of the still-somewhat-alive prisoners.
How about a great substitute for a big box of spicy Slim Jims? Or 22 (all that'll fit onto a plate
) Totino's Supreme Pizza Rolls with half a jar of Hellman's REAL Mayonaise to dip the little bites of heaven into? You know, things that a person might actually want to eat if and when they could afford to, but might not really be considered health food? Or a substitute for those three "everything and the kitchen sink" large pizzas that you used to win on stupid radio call-in shows on a weekly basis as a kid that were awesome then because you could give one to Mom & Pop to share and gobble up the other two all on your own, but which aren't nearly so great now that you're an adult and would actually have to pay for them, lol?
You know, real food, not prison fare. Best substitute for that is a quick escape. Or at least an attempt at same, which might at least get you put out of your misery....
"...a great substitute for toast with boiled eggs." - ????? That's like saying that something is a great substitute for gonnerhea, isn't it? Toast with boiled eggs is POW food. If the person feeding you happens to be the type that wakes you up each morning by smashing your ribs with the stock of his rifle, sure, okay, I get it, you eat whatever the screws drop into the mud in front of you and hope that it gives you (somehow?) enough life-energy to survive until tomorrow because, hey, any day now them yankees might prevail against Hitler and come rolling into das kamp in their main battle tanks and liberate you and all the rest of the still-somewhat-alive prisoners.
How about a great substitute for a big box of spicy Slim Jims? Or 22 (all that'll fit onto a plate
) Totino's Supreme Pizza Rolls with half a jar of Hellman's REAL Mayonaise to dip the little bites of heaven into? You know, things that a person might actually want to eat if and when they could afford to, but might not really be considered health food? Or a substitute for those three "everything and the kitchen sink" large pizzas that you used to win on stupid radio call-in shows on a weekly basis as a kid that were awesome then because you could give one to Mom & Pop to share and gobble up the other two all on your own, but which aren't nearly so great now that you're an adult and would actually have to pay for them, lol?You know, real food, not prison fare. Best substitute for that is a quick escape. Or at least an attempt at same, which might at least get you put out of your misery....
MaddHacker
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I wonder sometimes TS, do you just sit around and think this up man... Sometimes your Sardonic attitude really disrupts my day... I am not anyone on this planet but I really make it a point to try to wake up and be thankful for something even if it is boiled eggs and toast... I take great happiness to have survived Throat cancer not once but two times.. All I can really eat now it soft bland foods, but I am damn glad to have it and the life it gives me to see my kids and grandkids and others...I am really ashamed as a human to know that someone or something made you have such a sarcastic grip on life.. But then other times you are upbeat... IDK, the power of social media, you dont have to be a social person to use media these days... A shame on alot of levels TS.. I wish you THE MOST GREENEST OF GREEN DAYS and a hug or whatever you need... If it can be done, it shall be done...
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Congrats Sue! I don't partake enough to desensitize, but I have been slathering on the pain creme, along with my wife as well, but I'm not counting that since it doesn't seem to engage in the bloodstream at any measurable level. I've been playing with a few pain creme recipes from Whoopy (I know, misspelled for the nosy search engines) and I agree with you, it's going to become it's a big part of the future of Cannabis in America. Amazing, the relief I experienced from a sunburn received while hanging out at JazzFest for two sunny gorgeous days was beyond anything I've ever bought at the Pharmacy!
As I've posted too many times probably, more water is mandatory key to a healthier body. Most people drink half of what they should be consuming everyday. Weight loss is difficult to achieve, but very simple in theory. Calories in vs. Calories burned, net deficit = weight loss, net credit = weight gain. I've been both skinny and fat during my lifetime, maxing out at 238 lbs in my 30s, but now around 170 @ 6', my average or "normal" weight. My nutritionist agrees about the +/- part, but cares more about what the Calories are derived from than how many are in play each day. Some foods do seem to rev up the metabolism more than others, but they usually don't taste all sweet and fatty. I like sweet and fatty! Why is it the best tasting stuffs are the worst foods for our bodies? Hmmm ... they are in New Orleans anyways!
Glad you aren't suffering like you did during your last desensitization, but your were ill at the time and that must have thrown your body for a loop. You probably needed more cannibinoids at that time, not less!
Timing is often so important! Peace
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Congrats Sue! I don't partake enough to desensitize, but I have been slathering on the pain creme, along with my wife as well, but I'm not counting that since it doesn't seem to engage in the bloodstream at any measurable level. I've been playing with a few pain creme recipes from Whoopy (I know, misspelled for the nosy search engines) and I agree with you, it's going to become it's a big part of the future of Cannabis in America. Amazing, the relief I experienced from a sunburn received while hanging out at JazzFest for two sunny gorgeous days was beyond anything I've ever bought at the Pharmacy!
As I've posted too many times probably, more water is mandatory key to a healthier body. Most people drink half of what they should be consuming everyday. Weight loss is difficult to achieve, but very simple in theory. Calories in vs. Calories burned, net deficit = weight loss, net credit = weight gain. I've been both skinny and fat during my lifetime, maxing out at 238 lbs in my 30s, but now around 170 @ 6', my average or "normal" weight. My nutritionist agrees about the +/- part, but cares more about what the Calories are derived from than how many are in play each day. Some foods do seem to rev up the metabolism more than others, but they usually don't taste all sweet and fatty. I like sweet and fatty! Why is it the best tasting stuffs the worst foods for our bodies? Hmmm ...
Glad you aren't suffering like you did during your last desensitization, but your were ill at the time and that must have thrown your body for a loop. You probably needed more cannibinoids at that time, not less!
Peace
Keith
Yes it is Keith - timing is everything. Loads of sunshine and good temps, coupled to daily meditation practice and the fasting program have me on a positive ride this time.
I’ve used the cream for sun overdose. Lol! I was simply amazed that the pink faded right away overnight without any discomfort. This time of the year can be tricky, and until my skin has reached a certain level of tanning from my walks I can burn easily. It’s been a lifelong concern.
But cannabinoids protect the skin from overexposure and heal quickly when you’ve overdone it. I’ll be taking a small container with me in my trip.
Sucks about your throat. But that sort of puts you in the prison-camp category, yeah? You have no choice. I can understand that, man. I've been known to eat stuff that I had to scrape maggots off of first. <SHRUGS> Doesn't mean I was happy about it. What kept me going was the hope that things would get better in the culinary department (and in other ways, of course). Crummy food, that's like a beating. I can stand there bleeding and say, "Thank you, may I have another?" Or I can... you know, fight back. Or run. Aint nothing to be thankful for in taking a beating.
BtW, congratulations on having lived long enough to have grandkids. I hope you got to enjoy some decent food when you were younger before you got sick. And that's part of my point! Just think, if you'd been living on what you HAVE TO eat now all that time, it would have been time - and meal opportunities - completely wasted.
People shouldn't try surviving on sawdust and rice cakes until they're forced to. That's all (in simple terms).
Hey, buddy, if another person can make YOU ashamed of YOURSELF... then the fault is not with that other person.
Exactly! 90+% of the time I manage to pretend to trade all the politically correct bullshit back and forth, because it's what people (sadly) seem to expect in what passes for their fellow man these days. But some days you just got to pull your head out of the sand (or... somewhere) and act like a human being, lest you forget.
No need to be ashamed. There's probably some kind of "positive energy" cure for that. If not, get yourself a cold bottle and a hot woman (or vice versa, if that's how the spirit moves ya), and drop all the BS and forum smilies. It'll make you feel like you're alive for a bit. Even if it eventually kills you, at least your ghost will know it lived. FFS.
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TS....having a trying month?
I like my smilies. I kinda fought in my gentle way to get them back. Lol!
You live in a universe where things happen to you, instead of for you. It’s a matter of perspective that controls the sad reality you continue to live. Because things happen for you. Choosing not to see it that way doesn’t change it, it simply limits the opportunities you’ll recognize that could help make life a bit softer.
Around here you don’t have to be anyone other than you are, but don’t you sometimes wonder what makes our worlds so different? I think it comes down to our inner conversations.
Someday we’ll be in the same room again, if things go well, and we can discuss this victim mentality you cultivate in more personal dialogue. It’s not serving you well my friend.
Besmirched1
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It's hard being a conical personality (haha was going to change but too funny), mix that with a non compliant personality and life just seems like a series of crap that happens to you.
Human beings ability to be in denial or use of distraction and evasion to live in a wonderland of rainbows and unicorns is phenomenal, never underestimate it.
However for those of us who look at life and see it for the ironical thing it is, and see past all the lies since birth it's really hard to find that little bit of spark to keep you going.
After my ex took my boys, I have had a hole that can't be filled. 7 years since even a photo, match that with the personality and it's been really hard. I don't try and fill the void anymore, as nothing would sate it.
Instead I try to achieve as much as I'm able every day and build a better person for my boys to be around. This by no means satisfys me but it gives me direction and purpose.
Generally I have found people and life suck, but I wouldn't be dead for quids, I want to sick around and become a grumpy old fart and piss the next generations off. I'm really excited about pushing the laws and limits in Australia, however it may not result in any real change as history has shown. These small causes distract me from the always present social conventions, small minded selfishness and the must collect and buy overpriced crap till I die attitude of most of the SHEEPLE in this world seem to have.
It only takes criticism and withholding of love to create a damaged personality. And a life time to try and deal with.
It has taken a f**kton of work mentally to get to this point, once you start it's a life long journey, and I still have a long way to go before I reach where I want to be. I am happy however to accept who I am at the moment and give myself credit for how far I've come.
Hooray for small wins hey TS?
Chin up chest out and fight like f**k.
Human beings ability to be in denial or use of distraction and evasion to live in a wonderland of rainbows and unicorns is phenomenal, never underestimate it.
However for those of us who look at life and see it for the ironical thing it is, and see past all the lies since birth it's really hard to find that little bit of spark to keep you going.
After my ex took my boys, I have had a hole that can't be filled. 7 years since even a photo, match that with the personality and it's been really hard. I don't try and fill the void anymore, as nothing would sate it.
Instead I try to achieve as much as I'm able every day and build a better person for my boys to be around. This by no means satisfys me but it gives me direction and purpose.
Generally I have found people and life suck, but I wouldn't be dead for quids, I want to sick around and become a grumpy old fart and piss the next generations off. I'm really excited about pushing the laws and limits in Australia, however it may not result in any real change as history has shown. These small causes distract me from the always present social conventions, small minded selfishness and the must collect and buy overpriced crap till I die attitude of most of the SHEEPLE in this world seem to have.
It only takes criticism and withholding of love to create a damaged personality. And a life time to try and deal with.
It has taken a f**kton of work mentally to get to this point, once you start it's a life long journey, and I still have a long way to go before I reach where I want to be. I am happy however to accept who I am at the moment and give myself credit for how far I've come.
Hooray for small wins hey TS?
Chin up chest out and fight like f**k.
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Life can be sh*t, or it can be setting you up for wonder.
I’ll admit that I was born with a proclivity to see how everything works for good, but it’s mostly training. My life wasn’t what one might call easy, by any terms, and where your sons were snatched away, mine choose to walk away from his mother.
So my world isn’t all rainbows and unicorns, but it is deliberately joyful, through design and practice - daily practice. Persistent, unrelenting focus on the idea that only good lies ahead.
My husband died a horrible death that took twenty years to get there, and my son abandoned me in my hour of greatest emotional need and stole my sparkling grandchildren from us. I could have made that the template of my life’s experience.
I chose to live in joy, and after months of deliberate focus I’ve reset my emotional default to “Only good lies ahead.”
You look at the world and see discord. I look at the discord and see humans asking to be loved. Carrying around the judgement of other’s actions doesn’t make a hoot’s worth of difference in their world or experience, but it sure will screw with yours.
And you do that by choosing to. You could just as easily choose not to. It may take a while, but with practice it’s possible for anyone, when they’re ready to make the emotional shift that brings joy instead of discord.
I’ll admit that I was born with a proclivity to see how everything works for good, but it’s mostly training. My life wasn’t what one might call easy, by any terms, and where your sons were snatched away, mine choose to walk away from his mother.
So my world isn’t all rainbows and unicorns, but it is deliberately joyful, through design and practice - daily practice. Persistent, unrelenting focus on the idea that only good lies ahead.
My husband died a horrible death that took twenty years to get there, and my son abandoned me in my hour of greatest emotional need and stole my sparkling grandchildren from us. I could have made that the template of my life’s experience.
I chose to live in joy, and after months of deliberate focus I’ve reset my emotional default to “Only good lies ahead.”
You look at the world and see discord. I look at the discord and see humans asking to be loved. Carrying around the judgement of other’s actions doesn’t make a hoot’s worth of difference in their world or experience, but it sure will screw with yours.
And you do that by choosing to. You could just as easily choose not to. It may take a while, but with practice it’s possible for anyone, when they’re ready to make the emotional shift that brings joy instead of discord.
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Great post Sue,
If choosing happiness vs. sadness is wool pulling over my eyes, count me in! My grandpa was a Holocaust survivor, his parents didn't make it, yet he chose to live everyday thereafter to it's fullest, happy he still had a life to live. I too choose not to let the many negative things that have occurred in my life to form my opinion and experiences, both now and in the future. I can't do anything about the past. Rose colored glasses may be jading my view, but I use deliberate choice, everyday, to wear these spectacles. The view is great, even though my vision is far from perfect.
TS,
I truly hope you find a modicum of peace and joy in your days ahead, only you can affect how you feel about your gift of life. The past is just that, unchangeable. It'll all end regardless of how we live it, so perhaps try to see the glass as half full even if it is half empty too. I wish you the absolute best with experiencing contentment and appreciation with eggs and toast.
Peace ... and love
Keith
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So good to read you do have goals, that's important to work through the rougher patches being a human on Earth. I tend to seldom criticize people, a walk in their shoes can change a persons perspective and reality.
Don't criticize "Sheeple" because they choose happiness, it may all be an illusion but their reality is a good one for them live their lives happily. Accepting who you are and being happy with who you are quite different things. Most humans normally don't like to see others in pain and internal discord, and I'm sorry you have experienced so much of it in your life. Wishing the best for you man, Steak and Potatoes everyday by the truckload!
Peace
Keith
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Well said sue and Keith, I agree totally, and attitude has a lot to do with it. I choose to stand up and fight and use the bad to drive me to be better, as a person.
I see wonder everywhere I look but I don't feel that joy, and that's OK.
I don't regret who or what I am nor do I regret any choices I have made, they have shaped who I am, but as a cynical non compliant personallity I also try not to let that attitude afftect others, it's my shit to deal with, I was trying to let TS know he had I similar personality here.
Empathy for your fellow man is what us needed.
As far as SHEEPLE, I struggle with enlightenment vs ignirence is bliss all the time and I have never begruged anyone finding happiness or peace, regardless of the vehicle, shopping, food, drugs, alcohol, tobacco, coffee etc only that like all things in life you find it where you can. It's the buying into a bullshit system without thought or care for anyone but themselves, the mass buying of crap because the neighbour has it. The moaning because you didn't get a like on social media. Not criticism just opinion and observation, family, personal enlightenment and progression etc these are what we should be buying into. I mostly want to see the world heal and genuinely be a better place, stop being exclusive and start being inclusive, no matter what.
Sue much respect, I really feel for you and the struggle, but I clearly see the strong determined woman working to do what she can when she can with what she can control. Tear to my eye honestly this is what gets me emotional, not my own problems.
I often think about the pioneers here and their struggle and compare it to how easy I have it. And I think the lessons from the past are valuable.
I see wonder everywhere I look but I don't feel that joy, and that's OK.
I don't regret who or what I am nor do I regret any choices I have made, they have shaped who I am, but as a cynical non compliant personallity I also try not to let that attitude afftect others, it's my shit to deal with, I was trying to let TS know he had I similar personality here.
Empathy for your fellow man is what us needed.
As far as SHEEPLE, I struggle with enlightenment vs ignirence is bliss all the time and I have never begruged anyone finding happiness or peace, regardless of the vehicle, shopping, food, drugs, alcohol, tobacco, coffee etc only that like all things in life you find it where you can. It's the buying into a bullshit system without thought or care for anyone but themselves, the mass buying of crap because the neighbour has it. The moaning because you didn't get a like on social media. Not criticism just opinion and observation, family, personal enlightenment and progression etc these are what we should be buying into. I mostly want to see the world heal and genuinely be a better place, stop being exclusive and start being inclusive, no matter what.
Sue much respect, I really feel for you and the struggle, but I clearly see the strong determined woman working to do what she can when she can with what she can control. Tear to my eye honestly this is what gets me emotional, not my own problems.
I often think about the pioneers here and their struggle and compare it to how easy I have it. And I think the lessons from the past are valuable.
Besmirched1
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To some joy and self healing. I have changed food about and have been feeling better, no lunch yet but was hungry for it. Picked what I thought was early, lol, maybe missed the THC clear mark by a week but she looked so nice. Oh well see what this brings, head much clearer and more driven sine CBD dom lowering, but use it during day and THC in morning for motivation and at night to sleep. Much appreciated advice, now to work on the partner. Ohhh and she agreed to do the reset protocol with me. I'm a woosy and would break if I knew she was smoking. Will post goings on when we start.
Here's some gratuitous photos of what we all love!
Here's some gratuitous photos of what we all love!
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Good morning everyone 
This post comes to you from a convention center filled with seniors for a gathering put on by the DA. The focus is safety and justice for seniors.
We’re a newly-legal state for medical cannabis but there’s not a rumble of any therapeutics in the entire list of vendors hawking their wares.
Guess who started the rounds by asking a justice official where I could find someone with information on cannabis therapeutics? I had to spell out “c-a-n-n-a-b-i-s” to an old member of the DA’s crew. I let him pull out his paper to write it down before I said “medical marijuana, but we prefer to call the plant by it’s actual name. “
God, I’m relentless.
This post comes to you from a convention center filled with seniors for a gathering put on by the DA. The focus is safety and justice for seniors.
We’re a newly-legal state for medical cannabis but there’s not a rumble of any therapeutics in the entire list of vendors hawking their wares.
Guess who started the rounds by asking a justice official where I could find someone with information on cannabis therapeutics?
I had to spell out “c-a-n-n-a-b-i-s” to an old member of the DA’s crew. I let him pull out his paper to write it down before I said “medical marijuana, but we prefer to call the plant by it’s actual name. “God, I’m relentless.
Tsk, picking on old people ...
It's amazing, though, how fast old folks fold, once they feel like it's "for their health".
It's amazing, though, how fast old folks fold, once they feel like it's "for their health".
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Tsk, picking on old people ...
It's amazing, though, how fast old folks fold, once they feel like it's "for their health".
Amen to that Graytail.
I can’t make the pain cream fast enough, and everyone I supply is fully aware that it’s illegal. These are deeply conservative, or were before I joined their group. Lol! Now they’re out there educating their friends and family about the medical benefits. Lol!