Sweetsue's First Grow - Stealthy Trio of Autos Under CFLs

Im terribly sorry to hear about your husbands illness. Im sure everything will work out exactly as its meant to. Take care of your man, but take care of you, too.

Thoughts and prayers for you both.
 
They're waiting on an operating room now. This is waaaaay too fast.
 
catching up in a great journal, only to read this at the end. I am so sorry to hear this Sue, I hope everything will work out in a way you guys can live and have peace with.
 
So sad and sorry sue. With you in spirit as best I can
 
The initial surgery went well. They took the foot past the ankle. After they get the infection under control they will take the leg halfway to the knee. Then it's a rehab center until he's ready to go home. The outpouring of love here is overwhelming. I thought open heart bypass was rough!
 
Antics said:
That's great news! Sue, grab a hot tea or a smoke.. you need to relax tonight after such a stressful day.

Just take a little time for yourself to mellow, you need it!
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What I need is sleep. Two nights of him fighting fever and nausea have me stretched to my limit. Unfortunately, with two monster bushes flowering in the corner closet I have nothing to smoke. Maybe I'll harvest a tiny popcorn bud. Just this once. Then again, maybe I'll just sleep. I'm so looking forward to the day when I have a pantry of harvested buds to pull from.
 
Sweetsue said:
You don't need to remove it PlanetJ. I'm tolerant of other's beliefs and you are free to express your views here along with everyone else. I personally have never believed in the healing power of crystals and stones, but I don't close the door on things we may not understand. There are things we cannot even imagine at play in our wonderful universe. If that stone we love so well wants to impart some healing influence in our lives I certainly won't be the one to say no.

It sounds like you had a rough go of having others views pressed upon you. That's unfortunate, and I'm glad you found a way to break free. I was raised within a fundamental Christian church, though thankfully by a loving mother with an open mind) so I can identify. Rad has deep beliefs that run older than we often look. I wouldn't discount those lightly. There's a difference in my mind between what he believes and superstition.

Our diversity is what makes us strong.

Thanks for the compliment. My hope in starting the journal was to attract interesting discourse as well as to chronicle the grow. I'm glad my plan is working. Welcome to my journal. :green_heart:
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Just to spread the peace and love :Love: I'll say that stones and crystals are not something that attracts me. I have no deep beliefs here.

I share Sue's sense of openness to possibility, mainly because I have experienced way too many things I don't believe in to think I know the extent of the universe. I also share PlantJ's skepticism. If your beliefs conflict with the fossil record or physics, it sucks to be wrong!

I excerpted from The Book of Stones because A) they have the best pictures and make it easy to find stone types, and B) I've been in the hospital rooms and apartments with multiple diabetic amputees. There is a huge power in hope (placebo effect) which is truly magical. I wouldn't ever take away anyone's magic. I was talking with my friend P. last night. He believes in unicorns, but he has also beat cancer 7 times in his last 30 years of HIV infection. I'll do my best to talk unicorns with the dude... because his unicorns and radiation and chemo together kill cancer. When I went to visit a bone cancer patient living with her mom in Texas because her cancer took her independence, I listened and tried to remember everything she had to say about stones moving around the vortexes of Sedona, Az. Because I was the first, and probably the last person to hear her tell that story.

Sorry to sound maudlin here, but it's NOT maudlin. One of the most courageous acts we can do is to face the abyss. Whether we win or lose, when we can face it with the love of others, we are heroes. I would prefer to die wearing my favorite stone rings because the magic I have invested in these little rocks protects me against everything in the world!
 
Sweetsue said:
What I need is sleep. Two nights of him fighting fever and nausea have me stretched to my limit. Unfortunately, with two monster bushes flowering in the corner closet I have nothing to smoke. Maybe I'll harvest a tiny popcorn bud. Just this once. Then again, maybe I'll just sleep. I'm so looking forward to the day when I have a pantry of harvested buds to pull from.
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And don't forget, a little smoke will help you fall asleep even faster if you have any trouble getting to that point. Depending on how you feel, it might be worth nabbing a little bud to help out.

Have a good night Sue, and I hope you have a good weekend!
 
Thank you so much Radogast, you just helped me understand why it is not always important to be right. Thank you a million. People said something like this often to me, but what made it click was this: "There is a huge power in hope (placebo effect) which is truly magical. I wouldn't ever take away anyone's magic."

I know the first to be true, to the degree where it is almost unbelievable. That immediately gives all the reasons needed not to go around stuffing reality in everybody's face for no other reason then it being reality.

Thank you!
 
i would like to add my 2bits if ok. i wanted to send some karma sue, but, i guess there is no such thing. i am not digging at anyone, just telling a story is all. i actually mostly if not completely agree with the comment that magic/call this whatever, is not real. the logical side of me, which is a very domineering side, agrees,, no god, no fairies, no ghosts, no magic, as spock would say, no illogicalness. he might not quite say that.

but quite a few years ago, i was sitting in our hottub late at night with the missus and out of the corner of my eye i saw a movement in the air over by some trees. now i know it was just some mist from the tub joining up with some light from a outside bulb nearby, least i figured out later what it was. but i noticed it that night and since then i have moved homes, traveled around a bunch of places, and i have seen 'her' , ( i get to decide that it's a her because it's my story) many times, in many different forms and i always comment to the wife that 'she' is near. always just the tiniest movement way off in the furthest corner of my eye.

like i said, i don't believe in ghosts,, but i have one
 
I'm sure everyone reading along is praying, including me.
 
Guys, you make me proud to be part of this community. We're in the room with him (my daughter and I - my rock), laughing together and planning how to adapt when he gets home and before he can get a prosthetic leg. We're going to be good. I can't say enough about the quality of his medical team. Because he does peritoneal dialysis he goes to one particular floor and because he has been here multiple times in the past year we are beloved by the staff.

Even in the worst of times, life is sweet indeed.

The thoughts and prayers and good karma are all greatly appreciated. Thank you all. :Love:
 
Sweetsue said:
The initial surgery went well. They took the foot past the ankle. After they get the infection under control they will take the leg halfway to the knee. Then it's a rehab center until he's ready to go home. The outpouring of love here is overwhelming. I thought open heart bypass was rough!
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My downstairs neighbor just went through the same thing a few months ago...well I don't know what the cause was because I don't want to intrude, but that's neither here or there. He has a prosthesis now and is already out and about and going back to work, gardening, lifting heavy objects. I'm impressed at least.

All that to say if Dale is the fighting type, and I'm sure he is, he will be back and up at it in no time. I have seen Physical Therapy do some amazing things in an unbelievably short time.

Every dark turn is just another opportunity to learn. You grew these great meds for a reason, and now you have more of a purpose for all this knowledge you have gained than ever before. We know you'll be busy, and would never ask you to neglect your husband when he is in need - but I hope you can still find solace in your garden and our community. Know we will be here for you whenever you need it.

Thank you for all you do, and if there is anything you need from us just let us know!:circle-of-love:
 
Darkgrow said:
:circle-of-love: I am glad that you are such a positive strong woman
:Love: to you and your family.
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Thank you for that Darkgrow. I don't know any other way.
 
Oh no, but sending all my positive vibes and love your way Sue, I'm sure Dale will pull through! Stay strong. :Love:
 
ClosedCircuit said:
My downstairs neighbor just went through the same thing a few months ago...well I don't know what the cause was because I don't want to intrude, but that's neither here or there. He has a prosthesis now and is already out and about and going back to work, gardening, lifting heavy objects. I'm impressed at least.

All that to say if Dale is the fighting type, and I'm sure he is, he will be back and up at it in no time. I have seen Physical Therapy do some amazing things in an unbelievably short time.

Every dark turn is just another opportunity to learn. You grew these great meds for a reason, and now you have more of a purpose for all this knowledge you have gained than ever before. We know you'll be busy, and would never ask you to neglect your husband when he is in need - but I hope you can still find solace in your garden and our community. Know we will be here for you whenever you need it.

Thank you for all you do, and if there is anything you need from us just let us know!:circle-of-love:
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Thank YOU ClosedCircuit. I have to say, the first thing I did when I came home was go straight to the girls. I only had three minutes until lights out but I needed to touch them. It was like a balm to come through the door to the apartment and be greeted by their communal perfume. :green_heart:

All of you have helped make a horrific day easier to bear. I adore each and every one of you. To feel encircled by your love and concern touched me more deeply than you can imagine.

It's been over five years since Dale could walk without pain. We were planning on trying to find a way to get a stair lift installed in our building. Tonight he realized that there won't be a need for it when he becomes equipped with a new lower leg and foot. I think he'll make it. I know it will be rough going for a while but in 34 years together we have never shied from a challenge. We aren't about to start now.

Thank you all. I can't say that enough. :circle-of-love:
 
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