I still have been known to do alittle over indulges. And if you hang around long enough,, you'll see. JK But I can get out there.. But I always feel if one feels they have a problem whatever works for them. I was raised in a heavy drinking family'. And me true to form. But whenever I've had to leave it alone, I've been lucky and was able to stop. I had to discharge acouple numbers, compliments of CDC, which meant if I peed 12 bottles clean, the 13th wood end your parole. Now I got into the heavier pain killers. I've either been under a doctors care,, or self-medicating since 86' Just about every day since. And the truth, it's easier to self-medicate, than jump thru all the hoops they have nowadays. A person who goes to see a doctor that really needs some help, can't get it. While I see some that haven't any real problems come home with a whole pharmacy. Makes it hard for the real chronic pain sufferers. I have to say I do have a decent doctor right now for my old ass aches and pains. It was funny,, the first year or so after I moved here to Oregon, here I got get my card right away,,, but I can' find a doctor that wood work with me while I was doing any illegal drugs..Yes marijuana is illegal. I use to be home trimming weed and get up and run to my appointment,, sitting waiting and see weed leafs stuck here and there. I know I stunk to all hell. But I'd pee clean,, took me awhile to find one, but that was that office's policies. But there are afew doctors willing to work with ya around here. It was alot harder when I had that internal pain pump full of morphine. But cool if you got afew demons under control. I do have an addictive personality myself,, and drinking wood be a hard one to deal with. Hell, the doctor I have now doesn't allow drinking. And these new tests can tell if you been drinking 5 days after you drink. I guess they don't look for alcohol but the enzymes that eat the alcohol. But I'm babbling;
acouple fast pic's. I'm really liking these auto,, damn I broke a main branch off one today taking them outta the greenhouse after the little rain we just got but here's afew;
I'm impressed with these.. Repeat. And I'm going to have afew of these new year for sure.
Well I'm going to have me a nightcap and hope all's gardens are doing great out there..
As for my problems one thing I always say and it is what it is. Don't trip,, all you'll do is skin your knees. But I kind of have to wonder if it's a good thing if they find primary cancer this time,,, or keep it hanging over my had for another 6 months? I had all them nodes cut out and only one outta 35 and any bad shit. Don't ask me what it all means, it's coined as 'Ghost Cancer'.
And Miss J's seems to be doing ok after her last surgery. She's doing the reconstructive part her problem after afew hic ups along the way. Man that was a trip,, we both got these shit diagnosed. And I know I've fallen behind on my journals. Slowly I'm catching up..
Well water the plants, me and I'm outta here till my next smoke break.. I do lie,, hell I never sleep at night,, especially come mid to end of Sept. The last week of Sept I set the old 12 gauge up with rock salt. And I think I need fresh salt and pepper oil shot put together. JK Not it's my own blend, just glad I've not had to use it lately. I peppered some kids poaching down at the bottoms once. I actually met them 3-4 years later at a family reuion,, they said thay shit burnt for almost 2 weeks after.. Oh well I'm babbling'
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