I'm fighting for my life, my future and my family.
Feel like 1980s mike Tyson is knocking me out on the first few secs.
Usually I try to be like mike lol
Took my last lil tiny sliver, the boss said "ah no! Lil smaller cause last nights was way smaller" barely a 1/20th prob
Had to visually see it under my tongue as there's hardly a taste at that size.
22 hours from now I'll be like ray in bed again.
I know it sounds week or an excuse when I say I've had RLS since five years old. Most only get there's at night while trying to rest
I get mine at the breakfast table eating my oats and bacon.
It's the absolute hardest thing for me to handle
Restless leg syndrome was undiagnosed until what 15-20 years ago? Drs used to look at me like I'm crazy.
Well I've smoked way more sour banana sherbert than usual today and already ate CCO three times
Of course I tack it on but it gets swalllowd eventually
See if tomorrow I can sleep from it
My attempt is benzo free
Kratom free
Alchohal free
Nothing but cannabis
Lately edibles have been helping and this weekend a 1:1 thc/cbd strain my good buddy recommended cronic Thunder comes down so soon enough I'll have some CCO with cbd's to test and report back on.
If I can kick easier and stay relapse free I will make it a life
mission to help all the opioid users have options to get and stay clean.
Those of you that have read
My rants know I suffer from huge amounts of daily physical pain, the side effects from any opioids after 15 outweighs the pain
Opposite of piece of mind hurts way worse and has to be worse to my kids
I'll get this as good as it can get and enjoy each and everyday ok blessed with to the best of my ability.
Lazarus13 pm me anytime
I'm hoping, praying and thinking of you and your similar struggle
We are taking chemicals made to stay on for life, let's show em we can live without and then others will follow, God willing
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