Thank you that is powerful sharing. If you are receptive to reiki and it helps I do know that reiki can do treatments through time and space. Aka at a distance. Permission and intention is super powerful stuff. I went to Dr Sulak because I was seeking the information for why Cannabis helped me. I think it was music to his ears. Such a powerful medication but unfortunately there has to be a balance of alternative and traditional medicines sometimes. I have a hard time knowing what was spiritual and what was mania during my experience with Dr Sulak. He reassured me it was both. I too am hesitant to meditate again. I did get into trances and some really amazing, impossible, and terrible things happened with what I consider to be side effects of mediation. I put in wordless music, and my body finds the beats, and I can float away in my mind. Hands get warm and pulse and then I focus on that. And then shit starts flowing lol well not out that end tho.Yes I have - and it was great. if I had the funds at the moment I’d try to have some regularly. Going out for appointments is not an easy escapade though - and house calls are expensive! Finding y way back to meditation will help... I’m on the way there...
My conditions are pretty specific, thanks to years of investigating them and healing... in concentric inward moving circles, if you know what i mean, that have brought things into more focus. I have strategies and techniques that work. And am developing new healing modalities all the time. TBH - I spent most of my adult life kind of ignoring a particular health condition by way of taking the ‘spritutal’ or ‘psychology’ path of refusing to believe in myself as a sick person. Unfortunately, and even though I’ve had a super healthy diet and lifestyle, this meant that a low level relapsing-remitting thing wasn’t, shall we say, respected and as I have now found out, the condition can involve deterioration if one doesn’t manage it accordingly - which I didn’t, I didn’t know. And I ended up rendered bedridden for a year and am effectively 90% housebound still, just by trying to live the life of a well person as if the force of the belief would be enough. So I’m in the process of shifting my ‘denial’ to a place that acknowledges the illness and promises to work from that knowledge and acceptance of it and therefore understanding how to do what is required to get my system out of crisis. That’s a very slow road I’m informed but I’m on it now and that’s what counts. And I’m learning to make peace with the ‘slow’ aspect (it really gives slow a new feeling - it’s a 2-3 year path to recovery, and not everyone gets back to their previous function - just improvement of various amounts). The manic state is in part a byproduct of an ANS that has no ‘off switch’, so relaxing and truly winding down is difficult for me (at a physiological level), while simultaneously I am quite exhausted, which adds to the manicness... and so it goes (throw some bipolar disorder at the systemic dysregulation and it makes for these manic times). Hence cannabis is an excellent medicine for me to get to know. I’ve self medicated with it for large parts of my life without really understanding what i was dong - just thought I loved weed and was happy and life was better when using it, which is all true. I’m learning a lot these days that helps me understand that use. I really appreciate the accessibility of Sulak’s work. The way he makes it available to everyone makes it clear he understands the gift of healing and is confident with his place in the world and the capacity of the universe to care for him by ensuring he is well looked after for the work he does - which means he can share his insights, freely. Oh, still rambling. I’d better sign off... take something sedative and try to go to sleep
I typed that hours ago and didn’t post it. I’m now in the middle of the first night after my first day of abstinence... no real issue having cravings or anything. But I’m not really sleeping. I fell asleep for a couple of hours about 130am I think. It’s 430 am now... I’m realising how much I’ve been relying on the sleep it gives me. The legal herbs aren’t really cutting it tonight!
Home run guys. Yup we can self heal with thought, absolutely!!Yeah - this ^^^ is about where I need to sit with it. There were many years of sensing something wasn’t ok and being told and helped and encouraged to change my thinking about it, that psychological factors were the root of the issues. So I dance a delicate line with the notion. The deliberate thinking and joyful practice is very effective at keeping me on the calm and slow path I need... and keeping me away from the despair about the life I have left behind and about all those years that may well have made me sicker where I worked on “not focusing on felling bad all the time” and practiced many mindfulness and deliberate thinking strategies - only to get progressively worse over time. I think there are limits to the practice - especially when the world is so full of abuse, trauma, injury and pollutants that are screwing with our systems. SOmetimes the physiological dysfunction and distress is so great that no amount of deliberate joy is going to shift that part. But it does, and always can, shift the atmospheric energy and thereby go a long way to doing what you say there (where I quoted).
It’s a matter of recognising the difference between embracing that practice and the statement that illness is “all in your head”. We know they’re different things, different thoughts, but they can, and often do, sound like the same thing. I am grateful that this platform gives me the opportunity to not be triggered by the suggestion...
It’s cellular - sometimes I think I need to get to “hovering-off-the-ground” meditative states and talk to my cells one at a time - that would take a long time wouldn’t it?But maybe not. Maybe I need to think time differently... maybe cellular time is different to “human world” time. I loved that about the Matrix movies - how they were the first to offer these other experiences of space and time. I think about it when i see the birds chasing each other through the forest - darting between trees - and how slow we must seem to them. What is the structure of their experience of time? In what way do my cells experience time? That’s be a nice departure thought for a meditation...
I think by abuse his information is in part as Amu touched on is respect for the process. Additionally I have watched the medical program get used and abused by people not seeking how to treat themselves medically and getting a free pass from the law. That frustrates me as it breaks down the framework of the program and blocks the correct information from getting to the people who need it. In my opinion.
I call that. High on life ? And maybe sharing energy.
When I first was drawn to cannabis therapeutics Cajun told me how few of the members were even interested in using cannabis medicinally. I chose to see it as they weren’t adequately educated, and so I set out to make the subject irrepressibly attractive to more.
I think we’ve done a good job of that in this neighborhood.
Brilliant Sue, just brilliant.If you hear all of their words as friendly it keeps you from reacting to words on a screen. Life is easier that way, and life is meant to be easy.
Brilliant Sue, just brilliant.
And there was a point today, following a meal after a 17-hr fasting period, when I felt like I was getting high! Whoa! Wasn't expecting that. I was expecting an "Oh I feel good" moment, but I got much more than that.
And there it is! That’s the high I was talking about
I’ve been getting bursts of energy that motivate me to get some small tasks I’ve been putting off done. I attribute that energy to the fasting program. 
