The Joy Of Growing - SweetSue Goes Perpetual

duggan said:
Sue....I feel so relieved for you and am so sorry for your loss of Dale. I hope that when I go...I have someone to sit by me like you have done for Dale. He passed knowing you were watching over him...he was at peace.It's all about you now Sue and the people who loved him.... Thinking of you Sue...:hugs:
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It was what he deserved Duggan. The man was my missing piece. I can't imagine you would be without someone like me at your passing Duggan. Can't imagine it at all. :Love:


kelticBlue said:
Sue, I cannot express. I am of Irish/American descent, my crazy family celebrates the end of life. Not sure why but we do. Not sure it helps but it is the only way I know. I wish all the best.
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Life and death go hand-in-hand. I feel the same way kelticBlue. Someday in about a month we're going to have a rip-roarin' family gathering. :hmmmm: We should coordinate a day of celebration here and all toke together. Dale would have liked that idea. :laughtwo:

Weaselcracker said:
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:Love: Ever standing at my side Weaselcracker. Thank you for watching over me. :Love:
 
I've never grown autos but I read a ton and, of course, am a soil geek of sorts. Here are some observations I've made. Young plants grow much faster in lean well drained soil with much less humus and less mineral content than older plants. Doc's kit is much kinder to babies than these super charged, throw in everything but the kitchen sink LOS concoctions. A starter soil like I use does even better than Doc's out of the gates.

If you think about it, the goal with autos is to get them as large as possible before they reach sexual maturity and begin to flower. I wish I'd ordered a few auto with my last seed order to try it out on, but I expect that the best course of action with autos would be starting them in small pots of baby food. Give them a light topdress at 15 days. Pot up into hefty LOS soil or kit soil around 21 days. Rock and roll!

At 15 days you want plants that look like this.

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Not like this.

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PeeJay said:
I've never grown autos but I read a ton and, of course, am a soil geek of sorts. Here are some observations I've made. Young plants grow much faster in lean well drained soil with much less humus and less mineral content than older plants. Doc's kit is much kinder to babies than these super charged, throw in everything but the kitchen sink LOS concoctions. A starter soil like I use does even better than Doc's out of the gates.

If you think about it, the goal with autos is to get them as large as possible before they reach sexual maturity and begin to flower. I wish I'd ordered a few auto with my last seed order to try it out on, but I expect that the best course of action with autos would be starting them in small pots of baby food. Give them a light topdress at 15 days. Pot up into hefty LOS soil or kit soil around 21 days. Rock and roll!

At 15 days you want plants that look like this.

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Not like this.

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You know PeeJay, when mine stalled I kept thinking "you should be talking to PeeJay". LOL! You and I need some serious conversations about this. I need a couple days to maneuver through bureaucratic minefields and I'll contact you. :Love:
 
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This is the baked bud I was carrying to celebrate his passing. I was surprised it was so large, but hey, we lived a large life.

I just ate that and it's going to seriously bake me. Hahaha! Just what the doctor ordered. :battingeyelashes:

edit This is my NOTM. A winner, hands down. :Love:
 
I didn't notice that Dale had left on his new journey when I posted Sue. I'd been thinking about the auto strategy for a few days and didn't read back before posting...

You will each miss the other, I'm sure. Hang in there Lady!
 
So much peace. Joy to overflowing. What a wicked and wonderful ride the past 35 years were. What wonders lie ahead? Such potential.

I can feel the love of the community flooding in my direction. Best. Family. Ever. :Love:
 
When I read the post in your "Spot" last night, I had a feeling this would be what I'd find today.
Sue, you personify "grace under fire". I hope you feel the light surrounding you. Grow straight and tall my friend. :circle-of-love:
 
You guys are so eloquent. :Love:
 
I promised myself that I'd have a leisurely breakfast in our favorite restaurant when this was over (they serve breakfast 24/7).

Life moves on. The bliss of daily life again. The waves of grief are mine to bear alone. I've understood that from the beginning. I know with absolute certainty that I'm ok.
 
:laughtwo: You have to love being part of such an expansive community where everyone feels so comfortable, no matter where you are. :Love:
 
SweetSue said:
I promised myself that I'd have a leisurely breakfast in our favorite restaurant when this was over (they serve breakfast 24/7).

Life moves on. The bliss of daily life again. The waves of grief are mine to bear alone. I've understood that from the beginning. I know with absolute certainty that I'm ok.
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My condolences go out to you. You're so strong and inspiring. When all is done and said with the paperwork, arrangements, etc, I'm sure we'd all love to join you for a rememberance toke. Just let us know when. :Love:
 
So sad today Sue. Peace and love
 
We all wish you strength, Sue - it'll be a rough week or so. :Namaste: May God bless you both. :Love:
 
Your attitude is exceptional Sue. If you need an ear to listen please know I am available, just send me a PM.

I lost my husband 3 years ago after four years of caretaking. We had almost 40 years of marriage that humor and wit kept together. He died at home too. I still hear his voice calling me from the living room at times. "Hey Lynn!" I felt guilty because I was so relieved that he had passed. It's natural to feel guilty. Friends were there for me as I know they are there for you, both online and physically.

Dale is gone from this plane of living and you will miss him. I am very sorry for your loss. Let your joy fill you with energy and love! I hope this transitioning goes as well as can be expected.

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survival mode

I think we stand a good chance.

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Grief is an ongoing thing. I can't take time out for it, I just have to learn to roll with it and survive. I will sleep (if that's possible for me, and recent history makes that suspect :laughtwo: ) and then tackle the paperwork. The garden will run on neglect for another day or two. I need to raise the lights a teeny bit, but that can wait until tomorrow.

Then it's time to get back to the joy of gardening. Big pots. Mmmmmm.

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Pigeons420 said:
And don't feel guilty about it for a second. It's what we all want for you :Love:
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One of our family mottos: "We don't do guilt here!" Hahaha! That made me laugh.

nivek said:
So sad today Sue. Peace and love
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Graytail said:
We all wish you strength, Sue - it'll be a rough week or so.
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I can see how this could be true. I cry easily. That has to be worth something in the end. Can't hold it in. I can see how that might be stressful with the wrong partner. Huh. I was luckier than I thought. :blushsmile:

Thank you all. Sleep won't be as easy as I thought. To be honest, pretty buzzed, so maybe just rest and get lost in music. :Love:
 
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