I actually listened to myself and went to bed then.
Slept straight through the night until 7:45.
Then I made it even better by making breakfast!! Maybe I can begin to follow the last part of the path through grief, into the healing phase. I know that phase is the longest, but I'm so ready to be past the panicky stages and begin to lay a solid ground for the future.
After I'm done here I'm hopping a bus to the nearest Goodwill store and wander through looking for useful items. I've been trying to fit this trip in for months now. Today's my day.
Ahhhh. A little bit of normal.
Daily Update: Perpetual Tent - Week 11, Day 2
I managed to leave the African Buzz go long enough to get a decent droop before her 1/4 Trans/Water drench today. Actually it was probably lighter than 1/4 Trans, mostly water. I was so proud of myself I tried to snap a photo before the drench revived her, but my camera is too full with screen shots I haven't cleared yet, so I missed that opportunity.
There'll be other times, I'm sure. I really need to clear the camera roll. All that info I keep snatching needs to be catalogued.
I used Graytail's method of setting up the drench in a 16 oz cup and slowly adding from above. I prefer this approach for these little pots. I water very slowly, more like a drip than a stream. I want it to permeate every bit of the soil. In the end she took almost every drop with just a smidge of runoff left.
She's at Day 68 now, and still actively pushing out new pistils.
Auto Destroyer (Day 69) Within days of harvest IMHO. Just a few pistils left to change. I can hear her panting to the finish line. Poor baby.
Cheese Candy, also at Day 69 and purring away.
Those two colas in the back are competing for dominance. Yeah, you go guys.
I'm not having much luck with germination in this tent.
I hear you BAR. I hear you. I'll be reviewing that tutorial you left on Ranger's journal later today and thinking deeply on it.
Environment holding stable.
One last glance.
I added a visor to the safety gear today.
I'm holding off on light reset until tomorrow. I need to get buzzed and think about it some more before I get in there and dismantle it all. "Measure twice, cut once" applies here too.
Tiny Closet
Afghani #1 & 3
Afghani #2 & Carnival.
The seedling cups got watered as needed. I'm trying to let them go just a bit longer before watering, and then watering as slowly as I can. I'm beginning to get a feel for the weight of a dry vs a wet cup. Having all those examples you guys posted earlier has helped emensely in getting the timing right. Thank you again.
That's all I got today. You all have a wonderful day and spread that joy around at every opportunity OK? I've been delving into the idea of gratitude and its relationship to Grace, something I could stand to reinforce in my life, and exploring the idea of embracing the grief instead of resisting it. It's been a thoughtful process and I believe I may have found my path through, at long last. Every once in a while I need that reminder of how connected we all are to the overreaching power that drives the universe. It always surprises me that I could have forgotten.
Sending waves of love guys.