sounds like way too many conditions for me...when i was younger the only rule that applied was 'can it get me in jail'....everything else is fair game
A fews beers and all my conditons went out the window!! LoL!!
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A fews beers and all my conditons went out the window!! LoL!!
I knew a guy that asked. "Does she have a pulse?" He died a few years back...
18 to 80 blind crippled and crazy! if you can't eat it f*ck it
sorry queen how did this start...well here anyway
sorry queen how did this start...well here anyway
18 to 80 blind crippled and crazy! if you can't eat it f*ck it
Sounds like you learned a lot at Couples Therapy!! Good Job!! LoL!!
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QueenTokelove
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Trust me. Men are dogs. I know. I am one. When I was younger and in my prime of horney. If it was female. Not related. Within 10 years of my current age. If becoming was not available unbecoming would do just fine! I was in like Flynn!!
I would agree with that statement, well use to, my bf is not a dog, took me awhile to be able to trust him due to dogs dogging me. But if messing with a female too young or jail bait will get you 10-20. So if put in that position, you have to consider is it worth the risk? Cause if caught and doing that time, well then you become eye candy to someone named Bubba or Big Worm..lol
Aww thanks OMM, I got love for you too. You're special to me and I love talking to you. I surely hope the mold was broken with me, could you imagine if I had a twin? It would be a hot mess for sure...lol
Fish, it's not suppose to cool down, lower 80s, til tomorrow, high for today is lower 90's. So, I am in the room. Since I am not using thermometers for grow yet, I have one in living room and the other in the bedroom. You can see quite the difference.
Beers? That happened with me when I use to drink gin or tequila.
And that is prolly someone who stayed at the doctors with a dripping d*ck. He also reminds me of a dog who humps on anyone's leg. Goddess forgive me for speaking ill on the dead
Well you certainly don't discriminate now do you? lol. Um, I am not sure who started it but it sure has gotten some interesting responses.
I guess I have held you all in suspense for long enough. Since the room is now cooler, I can write......
The bf finally came over, we're just chilling watching tv. K finally decided to go wash her ass but what she came down in was totally in appropriate. She comes down in a teddy, her excuse for coming down was to get something to drink out of the fridge. Yeah, right, I knew better. I had to go to the bathroom but didn't want to leave the room. Not because I didn't trust my boyfriend but because I knew she would be up to something while I was out the room. My bladder wasn't having it, so off I went. By the time I came back down she was already sitting on the couch, smiling. I knew what that meant, she had been flirting her ass off. Once she saw me coming down, she got up sashayed away. It didn't take long for my bf to tell me what went on. Like I said, she was trying to come on to him, offering to have sex with him. But she also added that I had all kinds of stds, of course I was pissed but my bf would not let me confront her.
And I didn't, the next day though I did talk to J about it. She said she was not surprised because K had done the same thing with her bf, Tommy. She even told me how K had even approached her baby's daddy. I was totally shocked, didn't get how J could even have K in her house. I didn't understand it then but now I do, it's because she's our sister. There are a million stories I could tell you about K and the grimy things she has done to me alone. I use to try to forgive her but there is only so many times I can turn the other cheek. Because after awhile you just look like a damn fool for putting up with it. I use to say I hate her but hate is such a strong word. So now I just say that I love her because she is my sister but I dislike her as a person. I mean we can be in the same room and be civil but that's about it.
I believe in karma and I think K's is just starting to catch up with her. She has had 3 strokes with in the last 3 months. Do I wish her dead, no but I don't have any sympathy for her either. The only reason I know about them is because a family member text my bf and told him. The rest of the family knows there isn't any love lost between us. I just can't be sympathetic to someone who has caused me so much pain. Am I wrong for this?
Next installment will be about J.....Stay tuned.
QT, I wanted to write something wise witty and funny, but that's some fucked up shit right there. Be well and safe, Happy gardening.
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QT, I wanted to write something wise witty and funny, but that's some fucked up shit right there. Be well and safe, Happy gardening.
That bitch would be on the floor before she hit the stairs. I would watch my back with her, she may try to set you up with your grow, Don't trust her long enough to take a piss!!
ok this is interesting...................................
no queen you are not rong for being cold to K, I to have a brother that is wasting oxagen, but this is your story and I like it so keep it going
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No worries, Graces. I live in a different state than K. She knows nothing of my grow, no one in my family does. But she would be the last person I would tell about it.
Hey Smokey, yeah it is fucked up isn't it? Like they say, too bad you can't pick your family. It is what it is, I just love them from afar.
Fish, so you can relate.....Chronic, I am just not getting your interest? Wow, what does a Queen have to do?
Well today is the day that my bf has to get surgery on his hernias. He was nervous about it but I tried to calm him down but this is his first surgery. I couldn't go with him but his mom and stepdad will bring him back home. And I will take care of him from there. Glad he's getting it done today because the hernias were getting worse. The plants are doing well, added more coco to the pots. I will give them some nutes tomorrow, the pots still feel heavy.
dont you worry queen you had me relating a while back in your tale and when you said army boots and for you and your BF sake I hope they fix him up right
and for you and your BF sake I hope they fix him up right
im like a little kid i need pictures sometimes lol
seriously tho the stories are interesting
i need to see some weed porn sometimes tho lol
seriously tho the stories are interesting
i need to see some weed porn sometimes tho lol
no your not in the wrong to have that kind of attitude towards K...im suprised you even have her anywhere near....i effectivly divorced my entire family when i was about 15. i do miss my siblings but life was so crap i needed a new one, apart from a 'im not dead, dont try to find me' i havnt spoken to my mother in nearly 20 years..only recently started tenuous contact with some of my lost siblings =/
sometimes you just have to make a stand. give any leeway and they can ruin your life. ok maybe you cant choose your family, but you can certainly tell them go get out of your life
sometimes you just have to make a stand. give any leeway and they can ruin your life. ok maybe you cant choose your family, but you can certainly tell them go get out of your life
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QueenTokelove
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im like a little kid i need pictures sometimes lol
seriously tho the stories are interesting
i need to see some weed porn sometimes tho lol
Hmm, where were you my first journal, all I did was post pics...lol..I did just post some pics a few days ago, did you see them? I will take some pics today but I may not be able to post them til tomorrow. I am taking care of my bf since he had surgery yesterday.
I don't have her anywhere near me even when I lived back home. My last apartment, J lived upstairs from me. K would come visit her but wouldn't even stop to say hello. The only way we talked was if we both were in J's apartment at the same time. But because of all the shit she has put me through was enough to make me leave. I have been gone now going on three years. I went back home once to visit since then. I keep my family at a distance, if they know anything, they read it on FB. But then K doesn't get on fb, J does but I have her blocked. Other family members would have to tell them. The only one I try to stay in contact with is my youngest sister who lives in Florida. Thankfully she hasn't had a lot of interaction with K but I have warned her about her. She does stay in contact with J.
Since I am on subject of family, let me start the introduction of J. She is the oldest and considered the matriarch of the family. Like I said before, all of us have lived with her at one point with the exception of my baby sister, N. Of all of us, she has had it the worst. From the things she has told me, she never really had much of a childhood when we were all together. She was the one who had to look after us when our mother was out hustling. And once we were placed in foster care, she had been molested by her foster family, not once but twice, two different families. And to top it off, it started when her own father molested her. And then her foster mother always seems to treat her like shit for some reason, prolly even til this day. That woman is just an evil spiteful old bitch.
Me and J always seemed to have gotten along for the most part. Yeah, we would have spats but eventually we would make up. She has never done all the spiteful things K has done. But she also did her damage. I had found out that I had a health issue, instead of showing me support, her and K go out their way to tell anyone and everyone who knew me. There were times when people or friends would stop me and tell me what my sisters said. What sisters do that kind of shit? Or sees a friend I have on FB and openly flirts with him when she knew that me and that person use to be involved? She asked me what I thought and when I told her she actually got mad at me, like I did something wrong. I would never date or be sexual with any man that any of my sisters dated. Then she tries to cover her ass by saying that they're just friends, yeah right! I made up my mind then that I needed to cut J loose. She was starting to pick up K's griminess. I sent her an email, told her how I felt, explained that I would always love her but that I was done. It just got to the point that I felt like all J and K did was betray me every chance they got. But the thing is no matter what they did to me, I never set out to get revenge.
Sounds like your mind was born into a body with connections your mind didnt belong with =/
i really hate sharing in a public place, but since we dont exactly meet up for tea and scones it will have to do
as far as the childhood thing goes i can more relate to J, i was the first born, the one that would provoke mum when she was drunk to ensure her fury came in my direction and not my little sisters. Any premature sexual awakenings i had could be laid squarely at my mothers feet. I vividly remember a conversation my mum had with a friend about my mums partner insisting on anal sex and her ramming a dildo up his butt and saying, see how you like it......what kind of 7-8 year old wouldnt be affected by that kind of chat!
if im ruthlessly honest about myself, because of the childhood i had im very desensitised to the horrors of this world and as silly as it sounds i would quite likely be a murderer, rapist or worse if it wasnt for the writings of the late david gemmel more specifically this book.
it was that book that gave me the beginings of my code of behaviour when it comes to ladies, law and standing up for what you believe in. now that im an adult, i rarely pay too much attention to the law, but i follow what i believe to be a strong sense of right and wrong.
i can see that somehow you seem to have inherited a sence of self worth and quality that is missing in your relatives gene pool...it would be intresting to know what made you different =)
i really hate sharing in a public place, but since we dont exactly meet up for tea and scones it will have to do
as far as the childhood thing goes i can more relate to J, i was the first born, the one that would provoke mum when she was drunk to ensure her fury came in my direction and not my little sisters. Any premature sexual awakenings i had could be laid squarely at my mothers feet. I vividly remember a conversation my mum had with a friend about my mums partner insisting on anal sex and her ramming a dildo up his butt and saying, see how you like it......what kind of 7-8 year old wouldnt be affected by that kind of chat!
if im ruthlessly honest about myself, because of the childhood i had im very desensitised to the horrors of this world and as silly as it sounds i would quite likely be a murderer, rapist or worse if it wasnt for the writings of the late david gemmel more specifically this book.
it was that book that gave me the beginings of my code of behaviour when it comes to ladies, law and standing up for what you believe in. now that im an adult, i rarely pay too much attention to the law, but i follow what i believe to be a strong sense of right and wrong.
i can see that somehow you seem to have inherited a sence of self worth and quality that is missing in your relatives gene pool...it would be intresting to know what made you different =)
oh my young lady I cant tell you sometimes how much we paralell each other, and sorry to have to say that for your sake. the only difference is like J I was the oldest, please go on I want to know more and the real reason I'am here wh
ere's the POT
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Not quite sure what you mean about the first part, care to break that down a little more for me. I know, do you have any messengers or fb? I have two people from here on my fb. I have thought about asking a few folks about connecting away from here but I didn't want anyone getting the wrong idea. Because I have really made some great friends here and would like to stay in touch other than on here. Maybe someone will get back to me on that.
I don't know, my sisters and I have the same mother different fathers. I have always been the type to learn from my mistakes the first time around with the exception of relationships. I have always tried to live as righteous as possible. I don't go out my way to harm anyone but if I see you trying to mess with my intelligence then that is a different story. I have a good heart but I keep it well hidden and guarded. I have a small circle of people that I trust.
It does seem to be quite uncanny, doesn't it? I am the next to the youngest in my tribe...lol..There is 12 year difference between me and my baby sister. My baby sister is lucky to be here, my mother got shot when she was pregnant with her. Both had died on the table, I think it had even made national news.
I do feel bad for J, I give her mad respect for being able to deal with all that. And I know she has her scars from it. For one, she doesn't have relationships with men. She's not whorish, she just prefers it to be a friends with benefits type of thing. Plus she is very independent, I can't even imagine her having a man live with her. And when I first became single, I learned how to be independent from watching her. I hate that we no longer speak but I just can't deal with more betrayal.
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Queen, I too had a hard time growing up, but it was from death not enviromental. My father died right in front of me at the age of 42, I was 15 at the time, my mother was out that Saturday morning picking up my sister's wedding dress for the next month. My sister went ahead with the wedding, she divorced 2 years later, married a cheater. Then my mother died in a car accident less then 5 years later, one month later I married my 1st husband, he died in motor cycle accident 5 years later, death has always been a part of my family, what it made me do is have to take care of myself, and be savvy about the people I let into my life, I was a heavy drinker until I found my husband Sam, we have been together 27 years, married 17 years, he's a grouch sometimes, it's from pain, but I don't let grouchy people get to me, I just laugh at it and say it's their way of coping and nothing to do with me. Take everything with a grain of salt. I also can tell from meeting someone the 1st time if I will allow in my life or as a friend, I don't allow people to leach off of me and drain me of my energy anymore. Your experiences have made you the person you are today, a
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Graces, you have experienced quite a bit of death. My parents, biological mother and adopted parents all died from cancer. But this happened while I was an adult. I agree that the pain I have gone through has molded me into the person I am today. I would even say it has made me a better person and a stronger person.
Moving on to the sprouts, they have gotten even bigger. I don't think the pics I take really do them any justice. I gave them some nutes today. They are growing so fast, I am wondering when would be the best time to start lst on them or should I wait for them to get a bit bigger. I can see their stems have gotten a little bit thicker from the wind blowing them. My bf also started his plants from bag seed I had been saving. He was excited to see their roots but it was kinda cute, he put the beans in the wrong way with the root exposed and the seed in the dirt. I had to laugh but he corrected it, now just waiting for them to come up. I didn't have a chance to take pics yesterday so I will try to get to it sometime today.
Moving on to the sprouts, they have gotten even bigger. I don't think the pics I take really do them any justice. I gave them some nutes today. They are growing so fast, I am wondering when would be the best time to start lst on them or should I wait for them to get a bit bigger. I can see their stems have gotten a little bit thicker from the wind blowing them. My bf also started his plants from bag seed I had been saving. He was excited to see their roots but it was kinda cute, he put the beans in the wrong way with the root exposed and the seed in the dirt. I had to laugh but he corrected it, now just waiting for them to come up. I didn't have a chance to take pics yesterday so I will try to get to it sometime today.