hey paul, great post and thank you for your support, living so far below the poverty line you think"damn i wish i had that much income!" is tough, but im doing it and somehow supporting spiffy and a youngster on it, key things are no car payments or any form of credit,we own everything we have outright,we save every penny till we have the $ needed for things,cupons,and thrift stores are our friend! lol ,we save alot of $ by using cannabis for our main medicine for everything,and all food is made from scratch, even things like cheese,bread,yogurt you name it we make it, spiffy is within a year of her bachelors in business healthcare admin,life wil get better, but a key thing is we learned its ok to be happy now,and not falling inro the social trap of "i'll be happy when i get that job/car//shoes/toy/house etc" , you can be happy right now, and still work on your goals,then you get happ(ier), it takes time to get past the consumerisim mindset we have had beat into our minds since conception,but in the end you have plenty of nice things you dont owe for, when we buy land it will be bare, we will live in a mobile and build our solar powered dream house with our hands
i doubt i will get the surgeries, i will lose the weight and allow my body to repair ,eating organic food we grew, from the chickens to the black pepper on the table, the led light will be part of that grand design,along with many others im sure, i mean to use mirrors to bring in the sun to my garden some of the time as well, i have binders full of blueprints i have drawn, ,ok well i think thats quite enough "me" in saras journal lol, but she may very well be part of the story/plan, thanks again for your words of support paul ,its stuff like that that makes 420mag an integral part of my life, we have the best ppl