Heirloom's A Little Bit Of Everything - 2016 Journal

Look after yourself mate, that's most important.. :passitleft:
 
I agree with Grizz 100%. Get your rest mate, we can all wait for an update!:sleep:
 
Feel better, Brother! :circle-of-love:
 
Good morning Heir....sorry to hear your not feeling too good. Get some rest , you've been thru so much. Thinking of you Heir!:Namaste::circle-of-love:
 
As I've been laying here in and out of sleep, I've been thinking about this years grow. How I wanted things to be vs. how they are. Missing so much has really altered the outcome. I've had to resign my self to the fact that like it or not, the die have been cast on all the outdoor plants. All I can do is learn the lessons I can learn and hope there are harvest-able flowers in the end. I'm disappointed already with this year.

What I'm saying I suppose is that I have stopped worrying about how to improve this year, because I can't, really. I can't do anything to make the plants accessible to me, or me to them. I feel like their not even mine, like I just consult on them. Might as well be another members plants I'm looking at.

I could just be in a sour mood. That happens from time to time.

Just talking...
 
Heirloom said:
As I've been laying here in and out of sleep, I've been thinking about this years grow. How I wanted things to be vs. how they are. Missing so much has really altered the outcome. I've had to resign my self to the fact that like it or not, the die have been cast on all the outdoor plants. All I can do is learn the lessons I can learn and hope there are harvest-able flowers in the end. I'm disappointed already with this year.

What I'm saying I suppose is that I have stopped worrying about how to improve this year, because I can't, really. I can't do anything to make the plants accessible to me, or me to them. I feel like their not even mine, like I just consult on them. Might as well be another members plants I'm looking at.

I could just be in a sour mood. That happens from time to time.

Just talking...
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Alright , that's it....they are your plants ...got it! I know how you must feel, not being able to get out there whenever you want...it's temporary, just keep telling yourself that OK...it's only temporary! Get some sleep Heir...later!:high-five:
 
Heirloom said:
As I've been laying here in and out of sleep, I've been thinking about this years grow. How I wanted things to be vs. how they are. Missing so much has really altered the outcome. I've had to resign my self to the fact that like it or not, the die have been cast on all the outdoor plants. All I can do is learn the lessons I can learn and hope there are harvest-able flowers in the end. I'm disappointed already with this year.

What I'm saying I suppose is that I have stopped worrying about how to improve this year, because I can't, really. I can't do anything to make the plants accessible to me, or me to them. I feel like their not even mine, like I just consult on them. Might as well be another members plants I'm looking at.

I could just be in a sour mood. That happens from time to time.

Just talking...
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Yeah, there'll be some rough patches for sure Baby. Sometimes it just sucks. Those were the times I wandered aimlessly through journals until they had me laughing over whatever. It never took long to find that humor around here. We're virtually surrounded by some of the happiest people I've ever met.

For right this minute, this is my best effort, :hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs:

Hugs, a healing force all their own.
 
I have a feeling things might get ugly out there. Mold and rot could be a real problem. Worms too since I won't be out there with eagle eyes looking them over.

I set the stage, fate and luck have played their parts so far, as has mother nature. Now I'm just watching the play unfold and hoping it ends well enough I don't have to go into eternal hiding from shame.

With the realization that I am merely a passenger in this ride, same as you for the most part, I can put it behind me, mentally, and figure out how to make this outdoor stuff work better, for me and the plants, next year.
 
I don't think there'd be any reason to hide in shame. Fate dealt you a surprisingly challenging hand this time out. You're doing a damned good job of playing that hand buckaroo. :hugs::hugs::hugs:
 
Heirloom said:
I have a feeling things might get ugly out there. Mold and rot could be a real problem. Worms too since I won't be out there with eagle eyes looking them over.

I set the stage, fate and luck have played their parts so far, as has mother nature. Now I'm just watching the play unfold and hoping it ends well enough I don't have to go into eternal hiding from shame.

With the realization that I am merely a passenger in this ride, same as you for the most part, I can put it behind me, mentally, and figure out how to make this outdoor stuff work better, for me and the plants, next year.
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I have a feeling that things could be great. Life goes on and so will yours.

or you could just embrace the suck. Feel better Heir.
 
Heirloom,
You are one tough guy!

Perhaps looking at this year's grow as one you need help with is best. You should start thinking about what you can change around so you can grow your plants next season. In addition to being tough, you are very ingenious.

Maybe you could find someone to mentor in exchange for helping feed a few pigs and digging some holes.

Best
 
Think of this season as ur first grow. Because in a very real sense it is ur first grow of ur new reality. And like any noob u well make mistakes but because u are really an experienced grower u will be able to use the off season to refine what needs to be done...put in place processes and thru trial and error u will get it done. Growing is part of u...a part that no one can touch.

Rest up and feel better. Sending love...hugs...and plenty of good smoke vibes.

Sent from my SAMSUNG-SGH-I537 using 420 Magazine Mobile App
 
Canyon said:
Heirloom,
You are one tough guy!

Perhaps looking at this year's grow as one you need help with is best. You should start thinking about what you can change around so you can grow your plants next season. In addition to being tough, you are very ingenious.

Maybe you could find someone to mentor in exchange for helping feed a few pigs and digging some holes.

Best
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Hey there Canyon,

I've been thinking about the animals, and what I am willing to take on in the future. As Lilred observed above, I am a noob all over again in some ways. I have the knowledge, but may have lost the will or desire. I'm inclined to drop the livestock and outsource it all instead. I will not be raising piglet litters, or milking a cow, or processing them into freezer goods when the time comes. I will probably keep a few chickens. I need to streamline, simplify and focus on fewer things.

As for mentoring, I have given that a lot of thought and could make it work. But I am a total recluse in the real world. I don't like people all up in my stuff, coming and going. Having people here is driving me a little nuts, even though I am thankful for the needed help (ponder that mental dilemma). It's not likely that aspect of me is ever going to change, as I have always viewed most others as incompetent and annoying.

As it is I am going to have to hire out certain tasks, building infrastructure and what not. That really stinks.

Please, dear readers, understand I don't mean that about you. I come here by choice, I'm not stuck here. With my personality, that says a lot.

:circle-of-love:
 
Lilred said:
Think of this season as ur first grow. Because in a very real sense it is ur first grow of ur new reality. And like any noob u well make mistakes but because u are really an experienced grower u will be able to use the off season to refine what needs to be done...put in place processes and thru trial and error u will get it done. Growing is part of u...a part that no one can touch.

Rest up and feel better. Sending love...hugs...and plenty of good smoke vibes.

Sent from my SAMSUNG-SGH-I537 using 420 Magazine Mobile App
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Hi Lilred,

In my reply to canyon I said I needed to simplify and focus on fewer things. Growing is one of the fewer things. You are right, it's part of me.

:thanks:
 
Heirloom said:
Hey there Canyon,

I've been thinking about the animals, and what I am willing to take on in the future. As Lilred observed above, I am a noob all over again in some ways. I have the knowledge, but may have lost the will or desire. I'm inclined to drop the livestock and outsource it all instead. I will not be raising piglet litters, or milking a cow, or processing them into freezer goods when the time comes. I will probably keep a few chickens. I need to streamline, simplify and focus on fewer things.

As for mentoring, I have given that a lot of thought and could make it work. But I am a total recluse in the real world. I don't like people all up in my stuff, coming and going. Having people here is driving me a little nuts, even though I am thankful for the needed help (ponder that mental dilemma). It's not likely that aspect of me is ever going to change, as I have always viewed most others as incompetent and annoying.

As it is I am going to have to hire out certain tasks, building infrastructure and what not. That really stinks.

Please, dear readers, understand I don't mean that about you. I come here by choice, I'm not stuck here. With my personality, that says a lot.

:circle-of-love:
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I laughed right out loud when I read this. I've just reached the point where I'm finally accepting that I live alone *sigh* Well, maybe I still have a ways to go there, but I've begun to grow fond of the fact that I have the space to myself, and I've become something of a recluse. I have to make myself get out there every day, just to keep from becoming the hermit Dale was. But I feel your frustration with the crowd that must be surrounding you these days.

It's only temporary. You'll be surprised, once you've become bionic, how adaptable you are, and it won't surprise me to see you taking on some of those chores you now consider outsourcing. We've been around you long enough to recognize the creative bent that's already thinking about modifications to prosthetics you haven't received yet.

New realities, new challenges to overcome. Life in action. You're sharing this journey is going to inspire someone else. Someone you don't know about yet.
 
SweetSue said:
It's only temporary. You'll be surprised, once you've become bionic, how adaptable you are, and it won't surprise me to see you taking on some of those chores you now consider outsourcing. We've been around you long enough to recognize the creative bent that's already thinking about modifications to prosthetics you haven't received yet.

New realities, new challenges to overcome. Life in action. You're sharing this journey is going to inspire someone else. Someone you don't know about yet.
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The hardest part will be dealing with the 'BA nana na na' noise every time you have to lift something...would drive me crazy :)
 
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