Growing Against Alzheimers - A Purely Organic Experience

It was very productive, I was out for 4 hours in one outing. High anxiety, but completely manageable. If I want to continue doing what I love, I have to face the world no matter what. I just want to be strong enough to hold up the mirror to those who need to see how they (doctors) are treating me. Thanks PW & ITS:thanks:
 
Kingjoe83 said:
Hey grow

Try to live to the fullest lady

That’s all we can do.
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That's how I got here...just kidding.

I assure you I have lived out 8 lives and I'm hanging on to the 9th life like it's a ball of string. You wouldn't believe it. That's why I'm writing a book cause it all makes sense now how this happened. I'm still trying to figure out the why.

But I totally get you KJ...point taken, I've got to get over my anxiety to create positive change too. But it's so hard to look people in the eyes. I have to remember to do that, I just prefer to disengage. I can call bullsh*t when I'm dealing with a doctor in the first minute we meet. So I feel they have jaded my perspective on people who say they want to "help" me.

So today, the fact that I left my house, went to a few appt's, saw the horses, that was living large in my eyes. I'm quite proud of myself today. Hope I feel this good tomorrow, when today is really all we have. Any thing else is a bonus.

:thanks:
 
And you say I'm deep geesh.


Finally just swallowing here.


You can love liek that you just need to go to your own happy place .

Seems like you went there today by the sounds of it. So when the day isn't going your way think back to today and you can live it all over again G ..

You know you hear your kind too often . But I Truly believe one can never feel enough want.

We as humans need to make each other better and you choose to devote it through oil . I want to help educate those who don't grasp it and help them get their foot in the door.

Like giving top fuel to an old beater ya know .
 
Kingjoe83 said:
And you say I’m deep geesh.


Finally just swallowing here.


You can love liek that you just need to go to your own happy place .

Seems like you went there today by the sounds of it. So when the day isn’t going your way think back to today and you can live it all over again G ..

You know you hear your kind too often . But I Truly believe one can never feel enough want.

We as humans need to make each other better and you choose to devote it through oil . I want to help educate those who don’t grasp it and help them get their foot in the door.

Like giving top fuel to an old beater ya know .
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Sooooo well said.:Namaste:

Especially about cars. We should be treating old beaters like they have performance engines that require top notch liquids and boosters. Then maybe they'll perform to their potential because they get lubed with OIL OIL OIL. Yah babay! I should think in car terms more often, just easier to understand how a body should perform like. The physiology of the human engine. Too deep again? Stop it brain!

hahahahaha
 
Grow2HealMe said:
Sooooo well said.:Namaste:

Especially about cars. We should be treating old beaters like they have performance engines that require top notch liquids and boosters. Then maybe they'll perform to their potential because they get lubed with OIL OIL OIL. Yah babay! I should think in car terms more often, just easier to understand how a body should perform like. The physiology of the human engine. Too deep again? Stop it brain!

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ROFL ...deep
 
I miss so much in a couple of days.

Your young ladies are Beutiful and healthy.
I could stare at them for hours!

Definitely Shows that your accomplishments are immense.

I love your witty poetry writings!

Poetry, music, animals and nature. All have a profound effect on our emotions.
People who embrace these gifts with enthusiasm and joy.
Are rewarded with the power of Healing.
YOU are on a good path!

I am so lucky to have a family. Who desired to work with animals in my absence. (Army life)

That every day. In the course of my healing.
I have the pleasure of taking care of the less fortunate ones.
Those whom were mistreated prior to there arrival.
The joy is knowing.
There final journey will be filled with love and respect.

You aught to keep a calendar of accomplishments to date.
You will be amazed at the reinforced progress that it will provide.
Especially on days you need a little extra convincing. That it's all worth it.....
 
Furcifer said:
I miss so much in a couple of days.

Your young ladies are Beutiful and healthy.
I could stare at them for hours!

Definitely Shows that your accomplishments are immense.

I love your witty poetry writings!

Poetry, music, animals and nature. All have a profound effect on our emotions.
People who embrace these gifts with enthusiasm and joy.
Are rewarded with the power of Healing.
YOU are on a good path!

I am so lucky to have a family. Who desired to work with animals in my absence. (Army life)

That every day. In the course of my healing.
I have the pleasure of taking care of the less fortunate ones.
Those whom were mistreated prior to there arrival.
The joy is knowing.
There final journey will be filled with love and respect.

You aught to keep a calendar of accomplishments to date.
You will be amazed at the reinforced progress that it will provide.
Especially on days you need a little extra convincing. That it's all worth it.....
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You must be my long lost brother...because someone printed me out a whole years worth of a calendar today so I could track my progress. I hope one day I can afford to buy one of the big horse calendars so I can use it as an agenda and always be looking at horses if I'm sad. Maybe they will go on sale after the new year. I know it's kinda big, but it's easier to see my appt's a month in advance. So yah, you totally predicted that like you were holding my hand the entire time. Thanks Brother...you just gave me shivers...I hugs you...:Love:
 
Grow2HealMe said:
Just got back from a day filled with health appointments and juggling priorities.

I do have something awesome to share. For the first time in 2 years, I remembered which key opens my house. I have always had stickers on my keys to try and remember which one to use. It was take me so long to juggle the keys in front of the door, that I just let my husband open the door. But he had groceries in his hand, I so spontaneously went and opened the door with the right key in hand.

We both walked through the door and my husband stopped me in the kitchen. He said, do you realize you just opened the door by yourself with the correct key? And I said, no, then I responded, OMG that is awesome, did some soccer goal GOAL dance moves with complete joy.

Something so easy that people can do everyday and I was unable to do it. Today I officially did that. This is a milestone to be celebrated. Too big a deal not to share with my 420 family.

It felt good to be alive today, rain on my face, horses breathing down my neck, literally, getting horse nudges for more carrots. I could feel the soft warm hair on his cheek. How lucky am I?

Have a groovy growing day. I'm off to visit your journals now. ;)
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I am really glad that you had such fine day.
I shared in your joy today.
I personally smoked a lot of dope.
So you could say. That in some small way.
I wrote the following for us.
Sometimes Karma is pronounced -
I have hope.

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It is times like these that I have clarity.
Same as me saying I have hope. I have sanity.
Hope that all is not lost. All is not dreary.
For a short while I see the world clearly.
I may even have a bit of vanity.

Suddenly I am so keenly aware.
The darkness no longer gives its scare.
The circle closes at the pole.
The stranger starts playing his role.
Instead of looking away I just stare.

The gift has seen fit to visit once more.
The stranger is no longer a danger.
Suddenly there is no more sorrow.
I no longer fear tomorrow.
What was invisible I now adore.

So the man of many has become one.
His mind no longer on the run.
Finally relishing in what he can see.
Amazed at what could possibly be.
Welcome to The Return of Me.

Be well friend.
 
Ditchweed242 said:
I am really glad that you had such fine day.
I shared in your joy today.
I personally smoked a lot of dope.
So you could say. That in some small way.
I wrote the following for us.
Sometimes Karma is pronounced -
I have hope.

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It is times like these that I have clarity.
Same as me saying I have hope. I have sanity.
Hope that all is not lost. All is not dreary.
For a short while I see the world clearly.
I may even have a bit of vanity.

Suddenly I am so keenly aware.
The darkness no longer gives its scare.
The circle closes at the pole.
The stranger starts playing his role.
Instead of looking away I just stare.

The gift has seen fit to visit once more.
The stranger is no longer a danger.
Suddenly there is no more sorrow.
I no longer fear tomorrow.
What was invisible I now adore.

So the man of many has become one.
His mind no longer on the run.
Finally relishing in what he can see.
Amazed at what could possibly be.
Welcome to The Return of Me.

Be well friend.
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WOOOOOOOOOW, soooo beautiful, honoured. Shivers and goosebumps. I hear your joy too, thank you for sharing it with me.
You seem like a really good guy, are you sure you're not a horse? hahahaha j/k Truly, honoured. It's a keeper. :Namaste:
 
Grow2HealMe said:
hahahahaha

Here's more deep for yah KJ...

"Sometimes I lose my TRAIN of thought because I have a one TRACK mind. "

Stop it brain, puns can be poisoness when overused! hahahaha Please stop me...
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You and me both grow .
 
Grow2HealMe said:
WOOOOOOOOOW, soooo beautiful, honoured. Shivers and goosebumps. I hear your joy too, thank you for sharing it with me.
You seem like a really good guy, are you sure you're not a horse? hahahaha j/k Truly, honoured. It's a keeper. :Namaste:
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Sorry. All human here. Dogs love me though. Lol.

I am so glad that you enjoyed the poem. I hoped that you would.
The words are flowing right now so I just had to share.
 
Does this kitchen scale say 1 pound 6 ounces? This is after a 3 day dark period and 4 Day cardboard dry. Gonna leave it out overnight then jar it up. I also got 10 ounces of trim. So yah, I'm gonna make more oil.

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Ditchweed242 said:
It probably is. The song is Revolution Earth by the B52's.
Sorry about that.
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What b52s wow there is a band I have not heard from . Good classics
 
Grow2HealMe said:
Does this kitchen scale say 1 pound 6 ounces? This is after a 3 day dark period and 4 Day cardboard dry. Gonna leave it out overnight then jar it up. I also got 10 ounces of trim. So yah, I'm gonna make more oil.

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Very impressive grow .
 
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