Omg so I’m in a fully reflective mood. It might be the fact I’ve been awake for 2 days… it might be the fact I’ve smoked a nice scoob… it might even be the Counting Crows’s singing my soul filling August and Everything After tunes. My go to reflection music. Literally gives me life.
Step out the front door like a ghost into the fog
Where no one notices the contrast of white on white
And in between the moon and you
The angels get a better view
Of the crumbling difference between wrong and right…
I’m thinking life can be hard, it can be awkward, it can be hurtful if we focus on our wrong doings, or the nasty things that have been done to us. You can’t control others, you can’t control what they say, their narrative, their agenda. You can only control how you respond to it.
I’ve just been reminded today how a sentence can change a friendship. How a sentence can hurt. So I’m reflecting on who I am. Who I want to be. Things I need to change, because life is about adapting, growing and changing. And I don’t do this for you. I do it for me. Because I want to be better. A better lover, mother, and friend. And if I focus on the negatives, and the wrong doings, all that will produce is bitterness. And bitter people age badly and I will not have that! Lol. I have a choice, Bog myself down in bullshit, or lean into my good. Because I have so much good stuff in my life, and in every area of my life, and that can’t be by accident. Whether that be here, or my family, or my friends or my workplace, I always end up keeping the exact people I need in my life, and my life is so full.
I joined this forum as a lone wolf, and sure I know there is a large portion of posters who don’t know or don’t like me, and that’s okay. But I’m reminded every time I log in that there are real people who get me. From all over the world. Who like my qualities. Who do right by me. And today I am grateful of that.
Omg enough of the fucking trama! Dial it back and get on with the grow girllllll! Lolllll
Sunday has started shaky, but with a change in attitude I slayed.
Walk
Yoga
Clean sheets
Swim
All that’s left is a bath, facemask, shower then hairwash, wine to be poured at 1745, then dinner. Bed by 1845 lol.
Sunday Summary
Nits are going to be a battle. It’s hot and dry here. Perfect nit weather. Aside from that there’s been no grow drama.
The Bloom Room
Lib is looking tired. She is starting to show signs of aging. I think her head will be next on the block. She has been a delight to grow. She’s actually a quadline. Sooooo unquadlined! Lolling!
Liberty Bee aka White Widow
Seed from The PNW Seed Fairy
Age: 118 Days
Flip Age: 65 Days
Days in Flower: 47
Little Lilly is looking like another weird auto. I’m not sure why my autos have been spazzing out. I’m wondering if my light is too high in brightness.
Lilly Bee aka Limited Edition Northern Lights X Big Bud Auto
SeedMan Seed from Sponsors SeedMan’s Seeds
Age: 66 Days
Days in Flower: 44
I got her age wrong last week lol. It’s hard to keep track sometimes! This plant is beautiful. Just beautiful. She is at my favourite stage of flower.
Tiger Bee aka Tropicanna Banana
Regular Clone
Age: 74 Days
Flip Age: 55 Days
Days in Flower: 12
The Veg Tent
I have carhooked the fuck outa this plant to get that CarCanopy and I’m so proud! I don’t need the veg room atm so I’m gonna veg her another week.
Luna Bee aka Mimosa X Orange Punch
Barney’s seed from Sponsors Barney’s Farm
Age: 57 Days
Smallest plant ever in frame. She’s so tiny and cute. I thought I’d Carhook her to keep her low, she responded by going full Beyoncé, dropping her arse and twerking. Lolling! I’m not sure how I’m training her yet. I still haven’t topped her. I have enough weed in jars for my boy that I can play around a bit. There was a poster called syenite I think his name was. And he used to create extraordinary looking plants.
Viola Bee aka Pineapple Chunk
Barney’s seed from Sponsors Barney’s Farm
Age: 19 Days
Babies still doing boring baby stuff.
Rose Bee aka White Widow
Monstercropped Clone
Age: 18 Days
Tilly Bee aka Strawberry Cheesecake Auto
Barney’s seed from Sponsors Barney’s Farm
Age: 12 Days
And lastly, still no signs of my seeds.
Thanks for quietly gazing with me, for playing with me, for engaging with me, for celebrating with me and for staying with me. You are my wolves. Xo
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