BioBomb brownies for the next week. I've already eaten one and a half. Frustration. I just returned from my yearly checkup and visit with my PCP. This delightful man is one of the best doctors I've met over the years, perfectly matched to his profession, a caring and thoughtful man who dabbles in his musical passion as part of a band. We've weathered the health storms together over the past 15 years, although he just became my own doctor. I didn't have medical coverage until Sept. of last year.
In our conversation he asked about my daughter, also his patient, so I described the almost miraculous response she's had with her cannabinoid therapy. He's pleased to hear this, and pleased that I'm doing well. So I encourage him to prepare his staff to be able to come at cannabinoid therapies with intelligence and training.......
You know where this is going, don't you?
He informed me that he has no plans to prescribe "that stuff" because he doesn't intend to invite "that element" into his practice. Too many people just wanting to get high.
*sigh* See? It still makes me cry, and it's been over an hour. I stood in the corner of the exam room while I waited for my flu shot and quietly cried for all the needless pain and suffering that will continue in the practice of this man whom I consider a good doctor.......
.....because the medical professionals are concerned that people just want to get high.
I'm still relatively new to this path. Sometimes I wish I could walk away from the battle. I won't. I'll become more resolved. That's what I told myself I was doing, crying in that lonely corner, building resolve.
Mostly I feel sad. I can't stay at sad. I'll work back to driven in a couple moments, but first I'll finish off that second brownie. This was mighty deep frustration. Those brownies have a gram each in them. I don't think I'll be sad much longer. Thoughtful yes, but not sad.
So is this closed? last post ? Well wishes to all who re take this journey sue has lived and we have shared.
May your future thread share all the warmth and grow karma in Peace love and Joy
now I am hungry for pie lol damn, that looked like a pro baked desert mmmhmmm
page 400 post #6000 kinda hot lol
I haven't made up my mind yet about the change, so if I do it I'll go with page 500. Assuming I don't miss it. Lol! 
Puttin myself on front street here but I myself suffer from severe depression.....when I was young I used herb more recreationally.....then due to career I had to stop for many years.....within that time frame I ended up takin FOUR pharm meds (psych meds) just to function on a daily basis.....once I started usin herb again BOOM....meds are cut in half and also the episodes of major depression are farther between episodes. Do I still have depression/anxiety...yes....I have PTSD......but as far as quality of life is concerned....Im much happier on a day to day basis with herb!
Shawnee.....I totally agree with your statement on the medical profession. Many Docs act like cannabis is a horrible alternative when 4 outta 10 people seen before & after you are probably prescribed opiods while cannabis doesnt harm your kidneys or liver or whatever. Ok.....sorry for takin your thread hostage sue. (I will gladly release 1 hostage in trade for a brownie!) Bwahahaha
Thank you, and thank you as well Shawnee. My daughter reminded me that this generation of doctors will be retiring and there's a different generation coming up behind them, many of whom are more open-minded. 
too bad the doctor has this mind, but maybe he will read more about it and maybe change his mind?
I didn't time that well Hab. I almost missed that it was page 400.
As for the silica, that's the first I've heard of it being used as a ph up. That wouldn't be to my advantage then, would it? My understanding is that I should anticipate a shortage of both calcium and magnesium in using a hempy. Have you found your experience to be contrary? Is there some way I could avoid this? Very wet behind the ears here.
I'll just watch and learn...
Habitual said:I think you should do exactly what you did last time with dda#2 Sue
That's sweet of you, but what I did last time was to panic. Lol! I'm shooting for a little more grace this time around the dance floor. I'm glad you're gonna be riding along Hab.
lovely
Supplementing silica. I have Agsil 16, which I use in all my LOS drenches. I'll get some Cal/mag next time I have excess funds, and just make due with the epsoms and milk until then.
lexort, thanks for the heads up on the calimagic. I just checked that out. I have access to a Prime account and I'm sure I can swing this right now, so I'll have it in a couple days. That'll make lots of difference, won't it? Make my life simpler. And thanks on the input on adding it first.
Can anyone tell me, will it matter at what point I'd be adding Agsil? I'd think at the end wouldn't be a problem. Just checking.
Thank you gentlemen. I don't know if I'll end up a hydro grower Tead. That's a lot of equipment I don't need to add to my belongings. Of course, I don't always intend to be here, do I?
Don't you ever apologize to me for speaking your mind here Scottay.
In the meantime we continue on as dedicated lab rats.
The brownies were a nice touch. Good cosmic timing. Street meds don't have the same flavors as home-grown, but the brownie mix overcame that deficiency and they were moist and fairly potent. That was a nice save of plant material that I was having a hard time using.
Time to check in on the girls. Be right back.
Let's see how the rest of the brood is doing. Starting with the clones from Carnival #2, that were potted up yesterday. 
I'm excited to try the White Widow in particular. It could be just the oil I need for a friend.
