The Joy Of Growing - SweetSue Goes Perpetual

I have type 1 diabetes and I too really have a hard time eating in the morning... My solution is to start my regimen about noon and that is my breakfast... then about 3 a snack.... about 6/7 dinner... then about 9/10 snack and I usually go to bed about midnight... so all I did was adjust my insulin to start my day at noon.... Is it ideal..:confused: NO! but most mornings I would literally be ill if I tried to eat so it works for me and my body has acclimated to that time schedule and I am able to control my sugar for the most part with this schedule... however... IMO it is a total pain in the ass to have to eat that often and regimented... it does however beat the alternative...:straightface:.. and being on a pump does free it up a bit...:circle-of-love:
 
This is very similar to what we did Dennise. On mornings we woke later or simply decided to get buzzed first we simply adjusted the schedule back. That regimentation drove me crazy too, all those years. I hate conformity. :laughtwo:
 
Pigeons420 said:
What do you normally do for breakfast? I have a problem eating before 12 and I really need to start watching what I eat. I find that I'm just not hungry in the mornings. Anyone else have this problem? If so what do you do about it?
Click to expand...

Oh, me too. I see others eating huge, awesome looking breakfasts, but I'm just not hungry before noon. Then, breakfast is over, but I want it then. Lol.
 
Sue...I'm the same ,totally, no hunger till 11 or so....iknow why too...it's the munchies at 10 pm that wrecks my appetite....What to do eh? :tokin:
 
duggan said:
Sue...I'm the same ,totally, no hunger till 11 or so....iknow why too...it's the munchies at 10 pm that wrecks my appetite....What to do eh? :tokin:
Click to expand...

Blame it on the kit produce Duggan. We know that's what does it, eh? :laughtwo:

Time for the Update. :battingeyelashes:
 
Daily Update:Perpetual Tent - Week 7

I've taken care of retrieving his possessions from the nursing home, finalized all the info for the death certificate, told my landlord I'll go back to taking care of the stairwells again (so filthy again :straightface:) and made arrangements to begin planning a family memorial (his brother and sister-in-law want to do this for me - thank God) . It's been a productive morning. This afternoon, Callanetics. :yahoo:

Now, however, we have the joy of gardening. Let's take a look.

Not much to do today, except fill the reservoirs and give the LOS pots their Thursday Aloe/coconut water drench - a half gallon dilution split between the pots.

(Brief pause to take a Buddha hit and admire the storm roaring up the river and coming right at me. Cool!)

First up, Auto Jock Horror x Auto Amnesia......

image27541.jpg


Auto Destroyer.......

image27542.jpg


And African Buzz. Sweet-looking little thing, isn't it? Lots of promise coming from this one.

image27543.jpg


To be honest, I'm a bit disappointed in how they look, but I can set this aside and just get them to harvest from here with the best advantages I can. With these, part of that is working that wet/dry cycle, so although the pots are ridiculously light for an LOS gardener, I am restraining my maternal urge to water them, because obviously they are not all that thirsty yet. Let's watch me get this right now.

Next cycle......... :straightface:

On to Cheese Candy. This one gives me the most pause. Way too lanky for my taste, but were going to ride it out and learn all I can from the experience. I have much to learn about LED light placement, about germinating, about just about everything. :laughtwo: Good thing learning excites me, and now I have no serious distractions to pull me away. After I get these initial few rough days behind me and hit that inevitable wall we all know is ahead of me, despite my current euphoria at finding freedom, I'm going to just explode in gardening joy.

This lanky beauty is now 44 days old.

image27544.jpg


image27545.jpg


There's evidence of bleaching on the leaves that were too close to the light until I made the change. Live and learn Girl. :blushsmile:

image27546.jpg


One last glance in before closing it up. *Lingering a few more moments - missed these guys, and unfortunately it shows.*

image27547.jpg


I'm happy with the readings. Forgot to check as soon as I opened the tent. Tomorrow. :laughtwo:

image27548.jpg


You already know my day is filled with joy. Let's see if you can match me. Hahaha! That's a tough challenge. I haven't felt this good in quite a looooong time. Pretty joyful here today. :laughtwo: :green_heart:

:Namaste:
 
Long Live Dale .
 
looking good there sue , them autos do throw out some lanky ones , have some my self , thankfully i picked the right one to spray with the colloidal silver its a nice hight ad more bushy , still no sign of balls yet though , starting to wonder if its going to work , i have back up plan though ive ordered some Tiresias Mist which is meant to give better results :)
 
Now for the main course - Callanetics. Tingly excited. How I've missed these. Every muscle in my body will be singing before I'm through. Maybe a free-form with Zen Garden music in the background. *groan*

Life just got so much sweeter.

It's a bit disconcerting to feel this good two days after my soulmate crossed over, but I keep thinking this was exactly what he had hoped for, and in fact had articulated more than once. He understood that I'd put Susan on hold in many ways to keep him alive as long as possible. It was always a regret he had, one I constantly battled. I couldn't have done it any other way. I know me well enough to know we made the right choices. His greatest wish was that I not pine away for him, as could be my tendency. I'm surprised at how easy it was to take his advice to honor his passing by getting back to living full out.

Now I get to find out who I became when I grew up. How odd. You'd think I'd know that at 61. Hmm.

Hush Girl. Callanetics. Now. :cheesygrinsmiley:
 
had to do that when my mom who was my best friend died. I decided to honor her by living harder and learning to love myself again. she would of wanted that from me so I try to give it to her
 
GhettoGro said:
Girls are looking good in the tent, Sue! Going to see Ray Wiley Hubbard in a few hours! Been waiting on this for years! Maybe get my rebel flag signed? lol Just joking on that one...
Click to expand...

Hey GG, I forgot that was coming up. You have a great time. The man is a hoot and a half! :rofl:
 
You guys can't hear that - the smooth, deep hum of happy muscles. That's the tone of joy. :cheesygrinsmiley:

Sane for another few days, thinner than I was this morning.

Three times a week, without fail. This was the very first time in over 27 years that it really didn't matter how long I took. And right now? There's nothing more pressing than this, right here. Yeah, I know how blessed I am. :Love:
 
SweetSue said:
Life just got so much sweeter.

It's a bit disconcerting to feel this good two days after my soulmate crossed over, but I keep thinking this was exactly what he had hoped for, and in fact had articulated more than once. He understood that I'd put Susan on hold in many ways to keep him alive as long as possible. It was always a regret he had, one I constantly battled. I couldn't have done it any other way. I know me well enough to know we made the right choices. His greatest wish was that I not pine away for him, as could be my tendency. I'm surprised at how easy it was to take his advice to honor his passing by getting back to living full out.

Now I get to find out who I became when I grew up. How odd. You'd think I'd know that at 61. Hmm.
Click to expand...

Sue, it's lovely to see you living in the moment for you....I was pretty worried about you toward the end..my parents are going through same...they are my storybook love story, like peanut butter and jelly and my mom is neglecting herself in a big way....but that's what women do as caregivers.....

Me, I am single and can't imagine the experience of your wonderment about what life is like without Dale...my mom can't remember a day without my dad....

To see your relief and for you to verbalize your feelings is like a breath of fresh air, very healthy IMO, and just highlights your strength of spirit and character...I am very very happy for you and to witness your thoughts as you go through this makes me cry....but I am a cryer regardless and it's A-okay with me when I am witness to something so spiritually beautiful....

. For Dale
 
Thank you Shawnee. That was eloquent. It's been cathartic for me to splash it here. It's helped me work through the difficult points quickly, my preferred method of dealing with life - head on.

This transition surprised me in how quickly it seems to have resolved itself. The last year was hell and Dale was so compromised I guess I started the transition earlier than I suspected. Certainly my daughter and I were aware for the past few months that he wasn't going to make it, but we ran on hope. I found out I had already learned to be home alone and be comfortable with it. I can remember mere months ago agonizing about coming home alone every evening. At some unnoticed point that changed. I haven't lived alone since college. It's only been two days and I'm already comfortably settling into being alone again.

I still can't imagine having no one to pour all this pent-up passion all over, so I'm certainly not closing any doors, but for now, I like that it's just me.

My daughter made the most interesting observation that she doesn't know how to relate to me yet without her father because we were always one. She's watching me evolve already and realized that she has no perspective of Susan without Dale, so she's interested in seeing who that person expresses herself as.

In truth I'm not so different, just more free of constraints. Which I guess is very different indeed. :cheesygrinsmiley:
 
Very interesting points, Sue, I have been meaning and wanting to ask how your daughter was doing, of course, what a huge loss for her...my parents have been married for 60 some years.....it's just incredible to witness, and tragically, I have never achieved anywhere near their level of success in the compatibility and relationship department....it's quite extraordinary, indeed...the 2 have always been a unit....

Sue, I think you are already expressing yourself exactly like you are and feel....isn't it great to be authentic....? Man, I love and revel in it 100%....you are like a flower.....you have been in veg mode for a long long time....time to get on 12/12, my darling......let's see your trajectory soar....

Also, think about it...you are a female grower in a new emancipated US of A...we are moving...not too old to rock and roll one last time...on our terms.....and we rock.....and get it done...we need to stay in touch....forge ahead in the new reality of possibilities...
 
Absolutely Shawnee. I feel this upwelling of power right under the surface I wasn't expecting. Once you reach a point where the opinions of others don't matter to your personal outlook anymore life gets more interesting, don't you think? My entire life moving forward from here is all possibility. Hmmm. Interesting thought.

Yeah, authenticity may be my middle name. Hahaha! Never learned to play any games. I was raised by a strong, independent woman to be stronger than she had to be. She wasn't one for games either. I always figured if I was always "me" I didn't need to try to remember who I was pretending to be when I was talking to you. Know what I mean? Anyway, I like me. I'm right comfortable in this skin I'm in. :cheesygrinsmiley:

Edit: I like that idea of having been in veg too long. Hahaha! I think my flowering stage may prove to be exciting indeed. A girl can dream, that's for sure. :laughtwo:
 
Back
Top Bottom