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Magnus8
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Re: Magnus8's - Coco Coir - Big Bud & Pineapple Express - First Grow Ever! - Grow Jou
I'll divulge my ulterior motives with this grow. It is primarily medical for me. I've been struggling with severe back pain from an injury caused 18 years ago. Over the years, my back has deteriorated, and over the years the drugs they've given me have gone up in strength. I'm now on 200 mcg/hr of Fentanyl every 2 days in patch form. This is twice the normal dosage. And it's not because I'm addicted and have asked for stronger doses because of an addiction. My dosage has creeped up to deal with the debilitating pain. I also have a prescription for Tylenol 4s, a huge bottle which is refilled every month. I use it for breakout pain, which happens a lot, even with the high dosage of Fentanyl.
I also suffer from a debilitating anxiety disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, which causes incredible amounts of anxiety to waft over me for no reason at all. I can just be sitting there, and then suddenly I can barely breath I'm so terrified. I have to crawl under the windows because I'm so afraid of anyone seeing me from outside. I cannot answer the phone because I'm so scared. I cannot open emails because I'm so terrified. All because of anxiety. So for that they give me a hefty dosage of a new antipsychotic which I don't even know the name of right now. And 4 mg of Ativan a day for that.
Then there's the bloody sleeping meds that I've been on. The current one leaves me feeling so damned dead in the morning that I cannot even function.
And on weed? The back pain is manageable. The anxiety is manageable (as long as I don't get a strain that causes extra anxiety!!!). And I sleep like a baby. No dead feeling in the morning.
I've finally convinced one of my doctors (the doctor from the pain clinic) to let me try weed to manage the back pain. My first appointment with the "drug doctor" (as I term him) is 25 Jan 17. He'll give me the paper that will allow me to purchase weed from the dispensary. Problem is, with all these disorders and pain problems and sleeping disorders, I've been unable to work for years, and I live on government disability. Which doesn't give you much money to buy weed -- even from the dispensaries.
Hence, my grow.
I started this grow illegally. I don't yet have permission from the government to grow my own weed, but I've got the application already filled out. As soon as I go to the doctor on the 25th, I'll be sending in my application. There should be no reason not to allow me to grow pot legally. I have no prior convictions. I'm squeaky clean, as it were.
In Canada, the amount of weed you are allowed to grow indoors depends upon how much you have been prescribed to use on a daily basis. In other words, if I get prescribed 1 gram per day, then I'll be allowed to grow 5 plants indoors (or 2 outdoors). With a prescription for 2 grams per day, you are allowed to grow 10 plants indoors (4 outdoors). Get the pattern? I expect I'll be given a prescription for about 3 grams per day. I don't think more.
So there you have it. My own private Idaho. Or my own private nightmare. Trying to gather the money to grow indoors has been a real hurdle for my wife and I. Like I said, we have very little money (less than $2000 per month between us), so gathering the supplies, the materials, the nutrients, etc has been a real struggle.
I don't know why I'm telling you all this. Maybe because I just feel the need to come clean, as it were. Maybe it's just a need to be honest about where I'm coming from. For sure, you can bet that it's not an attempt to make you feel sorry for me(us). I'm just not like that.
I'll divulge my ulterior motives with this grow. It is primarily medical for me. I've been struggling with severe back pain from an injury caused 18 years ago. Over the years, my back has deteriorated, and over the years the drugs they've given me have gone up in strength. I'm now on 200 mcg/hr of Fentanyl every 2 days in patch form. This is twice the normal dosage. And it's not because I'm addicted and have asked for stronger doses because of an addiction. My dosage has creeped up to deal with the debilitating pain. I also have a prescription for Tylenol 4s, a huge bottle which is refilled every month. I use it for breakout pain, which happens a lot, even with the high dosage of Fentanyl.
I also suffer from a debilitating anxiety disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, which causes incredible amounts of anxiety to waft over me for no reason at all. I can just be sitting there, and then suddenly I can barely breath I'm so terrified. I have to crawl under the windows because I'm so afraid of anyone seeing me from outside. I cannot answer the phone because I'm so scared. I cannot open emails because I'm so terrified. All because of anxiety. So for that they give me a hefty dosage of a new antipsychotic which I don't even know the name of right now. And 4 mg of Ativan a day for that.
Then there's the bloody sleeping meds that I've been on. The current one leaves me feeling so damned dead in the morning that I cannot even function.
And on weed? The back pain is manageable. The anxiety is manageable (as long as I don't get a strain that causes extra anxiety!!!). And I sleep like a baby. No dead feeling in the morning.
I've finally convinced one of my doctors (the doctor from the pain clinic) to let me try weed to manage the back pain. My first appointment with the "drug doctor" (as I term him) is 25 Jan 17. He'll give me the paper that will allow me to purchase weed from the dispensary. Problem is, with all these disorders and pain problems and sleeping disorders, I've been unable to work for years, and I live on government disability. Which doesn't give you much money to buy weed -- even from the dispensaries.
Hence, my grow.
I started this grow illegally. I don't yet have permission from the government to grow my own weed, but I've got the application already filled out. As soon as I go to the doctor on the 25th, I'll be sending in my application. There should be no reason not to allow me to grow pot legally. I have no prior convictions. I'm squeaky clean, as it were.
In Canada, the amount of weed you are allowed to grow indoors depends upon how much you have been prescribed to use on a daily basis. In other words, if I get prescribed 1 gram per day, then I'll be allowed to grow 5 plants indoors (or 2 outdoors). With a prescription for 2 grams per day, you are allowed to grow 10 plants indoors (4 outdoors). Get the pattern? I expect I'll be given a prescription for about 3 grams per day. I don't think more.
So there you have it. My own private Idaho. Or my own private nightmare. Trying to gather the money to grow indoors has been a real hurdle for my wife and I. Like I said, we have very little money (less than $2000 per month between us), so gathering the supplies, the materials, the nutrients, etc has been a real struggle.
I don't know why I'm telling you all this. Maybe because I just feel the need to come clean, as it were. Maybe it's just a need to be honest about where I'm coming from. For sure, you can bet that it's not an attempt to make you feel sorry for me(us). I'm just not like that.