Lady G Seedsman Sponsored Journal, Medical Vitamin Weed

[Lady G2HM]

This one will do just fine. I'd let it stabilize for a couple weeks before up-canning to your 3 gallon. Those roots will love you for a little rest. You be careful girl.

* @MagicJim - I hope so, their root structure was damaged for sure. I will be more careful, got a few brain cells to spare? hahahaha

 

[Lady G2HM]

Yes I also forgot to mention that - great heep of info/knowledge for the old ticker

*Yah it was a bit much, but so interesting nonetheless...

G-Land!

“G” for “Great groovin’ greenery Catwoman! Them G Lady’s is got some growin’ goin’ on!”

(There’s Greenthunder too!)

Oh, and @newty , I am about to start an indoor run. Just one plant. Been slowly building a new light which is nearly finished. I’m pretty much building it from my bed while I try to convalesce a little. The frame is constructed and I’m drilling the holes to attach the QB boards this week. So I’m about a week or 2 away from seed drop

*Are you even going to be able to handle another thread? Cool about your new space. Cool names too.

good morning Milady, maby I should try and get out more as I don't do the social thing since I stopped drinking, but everyone drinks and that's a slippery slope to land on again.

But the girls are looking well and the coffee Ryder looks lovely....
Candida for the win.....

*I'm sober too, the friends that remain for your sobriety are the keepers.

Yippee...

*

I hope you return to your normal self quickly!

* Thanks so much @Pennywise

*AWWWWWWW Thank you for dropping by @Amadeus Forzin

Hey lady G

Thought I’d share first my Candida girl healing stones placed,let the plant take off is what im hoping for. Hey do you know if they have a good stretch come preflower?

Girls is doing okay about a foot and half in height maybe two with the two mains that I topped . What do you think . Going to look at a product called seven dust to help steer critters who want to eat my fans can’t blame them yummy


Top of the day to ya lady keep that chin up

*She is a glimmer of hope isn't she. Thank you for posting her in my journal, I will never forget now.

Hiya Lady G2, friends,

I didn't know you had another thread going. I know, not very observant. Sorry. I wanted to express a huge sigh of relief that your biopsy was benign. You don't need more medical problems! Your ladies are looking great. I've noticed cbd strains really look and grow the best, then indica's look next best (in mass) then the sativa's. Love the symmetry of the indica's.

@Kingjoe83 your forest floor looks just like mine. Nettles, and violets abound. Underneath is 75% worm castings. Super soil. Should make a happy winter stash!

Cya later, Lady G2, friends,

*Heeeeey, so great to always hear from you. Phew, how relieved am I? But I don't like missing the time in my journals for health reasons. Thanks for the kudo's I try my best. Wish we could see some pics of your plants?

Hoping you recover quickly!

* So tough PW, so tough. I know enough not to be online when I'm triggered, at least I'm smart that way.

Yeah the floor is putting along slowly must not have enough microbes in medium im guessing. next year it will have more good stuff in it since soil is being cooked now? It’s all a learning hub to me

What’s s fella to do right ?

*I think you're doing your best and that Candida is beautiful!

They're doing fine from what I've seen!

*I think they look great too. I like how you always bounce back from your challenges.

No nightmares no.. here is an idea next time your scared face it and embrace the fear challenge your demons back. Show them they are not allowed to rule your heart.

In healing prayers lady

* I do and I will, protect my heart from THEM.

Whenever I have a nightmare, my subconcious realized I shouldn't be afraid, and mentally decide ti wake up. It's almost immediate. Hope you don't get them often. How about thinking of horses while falling asleep. Hopefully, that wouldn't trigger a nightmarish night!

* I think the PTSD is so overwhelming that the Disease take's over when I'm at my weakest. I need a really strong indica to help me sleep at night. We'll see how that goes, I've got a few indica's coming up with Seedsman Genetics. I got to write about how I was feeling during the headaches, so that people can understand what I go through during that time.

*It's difficult to write when I'm down so it should be interesting to read what I have already forgotten by now. Occupational Hazard ... lol.

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Thanks for all the lovely messages, I do appreciate them!

 

[Pennywise]

When I do my Gelato 33's I'll make a few fem seeds. That would be a great sleep med, Bubba Kush is another good sleep med.

 

[Lady G2HM]

Wikked cool, I just have so much trouble going to sleep because my brain just won't stop. Man am I ever looking forward to any dry meds at this point. I'd even smoke a sativa at this point. hahahaha And that Sweet Coffee Ryder was super yummy!!!

 

[Pennywise]

Same here, my brain doesn't shut down when I'm tired. A nice indica really does help.

 

[Lady G2HM]

Okay, i think it's just that I don't have any dry meds so that would help me relax too.

 

[Derbybud]

Sorry to here about your misfortune with your plants. I think the one will bounce back much stronger than it was. Hope you get to feeling better.

 

[KingJoe83]

Hey always think lady it could be worse til it really can’t hey any worse to ones fears

 

[Pennywise]

Need to get a nice stash started guys, my Starkiller is the one that give me enough bud to last until the following harvest.

 

[Lady G2HM]

Sorry to here about your misfortune with your plants. I think the one will bounce back much stronger than it was. Hope you get to feeling better.

* Thank you so much DB, I was sooo close to having meds. These plants are pretty resilient so I will try not to project my sadness on to them. I'm sure to brighten up soon DB, I am hoping for good news any day now. I'll take anything good and amazing right now.

Need to get a nice stash started guys, my Starkiller is the one that give me enough bud to last until the following harvest.

*Do you know that I have YET to build a stash, been living bud to bud after all this time.

Hey always think lady it could be worse til it really can’t hey any worse to ones fears

*You're right KJ, it could always get worse, it's just the darkness in my head when the sun is shining bright.

 

[Pennywise]

You'll get there.

 

[Bode]

Hiya Lady G2,

So sorry to hear about what you've been going through! Wish'd I could take those dreams away from you! Is there anything I can do? I thought about sending a couple oz, but my luck is that I'd get caught. Is there anything as a group we can do?

 

[Lady G2HM]

Oh no shipments of bud, it's too much of a risk, it's not worth it. I just need support to help me get through it. It's my own fault. But thank you soooo much. I still have oil and friends, what more can I ask for? You're very sweet Mr. Bode.

 

[Lady G2HM]

But did you notice as soon as the World Cup games are almost over, my nightmares came back. I didn't have any while I was watching footie every day. I know it's related. I know if I can be surrounded by horses, soccer and plants, I could reverse this disease. But life happens, money stresses, and they trigger me. So yah, I just have to get through it every day. One bud at a time.

 

[Amy Gardner]

G You’re doing a really great job dealing with a really really difficult set of situations I can’t imagine for a second what some of it is like. But I believe every word you share about it and send you every compassionate sparkle I have.

The nightmares and the busy brain thing I can totally relate to. In complexPTSD that busy brain is driven on at least 2levels, one is the psychological protection mechanism that wants to protect you from the dreams (and whatever other trauma may have interrupted your sleep in the past)... so it’s executing some kind of ‘don’t go to sleep’ function. Another driver is the damage brought to the ANS as, possibly - very likely - as result of trauma, and this is particularly the case with repeated trauma in childhood, it actually inhibits certain developments in the autonomic nervous system and effectively kills off the off switch! That’s one of the reasons that meditation only seems to get one so far, in terms of help (at least in the short term, meditation can do a lot but you have to do a friggin’ lot of it if the issue is old). Both are a debilitating form of hyper-vigilance: not something one can easily overcome

I’m wracking my brain for things that help me that might be relevant (and wouldn’t be condescendingly telling you things you already know ) and I keep coming back to our beautiful plant, hey.

Someone drive an indica oz over to G please!!! I would if I could my G.

Your Candida, by the way, is gonna rock the bounce back! Just like you. I actually think it’s good if the plants get a good handle on your challenges while they’re growing. They will get to know you in particular and be tuned to what you need, so don’t be afraid of sharing your sadness with them (or anything else), they will embrace you with loving kindness when their time comes.

- CHEST BUMP...hahahaha stop it brain, completely inappropriate!

I’m in! Fuggit G! If it cheers you up... ouch! Oh now I’m exhausted ... I’ll just lie down here awhile...

adjust, adapt and move on.

add ‘accept’ at the front there I reckon. I find if I haven’t accepted (or at least thought about acceptance) a challenge or setback, the adjusting adapting can be much more difficult (I think you do accept, I read it in your posts - just suggesting you add it to the mantra )

keeping all my pots to 3 gallon now because anything bigger is so hard for me to handle physically.

Wise woman - nice adjustment

Hiya Lady G2,

Is there anything as a group we can do?

Someone must know someone in the area that can meet up with G... and pass on a survival pack...
Or... perhaps we could take a collection. Hmmm a private conversation might be in order there

 

[Lady G2HM]

Response to @Amy Gardner marked with an *asterix

"G You’re doing a really great job dealing with a really really difficult set of situations I can’t imagine for a second what some of it is like. But I believe every word you share about it and send you every compassionate sparkle I have."

* I really appreciated the information you posted here especially when it involves sparkles and stars. So much happening all at once, it's a whole lot to deal with, not gonna lie, I'm overwhelmed, but positive & alive, that's what counts. Thank you for hugging me with your words. I really needed that.

The nightmares and the busy brain thing I can totally relate to. In complexPTSD that busy brain is driven on at least 2levels, one is the psychological protection mechanism that wants to protect you from the dreams (and whatever other trauma may have interrupted your sleep in the past)... so it’s executing some kind of ‘don’t go to sleep’ function.

* YES YES YES, half of my trauma happened at night, the worst kind, so my mind goes into survival mode at night. I can't shut it off. I have tried everything and it's failed, buuut, my hubby does help me a lot, knowing I'm beside him gives me a sense of protection. Also, Cannabis, is the only other thing that helps with falling asleep. I think this is why I was such a good dj cause I don't like sleeping at night. Daytime is way safer to sleep but that's not how the world thinks and it's too loud to sleep during the day. I knew it had to relate to my PTSD is some way.

Another driver is the damage brought to the ANS as, possibly - very likely - as result of trauma, and this is particularly the case with repeated trauma in childhood, it actually inhibits certain developments in the autonomic nervous system and effectively kills off the off switch! That’s one of the reasons that meditation only seems to get one so far, in terms of help (at least in the short term, meditation can do a lot but you have to do a friggin’ lot of it if the issue is old). Both are a debilitating form of hyper-vigilance: not something one can easily overcome.

*And there we have it. I knew my night terrors came from what's happened to me, but it's always so much more interesting when I can assign a scientific term to it so I can understand that it's not my fault because I have done everything I can to move on. I do love meditation and is why I think music helps me so much. Especially animals, a half day with the horses and I want to come home and sleep. Come to think of it, if I'm doing something I really enjoy everyday like watching world cup, it tires me out enough where I can fall asleep soundly. It's like it takes me back to before all the bad stuff happened.

I’m wracking my brain for things that help me that might be relevant (and wouldn’t be condescendingly telling you things you already know ) and I keep coming back to our beautiful plant, hey.

*If it weren't for Cannabis I wouldn't be alive, it helps me in so many ways. If my brain would just stop sabotaging me I could get ahead, but those nightmares, fog and headaches are so powerful enough to cause accidents in my garden and I don't even drive either. Hence why I'm trying to walk more.

Someone drive an indica oz over to G please!!! I would if I could my G.

*Awwwwwww, that's sweet, the thought of you doing that was very kind Amy .

Your Candida, by the way, is gonna rock the bounce back! Just like you. I actually think it’s good if the plants get a good handle on your challenges while they’re growing. They will get to know you in particular and be tuned to what you need, so don’t be afraid of sharing your sadness with them (or anything else), they will embrace you with loving kindness when their time comes.

*I hope she does bounce back, she took a tough fall. Very much like me, but I got back up, tears and all. That is why I'm not hopeless because my plants give me something to live for. Your words are so nice to me, thank you. She certainly is so beautiful.


I’m in! Fuggit G! If it cheers you up... ouch! Oh now I’m exhausted ... I’ll just lie down here awhile...

*HAHAHAHAHA so funny, it makes me laugh every time, I can't be sad when that happens. When we were girls on the team we would do stupid stuff like that all the time and it still makes me laugh. I'm still a girl at heart.

add ‘accept’ at the front there I reckon. I find if I haven’t accepted (or at least thought about acceptance) a challenge or setback, the adjusting adapting can be much more difficult (I think you do accept, I read it in your posts - just suggesting you add it to the mantra )

Wise woman - nice adjustment

*Actually I like that, it's logical. "Accept, adjust, adapt and move on." You know what's ironic, is that I think I can still adapt and adjust without accepting, if that is even possible, could just be my broken logic again. I still feel somewhat in denial of my diagnosis because why me? Haven't I been through enough? I'm still wrestling with the why, but that's just my brain playing tricks on me. I think I accepted this when I finally started saying the word Dementia in my journals. Even though I hate that word, it's like a dirty word to me still. I wish I could change the term altogether to like Benjamin Button disease or Changeling Challenges or Brainiacs disorders.


Someone must know someone in the area that can meet up with G... and pass on a survival pack...
Or... perhaps we could take a collection. Hmmm a private conversation might be in order there



*This was an amazing message to read, your logic is well presented here when it's not so obvious if not explained in detail. You know this site, you guys and gals are helping me save my life. It's just so incredible to read. I just don't know what to say. Thank you for being my 420 family and believing in me.

 

[MaddHacker]

Sometimes my friend, failure isnt as disappointing as not trying at all.. Success was once described to me as the last time you fail.. . Right?? / Green days Sis...

 

[Smeegol]

Wow......... both of y'all ladies......... and everyone else whose rallying.........

 

[Smeegol]

1 place on earth where comfort and solace is in abundance, right here folks.

 

[Mars Hydro]

I also like it "Accept, adjust, adapt and move on."