Invisible Disabilities

I take citalopram hydrobromide and bupropion hcl - generics from the VA hospital. Between those two and cholesterol medicine, my sex drive has almost disappeared. :( I have cut my dosage of Bupropion in half and would love to get off it competely. At one time I was taking 26 pills a day, now I'm down to a half dozen. I have therapy and a psychiatrist appointment on the 25th. A new psychiatrist this time and will ask to be reduced more. I am going slow as I don't want to fall into another depression. Living with depression, anxiety attacks and crohn's has been hell, but "with cannabis, I can do all things" (Bhang 3:16). I truly think I could make it just on cannabis now that I have a steady supply of mmj. At my last appointment, my therapist asked if I had smoked marijuana before I came. She can see the difference in me when I have smoked before my appointment instead of just enduring the pain through a pharmaceutical daze. She says that I am more interesting to talk with when I've smoked. However, she says, "I can't recommend that you smoke marijuana and must warn you that you could be arrested." I've told her that I will continue to take the risk to live my life with some joy and relief. I decided years ago to stop allowing the medical field make all my medical decisions. I believe as patients, we know what works and makes us feel better.
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Threat of arrest never stopped me until a number of years ago I found myself on probation. Early on I was given a UA which I failed due to MMJ. The next visit to my PO revealed the results. I stated to my PO that I have been using it medicinally for over 20 years. Amazingly he allowed me to go get my card before our next meeting (with the threat of arrest). Next visit to him I presented my card to him and also the judge a bit later at my probation violation hearing. Surprisingly both the PO and judge were behind me on it (it is law here after all). I successfully completed probation and have had one ever since. I have even had police contact twice over the years since and have been handed back my MMJ both times and allowed to continue on my way. Something to be said for that! BTW Herb Fellow, crohn's disease is one of the easiest ways here to get a card too!
 
That has to be an interesting feeling having the police hand you cannabis.
 
Herb Fellow said:
I take citalopram hydrobromide and bupropion hcl - generics from the VA hospital. Between those two and cholesterol medicine, my sex drive has almost disappeared. :( I have cut my dosage of Bupropion in half and would love to get off it competely. At one time I was taking 26 pills a day, now I'm down to a half dozen. I have therapy and a psychiatrist appointment on the 25th. A new psychiatrist this time and will ask to be reduced more. I am going slow as I don't want to fall into another depression. Living with depression, anxiety attacks and crohn's has been hell, but "with cannabis, I can do all things" (Bhang 3:16). I truly think I could make it just on cannabis now that I have a steady supply of mmj. At my last appointment, my therapist asked if I had smoked marijuana before I came. She can see the difference in me when I have smoked before my appointment instead of just enduring the pain through a pharmaceutical daze. She says that I am more interesting to talk with when I've smoked. However, she says, "I can't recommend that you smoke marijuana and must warn you that you could be arrested." I've told her that I will continue to take the risk to live my life with some joy and relief. I decided years ago to stop allowing the medical field make all my medical decisions. I believe as patients, we know what works and makes us feel better.
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Amen, Herb. :adore: I totally agree. If cannabis helps me more than pharmaceuticals, I'm willing to take the risk. I was arrested a few years ago and when I told the police why I used it, they got a big kick out of it. They also told me that they would be happy if I committed suicide and helped them get another criminal off the streets. In a way I'm happy they harassed and mistreated me. It really helped me get the charges against me dropped.

I also had some problems with bupropion. Basically the only thing it did for me was make me smoke cigarettes a bit less. At high doses I've read it can cause seizures, and I'm always extremely paranoid, so I asked my doctor to help me get off it a couple of months ago. But the worst medication I've been on was Effexor (venlafaxine HCL) by far. The three years I was on it are a complete blur. I barely remember anything except that it triggered a suicide attempt, made me feel like a zombie, and it took a long time for me to get off. If it wasn't for cannabis, I'd be a very unhappy person. I'm still not exactly healthy, but its also helping with that. I'm gradually starting to get back to a normal eating and sleeping pattern, but I think it will be better once I'm on a lower dose of prozac.

-jps :peace:
 
Yes, I've been on Effexor before. I had two suicide attempts. I think as I continue to reduce my pharmaceuticals, I'll get my mojo back . . . at least my wife hopes so. ;) Cannabis is the miracle herb. It gives me a positive attitude to continue on even in daily pain.
 
Sounds like my mom, "you look ok, you just have to pull yourself up by your boot straps."
 
At a bar, I believe people should be able to smoke as they pickle their livers, but as for other public areas, I definitely think people should be polite, and step away from the building where others, who may have asthma or children, may breathe it in..

Racefan said:
When cannabis come legal I hope I'm alive. I doubt I will be but it's nice to dream.

As for the original story...It all comes down to respect for other people and the smoker is a idiot! He should have stepped further away and enjoyed his drink afterwards. As a ex bar manager and bartender I wouldn't allow a cigarette smoker to smoke right outside the door and I wouldn't allow a weed smoker to do it either. You can defend his right to medicate all you want. I'm a med user as well. But there is a time and place for everything and this wasn't the right time or place for a cannabis break or to medicate. I wouldn't want my kids to see some guy medicating with cannabis any more than I would want them to see the diabetic sticking a needle in his ass. There is a time and place for everything.
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This really has turned out to be a deep thread from some guy smoking outside a bar! Anyway I am amazed so many others use mj for depression and mental reasons, I have nearly retired from the earth three times to date. Once when i was 11, 15 and 19 years old. My parents stuck me in an insane asylum called Ward 12 which was supposed to be part of a hospital but was no-where near it. Horrible place that nearly DROVE ME insane for real. I am not insane. I am off all substances which the doctors had me on which included Chloropromizine(CPZ or Largactil) ,Diazepam(valium), thioridizine, mogadon(nitrazepam), amitripiline, prozac and a bunch of other crap they fed me for years. I now only use cannabis for my depression. I used to be inside most of my life when I was under 'professional' care but now am hardly ever indoors. I love nature and adventure. I owe this to the holy herb. When I first left my parents house I got in with 'the wrong crowd' and became a serious h***n addict and also used m**h and c**e heavily and almost died. It took some courage to kick the habit and rebuild something of a life. I have been off the sauce for 5 years and off meds for 3. I am not authorized to use mj but I could'nt give two fucks in a whoehouse 'cos I am now a network engineer, proud father of a 6 year old daughter and loving partner. I own my own house, motorcycle and have a stable life - which is more than i could say when my life was in the hands of so-called 'professionals'. If I were lucky or blessed enough to have the privillage to smoke and grow legally I would deffinately not abuse it and steer well clear of any situation which could be seen as a reason not to give this privillage to others in need of it, more out of respect for fellow smokers and medical mj patients than anyone else so as not to ruin the little rights that have been so arduously hard-won. It is about showing the world that we are genuinely better today on cannabis than ever before and are acting responsible for being so - so as to gain more lenience - not get our right s revoked or move backwards from our goal of liberation and legal use of the only medication that does'nt make us into dependant zombies and actually allows us to live NORMLy and express ourselves freely. I guess some have just had it too easy to appreciate it.
 
what an amazing story! Thanks for sharing. :peace:


badbradblu said:
This really has turned out to be a deep thread from some guy smoking outside a bar! Anyway I am amazed so many others use mj for depression and mental reasons, I have nearly retired from the earth three times to date. Once when i was 11, 15 and 19 years old. My parents stuck me in an insane asylum called Ward 12 which was supposed to be part of a hospital but was no-where near it. Horrible place that nearly DROVE ME insane for real. I am not insane. I am off all substances which the doctors had me on which included Chloropromizine(CPZ or Largactil) ,Diazepam(valium), thioridizine, mogadon(nitrazepam), amitripiline, prozac and a bunch of other crap they fed me for years. I now only use cannabis for my depression. I used to be inside most of my life when I was under 'professional' care but now am hardly ever indoors. I love nature and adventure. I owe this to the holy herb. When I first left my parents house I got in with 'the wrong crowd' and became a serious h***n addict and also used m**h and c**e heavily and almost died. It took some courage to kick the habit and rebuild something of a life. I have been off the sauce for 5 years and off meds for 3. I am not authorized to use mj but I could'nt give two fucks in a whoehouse 'cos I am now a network engineer, proud father of a 6 year old daughter and loving partner. I own my own house, motorcycle and have a stable life - which is more than i could say when my life was in the hands of so-called 'professionals'. If I were lucky or blessed enough to have the privillage to smoke and grow legally I would deffinately not abuse it and steer well clear of any situation which could be seen as a reason not to give this privillage to others in need of it, more out of respect for fellow smokers and medical mj patients than anyone else so as not to ruin the little rights that have been so arduously hard-won. It is about showing the world that we are genuinely better today on cannabis than ever before and are acting responsible for being so - so as to gain more lenience - not get our right s revoked or move backwards from our goal of liberation and legal use of the only medication that does'nt make us into dependant zombies and actually allows us to live NORMLy and express ourselves freely. I guess some have just had it too easy to appreciate it.
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Very touching story, Brad!

Smokin Moose said:
I think the most profound thing Cannabis does for me is lift the anguish of the hidden disability. I swear that anguish is the most debilitating pain of all, and no other drug, apart from Cannabis, can deal with that. IMHO.
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I totally agree. No physical pain I've ever felt has compared to the hurt of mental anguish. In my experience, I've also learned that nothing other than cannabis can help alleviate the pain.

-jps :peace:
 
I've had a rough couple of weeks physically and emotionally. If it weren't for cannabis, I don't think I could bear it.
 

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