Doctor Who's Grow

[Lil Neutrino]

I haven't heard back from them No! not even a curtsey call, and no contract from the headhunter, hay you win some! you lose some! right!

Yeah, but there's far more losing than winning going around in this nation right now...

Things is I have been sending resumes out for over 2 years just like a lot of people, and the company I do subcontract work for has slowed down to almost a stop for now, so no money coming in for me right now.

Over a year here and guess what? Not ONE response...except for one that got back to me about four months after the fact (couldn't even remember who they were) and got a 3 month contract position out of it. Now I'm back to sending out but not hearing back on anything...professional...general labor...nada. And my unemployment has run out recently too.

Right about now I shoud just not give a crap about anything, but that won't help anything will it.

Apathy is a nasty state to get in to...been there, done that, and trying hard not to fall back in to it. Everytime I feel like saying "Fuck it....doesn't matter anyway" I try and remind myself there are a lot of people who have it way worse than me in this very same city and that things get darker before they get light. Kind of cheesy and typical but it's been working for me so far, maybe because I can't afford to let myself get apathetic? But it's hard when you know you're a good worker and capable of doing the jobs you apply for yet there's no work to be had...it makes you feel useless, a man without a job is, as I've said before, an empty shell...without a purpose (except for family I s'pose). I feel your pain man, that's what I'm trying to say without sounding like every Tom, Dick, and Harry who have tried to keep me optimistic over the last year lol. It's even worse because there's a lot of people with the attitude that if you're unemployed for so long then you must just be lazy and worthless...usually those people are also the ones who still have a job and don't really understand what has happened in the US AND around the globe. It makes me want to kick their teeth through the back of their head at best...

I'm going to go and get (fucked up) I haven't drank for a few years! but I think I need a few belts of something strong the pressure is to much for me! I've been holding back for over a year now and can't even tell you how I've been able to contain myself for this long! time to loose the dog of war!

Roseman is right, it doesn't solve anything but so long as it doesn't become a regular thing I don't personally see anything wrong with trying to drown your issues for a day. I don't really like going that route as alcohol just makes it worse for me but to each their own. However if you've had problems with alcoholism in the past I strongly caution against it.

Just know you're not alone...even on these forums! If you need someone to complain with shoot me a PM lol, misery loves company eh?

 

[harryo]

hey brother despair is a very deep well its easy to fall into You could grow some wicked shit man maybe starting a medical marijuana store, club, dispencery, if your state approves do what the fuck you need to do get it out of your system and your head better days are ahead man we goota help each other were all in the same fucking boat When I had my stroke spent a month in a coma was blind unable to speak and totally paralized on the left side I was told I would never recover no hope at all in 1 year I was able to hop on one leg and get out of my chair that was 1990 now most people cant tell So hey man I have been there it will get better stay high just say fuck it

 

[Doctor Who]

Oop's

 

[Doctor Who]

hey brother despair is a very deep well its easy to fall into You could grow some wicked shit man maybe starting a medical marijuana store, club, dispencery, if your state approves do what the fuck you need to do get it out of your system and your head better days are ahead man we goota help each other were all in the same fucking boat When I had my stroke spent a month in a coma was blind unable to speak and totally paralized on the left side I was told I would never recover no hope at all in 1 year I was able to hop on one leg and get out of my chair that was 1990 now most people cant tell So hey man I have been there it will get better stay high just say fuck it

I got in to a funk and it's a hard thing to get yourself out of, as my older brother use to tell me, you think to much Bro! and tend to dell on things to long, he would say let it go and move on because is really doesn't matter now! What is done is done!

 

[Doctor Who]

Yeah, but there's far more losing than winning going around in this nation right now...



Over a year here and guess what? Not ONE response...except for one that got back to me about four months after the fact (couldn't even remember who they were) and got a 3 month contract position out of it. Now I'm back to sending out but not hearing back on anything...professional...general labor...nada. And my unemployment has run out recently too.



Apathy is a nasty state to get in to...been there, done that, and trying hard not to fall back in to it. Everytime I feel like saying "Fuck it....doesn't matter anyway" I try and remind myself there are a lot of people who have it way worse than me in this very same city and that things get darker before they get light. Kind of cheesy and typical but it's been working for me so far, maybe because I can't afford to let myself get apathetic? But it's hard when you know you're a good worker and capable of doing the jobs you apply for yet there's no work to be had...it makes you feel useless, a man without a job is, as I've said before, an empty shell...without a purpose (except for family I s'pose). I feel your pain man, that's what I'm trying to say without sounding like every Tom, Dick, and Harry who have tried to keep me optimistic over the last year lol. It's even worse because there's a lot of people with the attitude that if you're unemployed for so long then you must just be lazy and worthless...usually those people are also the ones who still have a job and don't really understand what has happened in the US AND around the globe. It makes me want to kick their teeth through the back of their head at best...



Roseman is right, it doesn't solve anything but so long as it doesn't become a regular thing I don't personally see anything wrong with trying to drown your issues for a day. I don't really like going that route as alcohol just makes it worse for me but to each their own. However if you've had problems with alcoholism in the past I strongly caution against it.

Just know you're not alone...even on these forums! If you need someone to complain with shoot me a PM lol, misery loves company eh?

Thanks Bro maybe I'll take you up on that! I just need to get my head back on straight and focus on what I need to do to get things back on track for me, thank you Bro.

 

[FryingPanFlyer]

Thanks Bro maybe I'll take you up on that! I just need to get my head back on straight and focus on what I need to do to get things back on track for me, thank you Bro.

Yeah, hang in there bro, we all have our bad days. Hopefully you can put this behind you and move on. How's that bud turning out? I won't believe you if you tell me you haven't tried it yet! lol

Later man!

 

[Doctor Who]

Yeah, hang in there bro, we all have our bad days. Hopefully you can put this behind you and move on. How's that bud turning out? I won't believe you if you tell me you haven't tried it yet! lol

Later man!

Believe me I did taste a small sample! the little fan that I have on the cabinet to keep the air moving inside the cab, it was turned inward so it was pumping air in the cabinet slowing the drying time down! I reversed it's now so it's pulling air out! and In from the other vent!did that yesterday.

So now the buds seem to be getting there a little faster now, Yes! I just NOW! I did try a small bud taste from a lower branch that has a few small an mostly dry bud's! it has a smooth hit! when hit! no harshness I think because of the flush the plant went through before harvesting! and it's slowly creeping up on me now! I can feel it! as I type this, 2 bong hit's! that's what I look for! in any bud I get! grown or purchased! and yes I am feeling it creep an yes! this bud can only get better as it dries then cur's I have to take a break for few here the creeping is finished and I feel pretty stoned.

IT'S GOOD.

 

[FryingPanFlyer]

Believe me I did taste a small sample! the little fan that I have on the cabinet to keep the air moving inside the cab, it was turned inward so it was pumping air in the cabinet slowing the drying time down! I reversed it's now so it's pulling air out! and In from the other vent!did that yesterday.

So now the buds seem to be getting there a little faster now, Yes! I just NOW! I did try a small bud taste from a lower branch that has a few small an mostly dry bud's! it has a smooth hit! when hit! no harshness I think because of the flush the plant went through before harvesting! and it's slowly creeping up on me now! I can feel it! as I type this, 2 bong hit's! that's what I look for! in any bud I get! grown or purchased! and yes I am feeling it creep an yes! this bud can only get better as it dries then cur's I have to take a break for few here the creeping is finished and I feel pretty stoned.

IT'S GOOD.

THAT'S what I wanted to hear! Great job man.

 

[Moustache]

Good job Doc. Nothing like a little taste of your labor of love.

 

[Doctor Who]

Good job Doc. Nothing like a little taste of your labor of love.

Hay don't you just love when it turns out good!

The trainwreck is in bad shap but the buds are still growing? and smell ferging great on both! an the leaves on the whole plant are real bad most if not all! but I'm going to wait and see if the buds show green leavesthey seem to, the La Women is trying to work her way back out of it! but I'm not sure there either I have to be carefull here only maybe 40% of the leaves are effected and some of those are still over 60% green.

Hell! I'll show you some pictures tomorrow! but I have to warn you! you will be horrified and disappointed by the pictures, it sickens me everytime I go in their to care for them! breaks my heart to see my blunder do such harm to them even following all the guidelines to try and save them! it just may not be enough, I thought abouttrying something like root stimulato but that just would be another blunder on my behalf again.

 

[Keith Lake]

Did I miss the dry weights on the RoadRunner?

 

[Doctor Who]

Did I miss the dry weights on the RoadRunner?

Soniq420 Wow Mr.10.000 holy crap bro have you got some posts, you! been bussy, back on subject!

That's because I haven't got a weight yet Bro, the buds are just about ready for the cur jar's, but I am going to get started later on grooming the buds soon here, so I should have an over all weight later K stay tuned.

 

[Doctor Who]

Okay here are the pictures and they are horrifying hold on to your teeth here.

What a huge blunder! I managed screw them up pretty well! the buds are still growing which is surprising, but there pretty messed up, so I am going to try to being them to the finish I just don't know if it's whorth the trouble.

The buds seem to be showing greenleaf as they grow and the damn buds smell good to I mean sweet good, Man!

I couldn't get to close because of interference from the light.

 

[wowtestdrive]

Aww sad day at docs place :-(

I hope they bounce back and give ya a good push to the end...worst case scenario tho you still have a ton of killer hash I'm sure...could be alot worse

 

[Moustache]

I agree with WOW. There is always an upside to any situation. Those buds might just surprise you.

 

[Doctor Who]

Aww sad day at docs place :-(

I hope they bounce back and give ya a good push to the end...worst case scenario tho you still have a ton of killer hash I'm sure...could be alot worse

I'm hoping so to! would like the bud, but hash will work, I have a whole other plant frozen that needs to made into hash just to lazy and can't pick a process to do it by, am considering the gumby bubblehash method, the hash bags I bought are little! 5 qt bags, didn't know til they arrived small bags.

I agree with WOW. There is always an upside to any situation. Those buds might just surprise you.

Yeah the buds are growing on both still, but the la isn't eating so I need to pull some of the solution out or all, and put her on a day of ph'd water and clearex to break the nute lock an back the nutes off a little more.

But hash it can be! but l have never done the process, just the kief thing and the earwax hash but either of those aren't any good for that much material to process in those forms.

Basically I can't decide on a process, and then I'm a little worried about wasting everything doing it wrong lol.

What's your opinions?

 

[Doctor Who]

Hard to believe the buds continue to grow! the buds are showing growth! some better than I would have thought, an the little green leaves as they grow showing, I just did a res change and will continue to watch how they responde to the fresh change, got to say the buds smell nice, sweet smelling.

 

[Moustache]

You have the touch Doc.

 

[FryingPanFlyer]

Hard to believe the buds continue to grow! the buds are showing growth! some better than I would have thought, an the little green leaves as they grow showing, I just did a res change and will continue to watch how they responde to the fresh change, got to say the buds smell nice, sweet smelling.

Maybe you just gave them the ultimate late flower stress, it would be a trip if they really put out the trichs now.

 

[Doctor Who]

You have the touch Doc.

I wish!

All the leaves on the trainwreck are now dead and drying up, the buds are the only thing growing and showing green, the trichome on them hven't fully developed but are getting there! the la women is, so! so! she has some good green leaves and dead leaves an yellow spotting, it is still growing buds with green showing on them, But! the leaves after a while start to go bad to, yellow spotting slowly til it consumes the leaf, I have cut back on nutes, I run them in clean ph'd water for a day or 2, so I just not sure it's whorth the trouble I should just salvage what I can from them of what I can and start anew.

Boy! I didn't think things could go so badly, I can see now that seedling through Veg is easy compeared to the flower an bud stage Man!

Oh well Next Grow around will be better armed with this knowledge! with this one in the past.