Daily Update: Perpetual Tent - Week 8
Absolutely no maintenance necessary in the tent today. Just some nice photos to enjoy.
First up, Cheese Candy at Day 50 already. You start these grows and they seem to creep along and suddenly you're in the home stretch and things change so quickly.
See Susan, the trick is to train early and contain the plant into a controllable footprint. I hear you.
But isn't she pretty anyhow?
Auto Jock Horror x Auto Amnesia, Day 48. We have major pistil changing going on with the Kit Girls. Am I really that far off on my timing? I'm still over two weeks from the scheduled CAT drench, and I'm thinking that's too late. This 11/13 lighting is going to take some getting used to with small pots. Ziggy, are you watching? Any thoughts?
African Buzz, Day 49.
Auto Destroyer, Day 50. Mmmmmmm.
Environment holding steady.
One last peek before I give them their space.
I'm still getting used to my time being my own, still searching for my personal rhythm. I suppose I need to let that happen gently instead of forcing the issue, eh? I seem to have a hard time letting myself relax.
Those mini panic attacks over the past couple days threw me, but I may be getting better at responding to them. They blindside me, so no way to avoid or deflect them so I'm working on set distractions when one hits. If this approach works I'll share it somewhere. I'm hoping it does. I honestly didn't know you could cry this hard, and I'm ready to be past this stage.
I need to to drink more water. Tears take lots of moisture.
Its a beautiful day. I've had government employees go out of their way to make my transitions easier today and I couldn't have been more appreciative. This painful stage is nearly behind me. (I keep typing "us" and get hit with the shock that I've become a "me".) Turns out one should order those death certificates first thing, because everything waits for them. Good news: I will not be homeless and destitute.
It can take 60 days to get it all worked out and money in the bank, but it's all retroactive and the landlord is understanding. I won't starve and everything gets paid between now and then. This was the part Dale was most concerned with, so I'm trying to do it well.
Time me to rally the forces for Joy and turn you all loose to change the world, one joyful moment at a time. Have a wonderful day everyone. Now, where's that pipe? I keep getting distracted.
That little voice never quiets, does it?
Actually, this was something of a practice party, so the real party has yet to begin, but we're getting close. 
but I'm sorry for the emotional calls you've been having to make. I hope they're finished and today can be more relaxing and positive. The encouragement jar made me smile.
