Well- here are some thoughts about negativity from one very experienced in it. *Warning- extreme mushy airy fairy gibberish which really has nothing especially to do with cannabis and I'll probably regret writing.
One thing I've realized over time is that we are very adaptable creatures. We tend to change to adapt to our surroundings or to circumstances. If we are feeling down, then we project the fear based negativity on to others- and they project it/reflect it back. If we are feeling up then we see things in a positive light and that also gets reflected back by others. I've seen how the 'facts' and 'reality' change based on my mood, I've seen it so many times that I know my perceptions are not to be taken too seriously. I have a choice to see things positively or negatively. Lots of days I go somewhat for the negative I confess. There was a real dark period in my life when I really thought the worst of everything and everyone. Not so much anymore but I'm still a little cynical.
But now I try to laugh at myself a little when I do think dark thoughts, and I know that the negative trip -it's a survival mechanism. It's not a very good one though sometimes it helps get you through something . I'm aware that it's basically just a bunch of crap. I can tell myself whatever I want about 'the way things are' and who's 'fault' it is- but part of me knows I'm just fooling myself.
The point is - our minds are very fickle and changeable. That's why we can have people in the world believing practically anything under the sun- some of them willing to die for whatever crazy scenario they've concocted in their minds. We choose a lot of our beliefs.
Feeling positive is a much nicer feeling, and so it's better to try and aim for that option as much as possible. The sources of that happiness in life are basic things which everyone sort of knows and says over and over and I won't list because it will sound like a hallmark card. But somewhere you know what that stuff is.
Look at the way this website functions. The choice was made to run it in a positive way, and that's brought out all sorts of good qualities and made this whole place possible. You've probably seen forums where this isn't the case and seen all the silly fighting waste of time shit.
Sure there's a little enforcement of the forum rules. It's kind of like that for us mentally- where we have to make those attitude decisions and be a little strict with ourselves sometimes.
No doubt you are often surrounded by assholes. I wouldn't be surprised, since they are everywhere and breed like fruit flies. Here too. I feel that way all the time. But on days when I feel good about myself and have a little power- those people look different. They look kind of weak, frightened. On a really good day I might say something friendly to one of them and then they'll maybe suddenly relax and drop their stupid attitude. Most of the time I just keep to myself and try to make a fairly nice little bubble of 'reality' for myself.
Life is a bit like a chalkboard or an etch-a-sketch. We have choices about how we see the world. It takes practice whichever way we do it.
There are only two basic things at the root of all our emotions - love and fear. Fear brings out the negative stuff. Love is something that oozes out when the fear is gone. That's the basic fundamental reality of everything, IMO.
That's about all the blather from me tonight. Geez...
