I can't disagree with anything you said
I also have had multiple family members with lung problems from smoking their whole life
My dad had a chunk of his throat and half of one of his lungs cut out already from cancer but he has a liver transplant and hep C so cancer is kinda unavoidable due to the anit rejection meds. At least they test him regularly and when he has it they have been able to remove it in time. Now he has prostate cancer but it is very slow growing and they are just leaving it alone for now due to his age. I stopped before years ago and stayed off them for around 10 years and then started up again when I moved and couldn't get any herb for a couple months. I have also kicked a hundred+ milligram a day oxy habit (doc subscribed I had to tell him I didnt want them anymore and to not give them to me again) so cigs should be easy but they are just so easy to get and when I am at work I just want to go smoke lol. Maybe I will take some of this bud and try and make up some E-Cig juice without the nicotine so I can take vape breaks at work
For me its the habit of smoking something that is hard to quit not the nicotine. Its easy when I can just replace the cig craving for some herb but thats not exactly possible at work currently. To make it worse I work from home a lot where I can smoke herb all day so when I do go in the office I am immediately craving some kind of smoke.
Honestly the thing that has kept me from caring is the amount of pain I am in on a daily basis already. I know its just going to get worse and I will need more surgeries as I get older so having a real long life does not exactly sound appealing
I really hope once I can get some really high CBD meds (got hurkle seeds on the way) that the pain will go away enough to change this outlook. The amazonia helps but I don't think it really has enough CBD for my issues.