i truly hope u (not just me) can c this, as a blessing n disguise. it's about to get "windy" up n here so brace yourself: this has been the writing on the wall, a few yrs, now. if u haven't been arbitrarily deflated, yet- it's comin. nobody will risk their med license, for u, and the dea doesn't sound too concerned about ruffling feathers to use fear and intimidation, as many powers that b, so often do; abusing the power limitations of their world. small people...
hence, when the neighboring pill mill gets raided, if the offices r connected, ur doc just became fair game, too... and it can damage your doc's reputation and shut "him" down, for months, til the innocent r proved so; the American way, like it, or no... costing them (good docs, good people) even 10s of thousands in legal fees and income cause u just got hosed, for the same period. ever try changing pain docs? pharmacies? states? odds r, ur starting with xrays, AGAIN, at some other doc and ur left, holding a baggy of tylenol in one hand, for the 4 mo it'll take for ur new doc to provide a foundation (AGAIN!), for your takin more than vicodin, those 4 mo., if that. now, consider the travel expenses you just added. copays. meds u can't use.
here's another hard truth: my withdrawal from methadone n oxies was arrested at stomach cramps n the puupies. in the last 2wks, i just went for it- down from 100mg morphine equivalent, but i did ask for norcos, for "breakthrough" (i know- just with oxies, at the end; redundant drug) n then used em to step down, off, instead; still able to abide by directions, til the end... but i dropped the methadone, by itself, first. minimal discomfort, with a come up n the oxies, to compensate.
started final drop, aug 15 & am down 37-39 lbs, depending, since my last opioid, aug 31.
the biggest thing i gained, was my hope back!
i could name 50 body systems, at least, that i often, mistakenly credit cannabis oil with (the diff from rso being- i use hybrids, indis, and sats. he uses indicas, typically, as i understand it. the real deal is 2/3 of those issues were opioid caused. I'd not read that, over my decade battle. not all of em, anyway.
first, the obvious- anxiety, stress? u can nix those pills for rso (under medical supervision /approval; often easier said than done)... my heart pills- GONE! B.P. pills- bye bye: OIL! no psvt, 244beats per minute issues/resets. no 150/whatever, blood pressure- 120/80, again! opioids n perceived pain take that street cred.
stinging sensations outta nowhere- gone. chronic headaches n migraines- opioids caused- GONE! the kind of headaches that say, "doesn't matter what tomorrow, or kurt Cobain, look like. opioid caused n the imitrex that works reliably for those migraines- contributes to ur high b.p. and if it's too high- u go e.r. and they won't refill, til u stabilize. can u imagine? happened to the lovely g.
consider your morphine equivalent: if they haven't started to decline ur intake- they will. do the math 4 yourself. ur prolly over 1k mg equivalent... so ur drops will come in significant increments. think of a 20% drop, at 1k. u just lost 2 meths, or significant oxies. and that's how it goes. if u zee em quarterly, it gives u 2mo to try new (legal) things. u would b n breach... fyi... they play the game. u may need to, also, and i mean well intended "play"; or I'd not have had the norcos, to help...
I'm forgetting a ton. knees, when I'm kneeling, don't suddenly and acutely, mysteriously, send me onto my back, writhing. plantar fasciitis- gone. the stress of each of these- u dunno how much tension n ur chest it's responsible for, til it's gone! the agoraphobia of- that doorknob means outside- means pain- ain't goin!". that was a biggie- significantly less, now.
going into town... lil things, like this- freak u? it gets better. ears ringing- gone. spacial awareness- improving.
the ability to better care for yourself- hygienically- huge diff and the not doin it cause it hurts n u /we stank- the skin dryness, irritation- clean right up! the half pound u gain, weekly- being horizontal- drops away, fast. my first goal, was to focus on bath n shower combo- least once- ea. day, again. goal 1- check!
anyway, i could n often do go on, but u get it. it's better! the lovely g says, "u can drive? how? y?"... i actually have this model because i could no longer sit up n got too fat, for a sedan; usually needing to lay n back. my response was, "because i can, now, and because i know i now feel better than u do.". she's in a similar situation, but was less... prepared to b incapacitated, early on. i didn't think I'd c 50, with all my prostate symptoms. i go with "ignorance is bliss, on that one". already had a come to jesus with my heart thing. one's enough. but the rso has quieted 2yrs of being p crazy! oh and the first night in a decade, u sleep beyond 2hrs. the first day, u don't nod off... dood- it's a blessing. you've been given a gift n hopefully, a second chance at a life.