Hello OMM hope your feeling better and your meds are working for you, i know how you feel iv been working through depression for 5 years, i am one of 5 borthers and 6 years ago we lost our mum it was very hard for all of us, my youngest brother seemed to take it the hardest and 6 months later took his own, we were there for each other and wasnt expecting anything like this to happen, we all blamed our selfs and its taken along time to live with whats happened.
To date i am still taking my meds and they work very well, i try to look at life as a blessing and wake every day with the attitude to achieve somthing more, do it with a smile and enjoy what im doing.
Sorry about the small blabble there, you are a very admirable, genuin and endearing man do whats best for you and enjoy ever second of your life.
Your in my heart OMM take care of yourself and Jo.
Happy new year
P.s you ladies are stunning!