Its only 1am Thai time here Fridays nights (lights the movie not the TV series!) and Saturdays I can live on Thai time - not HKT with is an hour ahead. I need less sleep than most not thing but who doesn't like a Sunday morning lie in!
Awww. I think. I think something is going on weird with posts in this journal - not what you think at all. Well rather not what is related to what I feel like I'm going to say.
I just said something so positive to someone, off the board about how happy I was
@Azimuth @Keffka and of course
@Gee64 stopped by to throw around ideas.
I wrote the post above, full of happy heart. Like cool awesome - building something.
Then I see this classic Wastei and Organics fight?
Like oh it makes me sad.
Wastei is Swedish - you guys (I think!) are North American? Your language skills and your tones are way different. Its not even your grow styles you're actually fighting about. Its you're not communicating in almost the same language.
I know - its English, right? But people speak it and spell it differently all over, its just the lingua franca right now. The language of business. Originally it was a pidgin, of Arabic, Latin and and what became German I think?
Everyone but everyone on the planet could do better by reading and listening more. But thinking about where that person is from.
I know Wastei way more than Azi, Keffka and Gee from off board stuff. He is a pain in the ass at times (I just get why he sent me an email to say sorry 12 hours ago!) Oh lordy! Am I slow! Or my thread is updating funny for me - for reasons I can only imagine - I'm on some pre moderation!
Look all I can say from Wastei's point of view is - he doesn't it have it down on any of you. For sure he phrases stuff he ways he phrases that jar to the eyes and ears of North American readers. But he by no means thinks you're stupid or he's better or anything like that. For sure.
He can be a pain in the ass though?!
@Wastei ! You told me this to be true!
For fucks sake.
Gee? C'mon dude? That whole line by line critique of Wastei? You're better than that. We're all better than that. And trust me - I wrote one the same this afternoon as a draft just like it about someone else!
Walked away came back and deleted it. Feels so good having done that.
Like the classic if you can't say anything nice - say nothing at all?
I get why some of rub along the wrong way with each other. I really do, and I try to help you all see where maybe just misunderstand each others tones or whatever. Awww - my Dad when I was a kid!
One of his favourite expressions was
"For crying out loud!"
His other - favourite and one I have kept!
"For fucks sake!'
I just said so much nice stuff about you guys off site the four of you and then - I see there was whole page of posts I missed!.
Maybe I cut my notifications too much!
Like someone wise said recently - "Lets not be polarised like US politics"
Probably Azi said that.
Huh.
I mean I don't do sad especially, but I am a bit. Thought I could pull you guys together and learn off each other.
Meh maybe I still can! Gonna send Azi an email - I don't have offboard contacts for Keffka or Gee - maybe it can be forwarded?
Soon as the contest results are announced on 1st of May I'm gone from the site.
Its been planned a little while, its not a hissy fit, nor a flounce! I would have stayed for this journal but I got really let down by the site owner so can't be bothered.
nickhardy.land
I'm just gonna do a blog for me. I don't care no one reads it. I don't need thumbs up or ticks for validation - just like writing and growing. I imagine though I will miss the human touch, a little of the human touch. Sorry got Bruce Springsteen in my head there, my Mum's one free pass from my Dad apparently!
We are all so much more similar than we think, we all try and define ourselves by differences.
Rather than celebrate the things we have in common.
Makes me not sad. Just tired.
I hope we all keep in touch. I hope - I am an overly optimistic person! One day Wastei and Gee are like good buddies!
I mean maybe I am too optimistic! But I can hope!
Azi - I'll ping you something in about 7 hours - need sleep. I have to go to a 4 year old's birthday party at 10am. Worse thing - they're English from about 80 miles away from my where I grew up. So obviously I already hate them! Plus that Sunday morning lie in I started with? Well that's gone!
Closer you're from...
With like really genuine, hand on heart huge affection from me, to all of you - but yeah 60 hours or whatever and I'm out.
Been a blast. And I hope not the end of our chats about growing weed. Really. Because I'm overly optimistic - I hope for and believe Wastei and the the rest of you can find a way to become friends. Better understand one another, its all it takes.
But I'm as sharp as a carpenters pencil, me.
I hope we can all keep in touch and keep the (friendly!) grow chats going.
Nick