Joe,
I've been following your journal. I know I don't socialize too much here but I do read. First off let me say that I feel for you and your situation. Stay strong. I'm sure that through your own thoughts and decisions you will do what you think is best based on fixing things in the short term by selling your gear. If you can't find work, then make work find you. You've created another circle in your life. The same can be said in sharing your knowledge and your results to others in your personal life. I'm going to be blunt. Not as any disrespect or throwing shade. It's just feedback from what I've read. And feedback is not personal.
You gotta get past the "doing it for the Love". We all are somewhat emotionally attached or invested in our plants. love doing it for other people. Love don't pay the bills. But your love for growing can. Don't get to your harvest date with nothing but the calendar with the date and say (I shoulda...). That's when you accept defeat. And it sucks. Market yourself as a grow consultant. No one know you level of experience. I follow your journal as others. Consider that your resume. Offer services for a fee. Reap you've sown. Literally and figuratively! You have some choice flowers and will stop you and your wife knocking heads more than a bong hit will. That still gives you a reason to fill your cup as well as filling others. Ya got lots of sage advice from lots of people here. I'm here in the states out of work, sending resumes and interviews yada yada. But my long game is growing and sharing what most people don't get in the shops. Home grown specialty buds is like micro brews. All the clubs are selling "wal mart" weed these days. The art is in the small grows. You have an art. I like growing and love the results. You have an opportunity literally growing right in front of you.
Peace brother!
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