For My Appreciation!

[marcus611a]

Anyway I can get a stealth grow award? I grow this shit for 3 years under everybody's noses including the ones who comes to my house checking on parolee anywhere I can get an award? Don't matter what I say everything said and done and gone it's like it's never existed.... Ha

 

[marcus611a]

I've been trying to get any kind of award on this site since I've been on it and I get none.... Help people out I don't know what else to do can't get a girl journal award can't get a member of the month award can't get no award.. what am I doing wrong? I try to stay positive to help everybody out I guess that's just not working...

 

[marcus611a]

Honestly I don't care if I get any awards I'm just glad I'm here with you all I've met every one of you all on here and I'm proud to know all of you God bless everyone

 

[marcus611a]

Give me a couple weeks we'll set that many tint up......

 

[marcus611a]

And yeah I done celebrated with 4 40 oz some of voices is kind of slurry.... Oh shit damn man back to work tomorrow fuck I had eight people on my roster today I've been getting Joey to the foundations for children I got a total of 84 people donate today.. Tomorrow I'll get 80 more... Next day I'll get 80 more I'm a beast when it comes to getting donations and selling donuts but I think I'm going to quit my job.............. Been thinking about it rather hard......... Wish I can just move the fuck away from here somewhere where all this shit's legal and I can start a new life grow shit for a living and just live life like I was born to do but yet I can't do that here God damn it Trump you best legalize this shit like you promised legalize it everywhere motherfucker cuz there's nothing wrong with it... He said he touched them on their pussy.....

 

[marcus611a]

But honestly all in all I got respect for every one of you all sometimes I might get an attitude or it seems like I get an attitude but I really don't it's just how I am I like to joke a lot. So I'm thinking about moving to a state to where it's legal and see if I can transfer my dunkin' donuts status...

 

[marcus611a]

Cause there ain't no telling how long it's going to be before it's legal here shit's done happen I can't buy my house I got four grand out of the six grand that I need... The reason why that happened is one of my fucking roommates lost his job and we've been paying his shit for the last 2 months but now I got him a job where I work so stick a motherfucking fork in me I'm fucking done......

 

[marcus611a]

I got some really good marijuana but nobody to sell it to you I'm not a fucking drug dealer you dig... I mean damn why can't I get a break two grand fucking short

 

[marcus611a]

I scremped and I saved every motherfucking dime that I got.. done without shit quit buying shit. All the weed I've gotten in the last 3 months to hold me over until harvest was free. Because people owed me money.

 

[marcus611a]

I just want one breaking light that's all I ever ask for. I never asked for anything in my life I always fucking work for it. Never ask for no handouts except one time and I ain't going to lie he helped me out and by God damn it I'm giving him back exactly what he gave me back.... With my next check... This check I got to pay a lot of bills I got to get caught up cause of that asshole I'm living with is lazy and you wanted to sit on the couch for 2 months and smooch off my fucking uncle who was saving up with me and I had no clue that was going on cuz I was busy at fucking working not here half the time. Just found that out today mind you That's why I'm drinking and I'm half drunk already cuz tomorrow's my appointment for the bank and now I ain't got the goddamn money because of that shit but it is what it is you live and you learn.... Do unto others as you have them to do unto you That's what I always believe in if you want to be treated bad treat people bad you want to be treated good treat people good.

Hell I had a customer said she's going to give me $100 tip in the jar I said ma'am all I need is your smile and guess what she only gave me a smile I handed her the $100 bill back

 

[marcus611a]

Give motherfuckers the shirt off my back for what I don't never get nothing back but of course I'm not going to ask for it cuz it'll make me feel like shit....

Yes I know how to grow good pot Yes I know how to grow killer pot I know how to do it right but I get so nervous and I get so uptight and I don't even want to go up and look at my tent because I'm afraid somebody's going to hear me up there.... So I'll wait a day or two to check on them and they go without water and shit and I think that's what happened this girl around I did not water them correctly they dried out too much... When is this shit going to end marijuana is not bad it actually medical I don't know why they just can't legalize it it's not like I'm abusing it I use it in my life to help me cope with people and to being around people.

I have agoraphobia fear of being around people I don't like big crowds and shit.. when I smoke marijuana I'm talkative I want to meet people say shit to them talk to them joking cut up with them... That's what marijuana does for me it gets me out of my agoraphobia.. if I had no marijuana I don't know how the hell I would get to work because I couldn't handle being on the bus or being around anybody...

But yet the government thinks it's bad I don't abuse it I use it to help me I don't get high just to get high... If I'm one of that feeling I smoke some motherfucking ass meth or something... Please give me a break Jesus I just need one break in my life and I don't think I'm ever going to fucking get it......

 

[marcus611a]

But anyways I'm not going to leave you all my family hanging just because I'm not growing don't mean I'm not going to check on your all's beautiful journals.... And just because I don't respond don't mean I'm not looking at your beautiful journals and reading everything you put on there... I kind of like to stay in the back I don't like to say too much people like to bump heads you know what I mean I'm not trying to do that I need all the friends I can get... Because I feel so alone in my life...

 

[Bill284]

But anyways I'm not going to leave you all my family hanging just because I'm not growing don't mean I'm not going to check on your all's beautiful journals.... And just because I don't respond don't mean I'm not looking at your beautiful journals and reading everything you put on there... I kind of like to stay in the back I don't like to say too much people like to bump heads you know what I mean I'm not trying to do that I need all the friends I can get... Because I feel so alone in my life...

So sorry brother.
If I could help you know I would.


Stay safe
Bill284

 

[InTheShed]

I really hate doing that I wish I could do a perpetual I would have done took clones off his motherfuckers done had another batch going

I was going to say you can run perpetual once you buy the house, but then this... ↓↓↓

I can't buy my house

Damn that sucks. Can you just put it off a few months while you get the remaining cash?