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flytier said:
Oh yeah, and how the fuck do I upload pictures now with the new format... another panic attack coming on hah.
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I had that same thought when I got back from the holidays.....what the freaking hell did they do to the website and how the fuck do I upload pictures!!! Well a text to one of the 420 regulars and I had it figured out. Hell I couldn't find how to get to my subscribed links either LOL.
 
flytier said:
Oh, and guys, I made an appointment to see a mental health counselor today. I'm going down to the city next week to see her. Getting time for a tune-up, I think.
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Thats awesome brother!! I am a firm believer that the first line of defense in dealing with this clusterfuck called life is a mental toolbox with as many tools in it to deal with stuff with a clear head first. To me it doesn't matter if its depression or stress or anxiety or physical pain.....a strong mind is the best tool to use as an initial defense. Adding to the mind's toolbox is every bit as important as adding to your medicine cabinet......probably more important. Then when your mind needs a little extra help.....the medicine cabinet or bong....however you classify it, is a nice second defense. Even for physical pain, a strong mind is much better.

On a side note....how are you guys doing with this storm on the east coast. We are getting ravaged here in the Boston area!
 
Van Stank said:
Hey Flytier, sorry to hear the holidays were rough on you brother. Been catching up on your journal while I was away for the holidays. Interesting read to say the least brother. I am one of the fortunate people in the world that has never had to deal with depression or anxiety or other things in the head.

What I am about to say is meant with the most amount of respect and compassion. I can't relate or understand any of what you describe in feelings. I used to always have the mindset that people that struggle with depression or anxiety were weak. Now, keep in mind....I did 22 years in the Marine Corps and I am military brat myself so I have always been around incredibly mentally tough people. Ms Stank had deeper depression (lost a brother and sister within months of each other) and struggled with that before I met her. She has opened my eyes to depression at lower levels and how it feels to not really be able to control one's feelings or emotions. Thats something I have never understood or can relate to. I always just found ways to compartmentalize issues and address them when I was ready or able to address them. As I have gotten more involved with this website, I have found people that suffer from all sorts of issues that I just never understood or could relate to and this place has made me far more sympathetic to folks with these type of issues and I am thankful for that. I think being exposed to the other members sharing their issues has made me far more sensitive towards these issues and conditions. Then factoring in that a simple plant can go so far in helping someone having issues is amazing. Thank you for kind of describing how debilitating this depression can be on you. I am not sure how I could offer any help other than listening if you ever need an ear to bend but I extend that offer to you brother. Just know you have friends here that care and will do what we can to help.
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Sometimes it takes someone to describe things to get a hint of what this shit is like, but a hint is about all you'll get. If someone were to tell me about theirs I could relate to them, but I'd never understand what they're going through. To suffer with it is one thing but to think I could see it through someone else's eyes... nope. I'm sorry to hear that your wife suffers with it too. It's probably almost as hard on you as it is on her, having to see her like that and not being able to help. My wife also has depression and when one of us has it acting up the other is pretty much guaranteed to get stressed over it too. But she did real well this season and showed much patience toward me.

Yeah, you'll find a wide variety of health issues on here, for sure. Many of them, I don't even know what they are. That's where it's good for people to be open. Some people do need to know more about things like depression; I've met some real idiots. If you're not in a cast or a bandage or something, then how can you claim to have a health issue? The guys at work got some pretty vivid descriptions of what this is like over the past week and a half. Three of the guys there lost family members recently - I can see that as a justifiable reason to be depressed. But when I'm up there on the verge of crying over nothing while those guys are laughing and carrying on... I don't know. Things don't seem right.

But thanks for the offer of an ear Van; I know for a fact I can vent to someone if I have to. Everyone on here has helped me out greatly while this crap was going on inside me.
 
Van Stank said:
Thats awesome brother!! I am a firm believer that the first line of defense in dealing with this clusterfuck called life is a mental toolbox with as many tools in it to deal with stuff with a clear head first. To me it doesn't matter if its depression or stress or anxiety or physical pain.....a strong mind is the best tool to use as an initial defense. Adding to the mind's toolbox is every bit as important as adding to your medicine cabinet......probably more important. Then when your mind needs a little extra help.....the medicine cabinet or bong....however you classify it, is a nice second defense. Even for physical pain, a strong mind is much better.

On a side note....how are you guys doing with this storm on the east coast. We are getting ravaged here in the Boston area!
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Depression and its brothers is one of the most exhausting things I've ever had to deal with. It mentally fatigues you and with that comes the physical fatigue too, a lagging a couple days behind.

We've been getting the storm for about four hours now; the snow is almost up to the bumper of the car. We're supposed to get nailed with it.
 
Van Stank said:
I had that same thought when I got back from the holidays.....what the freaking hell did they do to the website and how the fuck do I upload pictures!!! Well a text to one of the 420 regulars and I had it figured out. Hell I couldn't find how to get to my subscribed links either LOL.
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The subscribed pages was the only thing that didn't confuse me - I keep that one bookmarked. I did some swearing, though, trying to figure out how to upload pictures at first.
 
If nothing else, this place has united friends that I never knew existed......for that I'm truly thankful.
 
Guy Cavallero said:
If nothing else, this place has united friends that I never knew existed......for that I'm truly thankful.
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And me too. I never expected this amount of closeness when I signed up. But one way or another, everyone on here has something in common and it does bring people together.
 
Morning Fly! How you coping with this weather? Fuck me....got to -25 here easily yesterday, plus 50 km/h winds. I'm an outside guy but I don't find this enjoyable at all LOL.
 
Guy Cavallero said:
Morning Fly! How you coping with this weather? Fuck me....got to -25 here easily yesterday, plus 50 km/h winds. I'm an outside guy but I don't find this enjoyable at all LOL.
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Nope, same here Guy. We went from rain the other day to -37 windchill. But I won't be working in it today. Now my back is thrown out again. I when I was pulling in to get a coffee before work and I coughed and out she went. But at least I'm in a good mood again and I can laugh at it. It beats the hell out of depression.
 
Morning fellow Canadians. Talking weather? I have no intention of going outside today. I will spend day moving the plants in my scrog. Oh yeah, I already did that.

Ian
 
Come chill....literally, lol. I love to stay indoors all day, especially in my grow room but I have obligations to my dog's (not sure that that will actually occur) and some appointments this afternoon,. Looking forward to next week's snow at this point LMAO......how sad is that, lol.

I totally understand fly, I was sitting on my break at lunch yesterday and turned quickly and I felt a sharp heated pain in my neck..... I thought to myself " did I just give myself whiplash" LMAO....... luckily no adverse effects and I could continue taping for the afternoon. Personally I believe in your case Fly...... that your body is telling you enough is enough..... For now anyway LOL. Your body needs a break, make sure you listen to it.
 
Ian Bastage said:
Morning fellow Canadians. Talking weather? I have no intention of going outside today. I will spend day moving the plants in my scrog. Oh yeah, I already did that.

Ian
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I'm thinking I might put down another seed or two today myself
 
Guy Cavallero said:
Come chill....literally, lol. I love to stay indoors all day, especially in my grow room but I have obligations to my dog's (not sure that that will actually occur) and some appointments this afternoon,. Looking forward to next week's snow at this point LMAO......how sad is that, lol.

I totally understand fly, I was sitting on my break at lunch yesterday and turned quickly and I felt a sharp heated pain in my neck..... I thought to myself " did I just give myself whiplash" LMAO....... luckily no adverse effects and I could continue taping for the afternoon. Personally I believe in your case Fly...... that your body is telling you enough is enough..... For now anyway LOL. Your body needs a break, make sure you listen to it.
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If I could afford to take a break I would. I'll go in tomorrow - it won't be stressful, just picking dead eggs - and see the chiropractor on Monday. I'll take that as a day off and then Thursday to go see the counselor. I'll have to work on payday, but fuck it. And this is a good day to stay inside, weather and all.
 
Scrogdawg said:
A bit of one,
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Send it east, please. Every little bit helps. Since I am grounded now, I don't get my warmer climate business trips. I should be heading to Vegas for a week right now.

Ian
 
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