Dennise - No Longer The Newest Of Newbies - Not Growing In MG - Perpetual

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Happy Hemper said:
I am so very sorry to hear of Ms Ellie's health problems. Have you considered RSO treatment or something similar? :Love:
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I've been dosing Ellie with dog treats I make and use a bit of cannabutter in ever since she was first diagnosed with the cancer.... I've had diabetes most of my life so taking care of that part has never been a big deal... She takes:circle-of-love: her shots and lets me check her sugar in her mouth very easily... actually if I tell her to let me check her sugar she will crawl up to my lap and lay her head down on my leg and just let me pull her lip up.... She is just sick and old and I think she is just getting tired... I know what the right thing to do is... I just don't seem to be able to do it,,,,,,,,,,,:circle-of-love:
B A R said:
Sorry to hear the bad news.
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Thanks Broke Ass....:circle-of-love:
 
Dennise said:
It's not her diabetes... it's the cancer... she is not wanting to eat and I am having to give her glucose to keep her sugar up and she is having a hard time walking.... it is just coming close to the end... I knew it was coming just not ready for her to go.....:circle-of-love:
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My heart goes out to you. I have had to make that decision too many times myself. It always sucks. Hang in there. The best advise I can give you is look at quality of life. If there is still quality keep going. If there is no quality left, it is time to let her go. That is the way I have always done it. :peace:
 
I know it sounds kind of weird but she is all I have left of my old life.... Everyone and everything else is gone... She was there by my side when I got hurt and she has never left me.... She still licks away my tears.... and her little 10 lb self taught me unconditional love.... I honestly don't know how to do this.......:circle-of-love:
 
I have 2 Rat terriers and my sons dog... he is a Pit mix and has been here over a year now and will be for another year and a half.... was only supposed to be here while he was in combat training school but then he got stationed in Alaska...:thedoubletake: but when my son got home from Afghanistan he had a few issues he brought home with him and he needed a dog so he had gone to the pound and rescued Paco.... he was just a pup and I don't think I will be able to let him go either.... He was kept in a crate some days 12 to 18 hours cause my son was on duty and where we are he has run of many acres and the crate has been in my back yard since the day it got here and just hasn't made it to the dump yet...:)... IMO Paco is my dog and most likely will stay that way.... and don't get me wrong... my rats are my babies too but just not like my Ellie.......:circle-of-love:
 
I know how you feel Dennise. When I broke my back it was my girl, a golden mix, that saved my life and got me back on track. I had to ease her on her way many years ago now but she is still missed. When my day comes our ashes, with those of her successors, will be mingled and left in some of our favorite places. :Namaste:
 
Thanks Happy... I have the ashes of my German Shepard and my Rotti and I will also have my Ellie cremated and all 3 will be laid to rest with me.... I know they will all be waiting at the Rainbow Bridge and I know she is just a dog but I swear I don't think anything has ever hurt this bad in my life.....:circle-of-love:
 
High Sistah D:circle-of-love:
Sorry bout your buddy my little minpin is really old too one eyed and kinda limps around hacking and coughing once in awhile but he eats he still barks at everything and still seems happy so hes got some time left I think
 
b.real said:
sorry to hear that D. sending my best wishes to your and your loved ones.
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Thank you b....:circle-of-love:
Cronichemphog said:
High Sistah D:circle-of-love:
Sorry bout your buddy my little minpin is really old too one eyed and kinda limps around hacking and coughing once in awhile but he eats he still barks at everything and still seems happy so hes got some time left I think
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I think I am going to take her to the vet in the morning.... she is choking when she eats and drinks and doing something really weird with her tongue and foaming at the mouth when she does it.... it's almost like she is choking.... it's only when she eats or drinks but that's really not good,,,, I know what he is most likely going to tell me and I don't know if she will be coming home... I doubt it..... I really do know the right thing to do... I really do.....:circle-of-love:
 
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Lady D I feel your pain but do the right thing. When my mother had cancer I made it explicitly clear to her Dr. no machines and no resuscitation. Once her body gave up I let her go and not continue her suffering. I'v also made it clear to my family when it's my time it's my time I just don't want to lay in no bed suffering and kept alive by modern medicine. as for that night time med you have there, if it's that strong I'm gonna have to buy some seeds and grow a batch.:circle-of-love:
 
Thank you Latin and yes it is that strong and I will be honest with you... I got the Crazy Miss Hyde and the Blue Monster Holk mixed up but the both of them are by far the most potent I have grown.... I am pretty sure that one is the Crazy Miss Hyde... Neither was the best harvest I have ever had but I'm not sure if it was the genetics or the problems I was having with the lights but I can gold plate guarantee you I will be growing them both again..... Not only is it resin covered to the max... both are an amazing buzz.... I was quite distraught yesterday cause of Ms. Ellie... who is better today and I actually think she had a bad tooth she was choking on... I know she will not be here with me much longer but it's not today...:blushsmile:.....:circle-of-love:
 
I will be potting up my 4 new babies today... I just can't decide if I should go ahead and use the PJ soil or just veg them with FF and top dress them with the bloom soil... I will decide when I stir up the veg soil today and see what it looks like.... when I stirred it the day before yesterday it had a nice layer of yuck on the top of it so it is cooking well and may just be fine... I ran out of the Red Bud Farms worm castings when mixing up the veg soil and needed 2 more cups and when I went to the hydro store all they had was a huge ass bag... I think it is 30 Lbs so needless to say when I added the 2 cups still needed I kinda over poured the bag into the tote so there is probably more like 5 or 6 cups total in the tote...:oops: will that hurt it or make it tooo hot or something...:confused: anywho just waiting on the mail to run.... he should be bringing me 3 gallon smart pots today and I think I am just going to make these 3 gallon babies so I will have room to throw an auto or 2 in.... I will post up pics of everything we did in the grow room and of the babies in their new homes as soon as I figure it all out.... I am so happy with the a/c in that room now.... The door is closed and I have not unzipped the tent and it is running about 80 degrees...:yahoo: The only unknown now is how much difference the heat will be with the little tent on too... I don't even have the a/c blowing as cold as it can... I have it on about 7 with the highest being 10 and it is blowing on low so it can be colder if necessary.... I love having this much control and not having to zip and unzip tents every morning and evening and now with the veg tent on I won't have to worry about making sure I can be here to zip up the bloom tent at 5pm.... I think I finally have my room like I want it and for the first time you can be anywhere in my house and not know what is going on in that room..... Fella is thrilled with not being able to hear the fans any longer...:)... Hope you all have a blessed Wed......:circle-of-love:
 
Dennise said:
Thank you Latin and yes it is that strong and I will be honest with you... I got the Crazy Miss Hyde and the Blue Monster Holk mixed up but the both of them are by far the most potent I have grown.... I am pretty sure that one is the Crazy Miss Hyde... Neither was the best harvest I have ever had but I'm not sure if it was the genetics or the problems I was having with the lights but I can gold plate guarantee you I will be growing them both again..... Not only is it resin covered to the max... both are an amazing buzz.... I was quite distraught yesterday cause of Ms. Ellie... who is better today and I actually think she had a bad tooth she was choking on... I know she will not be here with me much longer but it's not today...:blushsmile:.....:circle-of-love:
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I have found that they will let us know when it is time. We just have to have the courage to listen. :circle-of-love: :peace:
 
She really does seem to be a bit better today and I really think she had a bad tooth she was trying to get out... Her teeth are terrible cause I haven't been able to put her to sleep to get them cleaned in years so she has lost most of them... Bless her little heart she has displasia too so she has had a hard time walking for years.. she is just a mess but she is comfortable today so she is not leaving me today....:circle-of-love:
 
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