I was hesitant but I am grateful for this remarkable platform to address it on.
We have to advocate for ourselves and I'm so thankful that I have been and finally have a team of doctors that are doing the right thing.
Absolutely, I'd love to see what others, especially someone with your expertise, can do with this. Makes me wonder what you just said about not working so well on different structures-that's been my thought the last 5 weeks. Thanks for the love Stone
Appreciate that Brew and that's the first thing Rob said to me, CCO. I'll get on the horn with all of you over the next several weeks and gather all the info and put it into one spot for myself. Thanks so much for the good energy
It is but I have to shake myself out of this rut. It's like I'm just stifling myself more by staying emotionally leaded by all of this. It's f-in with my energy levels cause I'm spending a lot of time being stressed out so something has to give. Thanks for the empathy Mel.
Mucho mucho hugs Papa, thank you my friend
I'm on a
mission to find every way I'm not and turn this on its head
Ugh the sick care system......
Thanks so much. And yes, of course, peanut thai chicken over a salad with frwsh organic veggies tonight. Much love brother. Thanks again
hey my Irish robe buddy, missed ya friend
My heart Thanks you for understanding that was difficult for me to share and for your compassion
I absolutely do and have absolutely heard of suppositories before with CCO or RSO. I was looking into it before my Aunt passed from cancer in November, to make for her as I had seen suppositories are the best way to get it into the system
I know you all are and that is so heart warming. Thanks again Azi.
Oh yea I added another fan in a few weeks ago for that, sprayed with my cold pressed neem a few times also. Getting another out of the tent and then another soon behind it will also let that humidity drop as low as I can have it. Shooting for 35-40 max during her last week. I think she can handle 45-48 until then
Hiii Bode
Hearing similar stories helps me not be so angry with my original oncologist....also so glad that your lady belle is all well now!
For my son, if nothing else, I will unearth a mountain if I have to in order to move past this. There is no greater motivation for me than that.
Awww thank you, you are too kind in terms of my lady loving but this Gorilla Glue Super Lemon Haze is sensational. I never knew a cola could be so fat, at least not one in my own garden that's for sure
Thanks again Bode, always appreciate your love and energy. These girls flourish with them as well!
Hi again Bode, yes, like I said, I will be reaching out to the individuals whom I know have had success and also experience with this. I want to write everything down in one place with easy access.
Hi HG. Thank you sweetie. From what I was told it is, like you said, manageable. I'm praying that it is isolated and if it is the lymphoma, we caught it early and it isn't a B Cell or T cell lymphoma, those tend to grow faster. For therapy, it's a heavy hit of on average 6 months of chemo, immuno, stem cell therapy as well as steroids. I can do this if I have to. I try not to touch the damn lymph nodes but it's like I know they are there and it's driving me crazy, thinking oh is this one bigger than it was yesterday? Even the shower doesn't help because I'm more aware of them then...ugh...but anyway, yes, it will be a well received relief I guess, finally knowing what is causing all of these symptoms! Thanks again for the love and hugs and good energy
I will hit you up for sure and man that Etsy, who would have known that's where I would find the molds.
You made me laugh, thank you
Thanks my friend. My big baby Spicoli
Thanks so much my Irish robe buddy. I know you're only one robe and a cup of Columbian away my friend.
Wow guys the outpouring of love, though, really teat a girl up. I can't thank you enough and from the bottom of my green heart, your energies will not go unused, I will filter all of the good vibes into healing energy with the hopes to come back here with a vengeance and until then, keep pushing through like a flipping mule.
I spent some time in the grow room tonight, TK fell asleep, I needed a center.
At this point so late in the grow, the bittersweet emotions come into play. The fruition of it all is almost depressing. However, with buds like these, I can't be teetering over on the waaah-waaah-waaah side of things, Lord knows I've been there often enough as of late.
So looking at our
@Weed Seeds Express Sirius Black who will be our first to leave the tent, we have these colas that are so eccentric and I'm telling you guys, this smell is hypnotizing.
Our Zombie Death is very minty, ice cream, cookie scented with a swirl of dank. If it were an ice cream, I would name it Mint Zombie Cookies.
I didn't do much into our Gorilla Glue Super Lemon Haze tonight as she had some of her colas in the back building spotlight Monday morning. She speaks for herself but you can't feel the Glue of the GG. However, I think most of us know why that strain got its name. This girl, is no different. She is super duper sticky.
I did go a different route with our Gelato-K, coming from the bottom up. She is so blocked by the towering GGSLH and eyes are drawn to the deep purple of the Sirius Black before you are quickly drawn to the Zombie finger buds of our Zombie Death while this absolute gem, is hidden behind them all
And finally, some of the last pics of the full tent as Sirius Black will be leaving on Friday.
That's all I have for the day. Plumber is coming again in 7 hours for yet another plumbing fiasco. Then I have 1/4 doc apps in my allergist and some errands to run. Biopsy is next Wednesday so I will keep you all informed once the results come back.
Off to do my journal entry in the Bull journal and then I need to go to sleep. Much to do this week and next
Thanks you so so so so so much again for everything you guys do for my heart and my soul, keeping it in check and making sure I remember that each day is an absolute blessing, no matter what the circumstances, we were given another day with one another. I'm sorry I failed to see that perspective the last few months.
Happy Grow mid-week friends
beautiful pics too 
. CL
all I can say is get on the CCO
. Please know I’m sending healing prayers towards you. CL
popped, I’ll tag you when they/ if they sprout 
. CL
