Sad news today guys. Yesterday we found out that my father in law has late stage liver cancer. So far they're not planning chemo or surgery. Just "comfort" care
Were not giving up. I have researched several cases of liver cancer being treated with Phoenix tears and Simpson oil. I realize curing him may not be a possibility but if we can at least increase the quality of his life and possibly give him more time I know that would make my wife happy.
Currently I'm researching some high CBD strains. The problem is even if I order seeds today it's going to be 3 months before we'll have a harvest. I'm considering using some of our agent O to make a small batch of Simpson oil for now but I'm not sure if a high thc vs cbd ratio will be as helpful to him. I also have an Ultrasour and Blue OG that are close to harvest which we could use as well but I'm uncertain of the medicinal values of these strains either. Any advice you guys can give us is greatly appreciated!
I've never been much of a religious person. I went to vacation bible school as a kid and learned the basics but I've always been more of a scientific mind.
When I first discovered cannabis at the age of 7 it was a way to fit in with the cool older kids and to try what my parents/relatives were all doing around me. When I really got into cannabis as a young teenager it was to party and have fun.
In my early adult life I began growing it for the first time. I was obsessed with it. I smoked 3 times a day or more 7 days a week.
Then something happened. I started to believe the propaganda and started to see cannabis as a drug addiction. Every time bad things happened to me I would blame it on my weed addiction. After all everyone says it's bad for you right? I believed that it was making my life worse and I needed to quit to be a productive member of society.
Well I never did quit
Over the last few years I've spent a great deal of time researching. Researching all the different religious and scientific beliefs around the world and throughout history. It has been more about discovering myself because when I really ask myself who I am or what I believe in its hard for me to answer.
What I have learned is that I am a spiritual person. I believe in the power of good and I can never get over a gut instinct that tells me things happen for a reason. That we are all destined for something and the things that happen to us are there to shape us into the person we are destined to be. No matter how
hard I try I can't justify these feelings with scientific evidence but something inside of me tells me this is true.
Let me tell you I have been shaped. I grew up watching my father suffer from lupus and nearIy die. I watched him swallow their poison and stay in their hospitals for months at a time. His medications have nearly killed him more times then we can count. As we speak his medicine is slowly killing him but it's supposed to improve his quality of life they say.
I grew up watching my mother suffer severe bi polar and drug addiction. She was in and out of rehab and prison more times than I can count. She has been fighting her bi polar for over 20 years with no improvement and only a steady decline. She is now 50 years old and my sister and I have to take over guardianship of her and put her into a nursing home where they can continue electrocuting her brain for their research until there's nothing left of her.
My sister has served 3 tours in Iraq. She came back with severe PTSD which led to alcoholism and depression. She has gotten 5 dui's and has served several years ultimately because of a mental health condition.
Now my father in law has been diagnosed with late stage cancer and is being told there is no treatment option when I know for a fact one state away from us people are using Phoenix tears to fight this cancer.
Is it a coincidence that my greatest passion in life is growing cannabis when everyone around me needs it so badly?
I am done running from who I am and who I am destined to be. I am sick of standing back watching all the people I love suffer when I have the power to help them. I am done letting the fear of prosecution stop me from doing what is right vs what is legal. It's time to go BIG!