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I'm extremely confused here.
I know you are my friend, and that's the problem.
I didn't say anything negative about 420 magazine, I love this place and am going to miss it.
My problem stems from the fact that I genuinely believe that you either have no comprehension of what I offered you, or that you think my value is so low in life that its beneath consideration.
Some of these poor people watching only think that a job offer came up a few days ago, I applied, spat my dummy out (pacifier) and decided to quit.
You and I know this is not the case however.
we have been in contact about my possible employment since the middle of July. we had quite detailed discussions on what im capable of contributing and what im willing to learn so that I can contribute more and be profitable.
I tried to make it very clear that I wasn't just someone looking for a 'job', I was willing to dedicate my entire life to the 420 movement in whatever way I could, I was effectively offering you my fielty and service like a man at arms to a lord saying ill give my life for you so let me eat at your table.
compared to how shy I am in real life, im pretty open on here about my life. All and sundry that take any interest in me as a person can see from my posts that during my time here, I left a stormy relationship and have met someone here on 420. I am many miles away from my kids and desperate to establish a stable lifestyle so I can go visit them regularly. I also bought a brand new computer, specifically to spend my days doing 420 at a professional level. (went self employed and ran it as a business expense).
I effectively adapted my life so that I could spend the next decade focusing on become all I could be...for you/420 mag
As far as work to do. I know there is almost an unlimited amount of moderation to be done, us members certainly like to voice our opinions
the faq is frequently understaffed with 'happy noobs' offering the bulk of the content generation.
certain sections are at best a work in progress, the sponsor section is woefully underdeveloped. there is no way to locate suppliers based on distance from member, there is no way to search for a product and have it generate a list of
sponsors that provide that product...lets just say that there would have always been an opportunity for me to be worth my existence.
Not to mention the fact that there are several
sponsors on this site who have had personal conversations with me regarding business strategies and product inovations, I freely give out business pointers to maximise profitability, and yes I do have some qualifications and training in business, specifically specialising in business preparation and planning.
Not only was I willing to offer to use my property as a temporary transport depot, but I was willing to specifically work with our
sponsors to put together mixed pallets of products to ship to my property (with me securing the assets with a deposit to cover costs) so that I could be used as a beach head to make doing business in Europe cheaper and more practical with faster response times. I was also willing to be the face of 420 here in the uk meeting some of the great suppliers here and getting them to become
sponsors and product redistributers.
as you can see, the list of what I was able or willing to do is pretty extensive, I would have litteraly dedicated myself to making 420 as big and as profitable as I could.
the reason I am upset is because of how long this all took. I was waiting months for you 420, I sat here late at night making lists and downloading software so that I could learn extras like php and sql server e.t.c so I could even assist in programming the web site.
you then put up these jobs on the forum and sent me a private message almost as an afterthought and to be honest, I got the distinct impression that it felt like you were 'doing me a favour' by offering me anything at all.
like I said though, I honestly don't think you have met someone like me, I just don't think you understood the level of commitment I was willing to give and you.
And as far as remuneration is concerned, you know I said several times pay me what you want and put it up when I have proved myself. I even offered two figures, the first one I offered I have discovered after the fact is significantly less than the American minimum wage and the second offer I made is probably less than a third world illegal immigrant would earn!
Seriously folks. is there anyone reading this that has a business. if I came to you and offered my time, my life and my mind, a willingness to learn anything you wanted of me and a genuine motivation to make you wealthy and successful. and all this for the disgustingly low cost of £2.50 a day to start with, you wouldn't snap me up right away!?
I don't think 420, that you have any comprehension of my value, nor do I think you realise that for a british man to throw himself at your feet for such a paltry sum of money is a compliment in the extreme and not seeing the offer for what it is has dented this british pride beyond repair.
Like I said, there is no hard feelings. 420 magazine is untarnished, its just an incompatibility of thinking styles. I have commited to this other thing now, I had no choice my friend, I need to earn an income somewhere and waiting for you for months has not done my bank balance any favours, so this really is the end. a man cannot have 2 masters, and I need to eat, sleep and breath my new job till im its master.