Emilya asked me to let you all know what's she's been up to. She's ok and safe in her apartment, but life for her has drastically changed. With the loss of her father and partner/roommate, she's having to work more to make ends meet and simply doesn't have the time or passion right now to rejoin us. The grow house belonged to her dad, so she has nowhere to grow and she just doesn't feel the same without it. She wishes everyone a Happy New Year and will be back when the time is right. Please join me in sending her lots of love and positive healing energy through the universe
I could see that she was getting tired and ready to take a break about 6 months before she stopped posting.
That was due to her reassessing her constant head to head battles in the forums with people, arguing different methods and perspectives all of the time. She was finally starting to see how the energy would go south and was working hard to avoid doing that, so it put a damper on her posts for a while during the adjustment period. It was a challenging learning curve to train herself to be less argumentative and to walk away when things got too heated. We were all really proud of her for taking it seriously, herself included. Then her dad got sick and passed quickly, it really uprooted her whole world. Then losing her home and garden on top of it, just sucked the wind right out of her sails altogether. She lost her dad, her girlfriend, her home and her gardening all at once. That's all she had. Hopefully she aligns with a new girl and a new garden and resurfaces in the days to come.
Hopefully she's finding solid ground and hasn't become lost in the tragedy. To lose the people you love back to back and lose everything you know can emerse the heart in a dark sad place.
O Yes Please...
Yes, there was that. I was noticing what looked like frustration with newer growers asking for help but not supplying answers to basic questions that she asked; like asking what was the pH of the water being used or what was the fertilizer, dose & frequency as examples.
