Am I addicted?

[HighAndMighty]

Okay, so I don't know where else to turn for a fair and unbiased opinion.

I'm beginning to wonder if I'm addicted to being high. I'm in my mid-40s and only started using when I was 37. I've always enjoyed it, never looked back, and praised the benefits to those around me.

Now, it's the middle of winter, when I'm normally really depressed. And here I am, getting high on a nightly basis. Yesterday, finally, mercifully, I used the last of my cannibutter. I don't know how to smoke - never have - so figured this was a good time to take a break. For the past month I've been getting high damn near every night, save for 1 or 2 nights here or there.

Well tonight, my first dry night, and here I find myself getting drunk. It's a pathetic second place to getting high. I've had these bottles of liquor in my kitchen forever. Never had a problem. But I found myself really wanting to "just relax," and I had no cannibutter. And the alcohol was there calling to me. So now I'm drunk instead. It's a lot more work, not nearly as fun, and not nearly as restful for sleep. But it sufficed.

I hate to turn away from 420. But I wonder if I have a real problem? I'm afraid to join a 12-step group for MJ because I'm afraid of turning away from it. It relaxes me (and I have real anger issues). I've been in 12-steps for just about everything else, and have escaped other problems. This is my first possible chemical addiction, and I don't want to lose it.

Well, I suppose I may have answered myself already. The sheer number of typos I've gone back and re-typed should speak for itaself. Thank you for any insights.

 

[JJ Bones]

If getting high everyday is looked at as a bad thing, then I am fucked.

 

[HighAndMighty]

Yeah, I'm beginning to think of it more positive terms. I am fortunate to live in this country, to have my home, to have an easy and fun job that isn't affected (self-employed). There's little damage to my life, other than that I'm "wasting" several hours per night not accomplishing much.

Last night tried to drink instead. Boy is that miserable. Got another batch of cannibutter cooking right now. About to rent a movie and order some pizza. Thank you JJ for the one reply

 

[TokeTrees43]

It's all in your mind bro, if your in the middle of a dry spell and feel anxious to relax or get high, just take a couple deep breaths and remind yourself that everything will be alright and that you'll be enjoying sweet sweet cannabis in the near future. And keep in mind moderation try smoking a little less when you re-supply , cheers

 

[TokeTrees43]

and alcohol is also a depressant so that probably didn't help much to get drunk when you were dry

 

[StonerGrower]

If getting high everyday is looked at as a bad thing, then I am fucked.

Ima go with what this guy said. And in reality when you break it down it really all depends on why your getting high. I do it for anxiety and insomnia and for well....its feels damn good to be high. To me being as you were quick to replace cannabis with alcohol it seems that yes actually you may have a problem. Sounds to me not in essence an addiction, but say your depressed and your drowning out all your sorrows type of thing. And eventually after you do something for so long it rewires your brain in a way when you don't have it well its a bummer for awhile and since your used to feeling one way youll do something else in its place to feel off kilter then yes ide say that's addiction.

 

[Trikome]

Marijuana, as we all know, is not physically addictive. You won't feel withdrawals after quitting smoking weed. It all depends on the person. Some people have an addictive personality. If I were you, i'd just keep smoking because there's nothing wrong with it and it feels great. Its medicine after all!

 

[StonedTycoon]

I've found myself to be addicted to pot in the sense that so many things I enjoy when high are just no fun at all when I'm not stoned. I'm not always sure what to make of it except that I don't have physical withdrawal symptoms like other drugs, or even smoking cigarettes. I just seem to be really bored.

I find it's helpful to stop for a few days when I start feeling like I absolutely need it or when I feel like it's draining my motivation. After that I can pick it back up and I feel much more in control. It could very well be a mental addiction, but I've found I'm able to control it well enough that I don't see a problem or much in the way of negative effects.

 

[Weed420]

Okay, so I don't know where else to turn for a fair and unbiased opinion.

I'm beginning to wonder if I'm addicted to being high. I'm in my mid-40s and only started using when I was 37. I've always enjoyed it, never looked back, and praised the benefits to those around me.

Now, it's the middle of winter, when I'm normally really depressed. And here I am, getting high on a nightly basis. Yesterday, finally, mercifully, I used the last of my cannibutter. I don't know how to smoke - never have - so figured this was a good time to take a break. For the past month I've been getting high damn near every night, save for 1 or 2 nights here or there.

Well tonight, my first dry night, and here I find myself getting drunk. It's a pathetic second place to getting high. I've had these bottles of liquor in my kitchen forever. Never had a problem. But I found myself really wanting to "just relax," and I had no cannibutter. And the alcohol was there calling to me. So now I'm drunk instead. It's a lot more work, not nearly as fun, and not nearly as restful for sleep. But it sufficed.

I hate to turn away from 420. But I wonder if I have a real problem? I'm afraid to join a 12-step group for MJ because I'm afraid of turning away from it. It relaxes me (and I have real anger issues). I've been in 12-steps for just about everything else, and have escaped other problems. This is my first possible chemical addiction, and I don't want to lose it.

Well, I suppose I may have answered myself already. The sheer number of typos I've gone back and re-typed should speak for itaself. Thank you for any insights.

Yes you are an addict. But whats wrong with being addicted to cannabis?
Not really. Addiction is a bit of a fallacy. Everyone on the planet has something that they just love to do and thats not an addiction. You can love cheese burgers, coffee, sodas, porn, cannabis and lots of other things, that doesn't mean its bad. The defining question is whether you are hurting someone else from using any substance. If the answer is no then smoke all you want.
Use to smoke in the 60's and 70's and then went straight for 20 years. Probably the biggest mistake I ever made. As I look back and take an objective look at my life, I wish I had never have stopped smoking cannabis. I think life would have went a lot easier for me. The single biggest beneficial aspect of this plant is its ability to stop depression and frustration from a horribly corrupt world we live in.