Cam girl by Day, grower by night

Every time I spend time with my growing ladies, I am reminded on how simple life can be. Today, I can see all of the things around me that I have to be thankful for. Up until the past year, I always thought of what I didn't have, what I was supposed to be or have. I was always searching for something I could never find. I would move from home to home, town to town carting my two girls around with me. I would meet new people and have them break my heart. I would move to another town and it would start all over again. Don't get me wrong. I met a lot of amazing people some of whom have remained as friends. But there were always those few that would ruin me for the rest. I started drinking at a very young age after my father sexually molested me. For 24 years I drank, snorted and swallowed anything to make me feel something other than what I was feeling. When I wasn't using I was eating. I was a mess but no one knew what to do or even where to send me. I started smoking cannabis 2 years ago. It has completely changed my life for the better. However, I grew up in the DARE generation and driving around, looking for a hook up took most of the enjoyment out of it. Most of the time, I never knew what I was buying, where it was grown but most importantly how it was grown. So...I started growing my own. I love spending time with my ladies. I know that they are 100% vegan, loved, nurtured and handled with clean hands. Instead of out looking for sex or drugs to make me feel something; I am in my grow rooms tending to my plants. The feeling of satisfaction is overwhelming sometimes when I look back at the end of the night. My ladies are reaching for the light, stretching, growing and they look amazing. I will start taking some pictures so that anyone who may be reading this can see just how wonderful life can be. I am starting to feel the effects of one of my favorite strains...critical mass. this plant puts my ass in the chair while allowing my head to flow. I want to make some medicated topical dry oil mist with the next critical harvest. Well, here it is me today...at this time of my life. Internet Porn Star by day and grower by night. peace and serenity to you all.