if im ever gonna stay away from weed until timing is perfect i would probably want to take it out my life completely. and this means no 420times, no youtube smoking videos, and just a general attitude that i gotta be responsible for my mental health. i already allowed myself to chill here in 420times and post and what not but in reality, like i just said, i needa take it out my life for a while.
honestly i think that the right timing wouldnt be enough. its a fixed habit that i have when i smoke. if the mood just isnt right or something simple like that then i just crucify myself (seriously). and i get really paranoid, lots.
i do enjoy the music, munchies, masturbation, sleep, showers, etc. so there are positives. not to mention and probably underneath it all the most important, im part of a class of people who live the stoner lifestyle of this beautiful culture. and by lifestyle i mean get great feelings vibes and happiness from smoking this plant. i wanna be apart of that. i kinda get tired of people quickly but atleast i can say, "man we had that session, so awesome! good times." but i cant really do that now, if i cant control myself alone why would i wanna make my life that much miserable by bringing out my issues to another person, it would have to be someone that i know there isnt in my life right now.
ima stick by my word though, i told vince ima hang around although im not smokin, not that u need the one to have the other, i dont think i guess, this can be discussed.
i lost track and wandered, so this is the end of this blog, good bye!.
honestly i think that the right timing wouldnt be enough. its a fixed habit that i have when i smoke. if the mood just isnt right or something simple like that then i just crucify myself (seriously). and i get really paranoid, lots.
i do enjoy the music, munchies, masturbation, sleep, showers, etc. so there are positives. not to mention and probably underneath it all the most important, im part of a class of people who live the stoner lifestyle of this beautiful culture. and by lifestyle i mean get great feelings vibes and happiness from smoking this plant. i wanna be apart of that. i kinda get tired of people quickly but atleast i can say, "man we had that session, so awesome! good times." but i cant really do that now, if i cant control myself alone why would i wanna make my life that much miserable by bringing out my issues to another person, it would have to be someone that i know there isnt in my life right now.
ima stick by my word though, i told vince ima hang around although im not smokin, not that u need the one to have the other, i dont think i guess, this can be discussed.
i lost track and wandered, so this is the end of this blog, good bye!.
