I guess you could say a bit of a loner, I don't have much friends although I for some reason keep it this way then to surround myself by fake friends I cant trust. Ive always took a backseat in any friendship, I guess its because I lack a very interesting persona.
My relationship with my father is non-existent since hes not only an Alcoholic but he was also never really there for me in my childhood, only for the discipline. The guy loves his damn beer and it makes him isolate himself from his family which is a great family. He has many brothers and sisters but his dad came to the US and left em with their mother. Im pretty sure that had something to do with it. I mean I dont spite my dad for not taking me to a Baseball game or Camping or trying any father-son activity. But its like hes a lost soul and Even if I wanted which i do, I wouldnt know how to bring us closer which really sucks. It sucks to not be able to appreciate your dad for the short time you can. We have pretty much nothing in common. He wouldnt encourage me by positive reinforcement but rather by discipline. I would love nothing more than to just share some damn great moments and memories in life because thats all you can really appreciate.
The one fperson that was there for me from childhood is my Cousin. He Is older and maybe sometimes took advatage of that, but I still have mad love for em and see em as an older brother. We recently got thrown in jail, but he took the charges and is now incarcerated. It wasnt a surprise the guys been in jail half his damn life.But when he's Free hes only out a few months,but when we hang out those months are freaking great. Hes probably my only true Friend but cant seem to settle down in life. I hope someday we can both settledown and have a great life supporting eachother.
Drugs, whether they are hard or pills there is always a market and a profit to be gained. There is always someone willing to risk freedom for an easy cent. Drugs were put here and made available so you can screw yourself!But damn its shitty when someone you care for is stupid enough to fall for this EVIL war on drugs let alone 2 of your closest siblings.
I just had to relief some emotions
My relationship with my father is non-existent since hes not only an Alcoholic but he was also never really there for me in my childhood, only for the discipline. The guy loves his damn beer and it makes him isolate himself from his family which is a great family. He has many brothers and sisters but his dad came to the US and left em with their mother. Im pretty sure that had something to do with it. I mean I dont spite my dad for not taking me to a Baseball game or Camping or trying any father-son activity. But its like hes a lost soul and Even if I wanted which i do, I wouldnt know how to bring us closer which really sucks. It sucks to not be able to appreciate your dad for the short time you can. We have pretty much nothing in common. He wouldnt encourage me by positive reinforcement but rather by discipline. I would love nothing more than to just share some damn great moments and memories in life because thats all you can really appreciate.
The one fperson that was there for me from childhood is my Cousin. He Is older and maybe sometimes took advatage of that, but I still have mad love for em and see em as an older brother. We recently got thrown in jail, but he took the charges and is now incarcerated. It wasnt a surprise the guys been in jail half his damn life.But when he's Free hes only out a few months,but when we hang out those months are freaking great. Hes probably my only true Friend but cant seem to settle down in life. I hope someday we can both settledown and have a great life supporting eachother.
Drugs, whether they are hard or pills there is always a market and a profit to be gained. There is always someone willing to risk freedom for an easy cent. Drugs were put here and made available so you can screw yourself!But damn its shitty when someone you care for is stupid enough to fall for this EVIL war on drugs let alone 2 of your closest siblings.
I just had to relief some emotions
