Today they closed Minnesota and its the last thing I care about and that is sad.I did not live all my life good,I mean not lying,fighting etc
as I got older I learned and I grew more spiritual.I now try to think good thoughts ,help people and you know your right when you can sit down and look in the mirror and feel content.
Its nice not to have guilty feelings.Well my brother who I love and have taken care of a long time has up and ran away from here on
his never ending search for drugs.(painpills)
He has left many burning bridges who are threatening Mom and Me.That don't scare us
she will just call the cops.But I'm writing about
lying,,being content,well not bro,not my neice either cause she is with the dealer and she is calling my Mom for money,,,,UNREAL WHAT ARE THESE PILLS DOING TO MY FAMILY.Her and my Mom were so close as she born Some of Moms Grandchildren now she is calling for cash owed to her bo the pill dealer.Owed by her uncle
who ran away.
Last night I had a friend over my outdoor grower who has always said he doesn't sell
and would even get into why.Last night we
smoked some widow and he slipped up and
he has been lying HE DOES SELL.Then he said
that all 5 swiss cheese were eaten by deer.
Later that night I was thinking what he said a week proceeding,,that the S.C. were not growing at all just staying the same size.When
he said the deer got them its such a bummer because they were doing so good.So now I'm wondering who else is lying,,then I thought- I
don't let others bad habits consume brainpower
and get me feeling down,no,no,no.
I feel somewhat better and writing things down
is the best way to get out of thinkings space and learnings space and I don't feel guiltys space and if your not feeling guilty that is
the only time when your spiritualness will grow and look for more ways to become even more at peace.
SO I'M NOT GOING TO THINK OF MY BROS SITUATION,OR MY FRIEND WHO LYED OR
EVEN THAT MY STATE IS SHUT DOWN.
I'm going to brush the cat,ponder what that Mandy is like who came into my journal last
night and meditate and make sure Moms OK.
as I got older I learned and I grew more spiritual.I now try to think good thoughts ,help people and you know your right when you can sit down and look in the mirror and feel content.
Its nice not to have guilty feelings.Well my brother who I love and have taken care of a long time has up and ran away from here on
his never ending search for drugs.(painpills)
He has left many burning bridges who are threatening Mom and Me.That don't scare us
she will just call the cops.But I'm writing about
lying,,being content,well not bro,not my neice either cause she is with the dealer and she is calling my Mom for money,,,,UNREAL WHAT ARE THESE PILLS DOING TO MY FAMILY.Her and my Mom were so close as she born Some of Moms Grandchildren now she is calling for cash owed to her bo the pill dealer.Owed by her uncle
who ran away.
Last night I had a friend over my outdoor grower who has always said he doesn't sell
and would even get into why.Last night we
smoked some widow and he slipped up and
he has been lying HE DOES SELL.Then he said
that all 5 swiss cheese were eaten by deer.
Later that night I was thinking what he said a week proceeding,,that the S.C. were not growing at all just staying the same size.When
he said the deer got them its such a bummer because they were doing so good.So now I'm wondering who else is lying,,then I thought- I
don't let others bad habits consume brainpower
and get me feeling down,no,no,no.
I feel somewhat better and writing things down
is the best way to get out of thinkings space and learnings space and I don't feel guiltys space and if your not feeling guilty that is
the only time when your spiritualness will grow and look for more ways to become even more at peace.
SO I'M NOT GOING TO THINK OF MY BROS SITUATION,OR MY FRIEND WHO LYED OR
EVEN THAT MY STATE IS SHUT DOWN.
I'm going to brush the cat,ponder what that Mandy is like who came into my journal last
night and meditate and make sure Moms OK.
